Marathon Mom

Is anyone else having problems with 3FC the last two days? I couldn’t leave anyone comments yesterday, it wouldn’t let me. In fact, I had a hard time accessing the site at all. And today it won’t let it post a picture. Bummer!

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Today is my rest day. I’m tired and headachy and don’t know why. I was sound asleep by 9:15 last night. It’s like I can’t seem to get enough sleep anymore. I’m so tired all the time. And I yawn all day long. I don’t get it. I’ll be active at work today, up and down stairs a lot. So even though its a rest from deliberate exercise, I’ll still be moving a lot.

Speaking of, I guess I better get going. It’s shower-time.

A.M. weigh in: 163.2 (I know it’s mostly water weight, but I DON’T CARE!! I’m not turning my nose up at a 5 lb loss!!)

I woke up with a horrible stress headache. I’m sure it’s caffeine withdrawals from ONLY having two 20 oz bottles of Coke Zero yesterday. Yeah, pretty sad that is such a huge reduction in my daily caffeine intake that it triggers a headache. This week is going to hurt in more than one way!

Victory over at home snacking last night! I did end up eating some bing cherries. My stomache was literally growing about 9 pm, so a handful did just the trick. I need to get some more fruit in this house. And I didn’t even touch the dinner leftovers (which shockingly the kids HAD cleaned up literally every spec. And the BBQ chicken smell was mixed with bleach and cleaner by the time I got home last night. My kids are brilliant. I think I’ll keep ‘em.)

Time to run and get Sean ready for school. His bus will be here in 20 minutes. 7:10 am for summer school pick up is insane, but I guess I should be grateful cause it forces me to get moving in the morning!

UPDATE 7:31 AM

Sean’s bus showed up at 7:05. Really? Cause 7:10 wasn’t early enough?? Thank goodness I got him up and moving when I did. He was just slipping his jacket on when it pulled up. I don’t like running late or stressful mornings. It just sets up a bad vibe for the rest of the day.

After he was on the bus, I decided to do something I rarely do: fix myself breakfast. Scrambled eggs with cheese and turkey bacon. Mmmm… can I just say how much I adore turkey bacon. 35 calories a slice. It’s like the perfect food! I could eat a whole package of it… wait… that’s probably not good. So I limited myself to three slices. The tip for turkey bacon is to nuke it in the microwave. Since it’s so dry, frying in on the stove only works if you add oil and that REALLY defeats the whole purpose of turkey bacon, doesn’t it! I nuked the 3 slices for a minute 30 seconds and it was perfect. I like my bacon with a little bit of chew, not totally crispy. Ah, delish!! I could blog about just turkey bacon for hours… but I won’t. I’m going to get my 30 minutes on the elliptical right now, before I do anything else.

UPDATE 8:31 PM

Whew! 30 mins on the elliptical and a shower later and I still just want to crawl back under the covers and sleep for another few… days. I am SO tired! TIRED!! Mentally and physically worn out. However, I do feel better today than yesterday. And I guess really that’s all I can ask for. I told Cali I’d take her to see Pelham 123 tonite. My biggest challenge today will be no candy at the movies tonite. Yikes! We know that’s my biggest weakness!!

UPDATE 2:56 PM

Already had my 2 Coke Zeros for the day. Am currently chugging a liter of water with Crystal Light Raspberry Lemonade. It’s totally NOT Coke Zero.

I feel like I am STARVING! I have no idea why. I just ate lunch like an hour ago. 1 Gorton’s grilled salmon fish filet and a package of steamed sugar snap peas. And yet, I can feel my stomach like curling in on itself. Like I’m hungrier now than I was before I ate lunch. WFT? So I’m drinking the spruced up water and hoping that maybe it’s really thirst, not hunger… riiiiiight! I’m just used to snacking all the live long day. And that’s a hard habit to break (thank you, Chicago!)

Thanks Katy for the water-intake check. I do drink tons… but it’s mostly Coke Zero. I do try to drink a few mugs of tea a day, but I miss some days. It’s probably caffeine overload. My neurologist would probably shoot me if he knew how much caffeine I consume - not good for someone with a history of migraines! I need to get back to drinking more water. Will do!!

AM. weigh in: 146.6 (almost back down to 144.4!! So close so close!!)

Today I’m treating myself to an early birthday present - I booked an afternoon at one of our local salons for a facial, eyebrow waxing, make-up “lesson” and hair cut/color/spruce up. It’s going to be expensive and I’m worth every damn penny I’m spending!! I never do stuff like this for myself and with my 39th birthday just around the corner, well, it’s about time! My daughter’s 18th birthday is next week, and I have to say that is really playing into this too. I don’t want to look old enough to have an 18 year old! I guess you could say I’m freaking out just a bit. Oh, and I don’t know if I’ll hit 139 by Saturday, but I’m going skydiving anyway! I’ll be damn close and that’s good enough for me!

A.M. Weigh-in: 149.2 (at least I’m back in the 140s)

I am wondering if PMS is really kicking my ass more than usual lately. The week plus before my period I seem to get totally crazy, lose focus, can’t concentrate and eat beyond out of control because I just plain do not care at all. My period finally ended on Saturday and yesterday I was starting to feel more myself again. Today, I feel like I can conquer the world. This is crazy. I can’t go through this roller coaster every month. It’s mentally and physically exhausting.

I’ve been waking up with severe headaches caused by neck pain. My doctor called these stress headaches when I first started getting them years ago. I’m not sure of the cause. I thought it was due to poor sleep or sleeping position, but now I don’t believe that to be the case. I woke up this morning feeling like I’m severely hung-over. I haven’t had a drink in months, so I know that’s definitely not it. It’s impossible to exercise in the morning when I can hardly move and my head feels like it’s filled with lead.

But I’ve gotten the eating back under control. That feels good. I wish I could figure this all out!!

1:00 pm UPDATE

Just had a very healthy and delicious lunch of spicy tuna rolls and thai chicken salad. I wish I didn’t have to sit here, shivering at my desk. I am SO cold. I have on layers of clothes, but no heavy jacket. I hate that it’s warmer outside than it is inside and so I FREEZE to death at work. I have on a long sleeve thermal shirt and a short sleeve zip-up hoodie over jeans, socks and tennies and I almost hurt cause I’m so cold!! Spring outside - arctic inside. This bites!!