Weight: 166.4
I did my 45 on the elliptical last night when I got home from work. I mean, walked in the house, straight to the bathroom to change into workout clothes and on the elliptical before I could think about it and talk myself out of it. I did my crunches and arm work via the Shake Weight afterwards. And then plopped into bed. I did make it through Biggest Loser last night. Guess there’s a positive to the time change - I can stay up a little later. BIG DOWNSIDE - I can NOT get up in the morning! Period. I am draggin’ ASS in the morning just to get the kids to school on time and me to work LATE! It’s like 10 or 11 before I’m finally feeling awake enough to function. This is NOT working. UGH.
And I can tell the antidepressents are out of my system because while I’m not so dog-tired all day long, I feel BLAH. Not necessarily sad, just very apathetic. (Oh the irony!) So now I sit at work and just can’t motivate myself to do much of anything. Certainly nothing beyond what absolutely has to be done. And even then… I’m sending out orders days late because I just don’t care. That sucks. THIS SUCKS! I need a nap.
I am also sitting here trying to talk myself OUT of going over to the store and buying a box of Cheez-its. For numerous reasons, eating them would be a really bad idea. Like that I’m allergic to gluten and it’s the equivalent of poisoning myself. Awesome, I know. And yet there’s the big fat I JUST DON’T CARE.
So far I’ve had a banana, Yoplait fat free yogurt (new flavor blueberry pie - yum!) and a gluten free granola bar. Approx 300 calories total. Which is right where I should be… and yet, I just want to stuff my face. Like a subconscious munching. And I don’t want to go rooting through our storage trailer for an order that I needed to ship yesterday… guess I know what I need to do. Damn it. I hate being all responsible and shit.
Posted on March 17th, 2010 by firefly
Filed under: daily blathering
wow, I’m impressed by the workout after work business, because my good intentions often go flying out the window when I walk in the door.
Wish I had some good advice on the depression, but I can just offer a shoulder to lean on. Those drugs are pretty hard to come off, and I don’t thing the time change could be helping.
Anything healthy around that you can let yourself eat to fulfill that need to munch?
Is your doctor going to try you on another drug once this one is completely out of your system? My sister suffers from depression and I remember her having to try several drugs before she found the one that worked. She still has to tweak it from time to time but for her it was worth it.
For what it’s worth, the fact that you’re still exercising and making healthy food choices is amazing. We’re here for you so grumble all you want
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