Floundering but refusing to give up
daily blathering November 4th, 2009
Weight: 159.0
I need to get back to daily blogging here. If nothing else, it keeps me accountable. It was too easy last month to just sort of shut my eyes and think “eh, tomorrow. I’ll get back on it tomorrow” and then eat whatever and not work out. That’s how I put back on those 20+ lbs over the summer. That’s EXACTLY how I did it! Well, I’m not going to blindly eat my way through the holidays. I just can’t start the New Year with it all to do over again. Especially since I’ll be only 14 weeks from my marathon in Paris. I need to be in top form, not recovering from a three month binge!
Uh-oh… I just ate a vanilla tootsie roll midgie (the little ones.) Well, it was delivered by my 5 year old who has dubbed herself the Candy Fairy and runs around leaving candy under everyone’s pillow (can you tell the Tooth Fairy has been to our house recently?! Not for her, though, but for big brother Sean who has now lost more teeth than he has left! He looks like a human jack-o-lantern!) I couldn’t hurt the Candy Fairy’s feelings, now could I?! What kind of a mother would I be, I HAD to eat it for the emotional well-being of my child (laying it on a little thick there? Dammit!)
I’m still sick, a lingering chest and head cold. But I feel MUCH better today than I have the last few. I am optomistic that I’ll be able to get back to the exercising thing by the weekend *knocks on wood*!
Gotta get moving for work. I’ll finish this up later.
UPDATE 10:17 AM
Perhaps starting the day with a visit from the Candy Fairy isn’t so great afterall. Since I grabbed three fun size snickers and a regular tootsie midgie on my way out the door. However, I WAS planning on picking up a gingerbread latte at Starbucks on the way into work and I skipped it because of the little candy-fest. So calorie and sugar wise, I’m probably balanced out. Guilt - we don’t need no stinkin’ guilt!!
I have now had a Lean Cuisine Flatbread melt thing for breakfast (I believe you should consume the most calories in the morning and wean down as the day goes on, like I hear they do in Europe. Cause I’m all fancy-schmancy like that!) And I’m currently enjoying a hot cuppa Lady Grey tea. I feel more “on” now, like I’ve narrowly escaped a really bad accident. Day started off not great, but I’ve “fixed” it.
Today is going to be a busy one. But I’ve got a plan brewing in my noggin’. I’m going to beat this holiday season yet!! New Years Day will see me at my lowest weight so far, and within a stone’s throw of my goal weight. I CAN DO IT!!!
UPDATE 4:40 PM
Currently paving the pathway to Hell…
I have eaten three packages of 100 calorie Keebler fudge stripe cookies and 4 packages of 100 calorie Cheez Its (ya, lets not do the math on that, shall we??) Also had a Lean Cuisine Southwest Chicken Panini for lunch. I would declare food OVAH for today - but who are we fooling? I’m going to go home and eat more candy, with our without accompanying fairy.
NO, I’M NOT!!! I just thought of this!! I have a two hour meeting tonite after work (that I do NOT want to go to, but that’s just life, ain’t it!) and while I’m gone, I’m going to have the kids divide up all the candy into Candy Sean CAN Have and Candy Sean Can’t Have (because it has: gluten, dairy, and/or peanuts - which, yes, means most of it.) Then I’m going to have them put it into two separate and appropriately labeled tupperware containers in the cupboard and out of sight. I am definitely a see/do kind of person. And out of sight/out of mind totally works with me… mostly. It helps anyway.
They’ll probably have pastries and cookies at the meeting tonite. Dammit!


November 4th, 2009 at 10:52 am
Aw lol- I think all kids go through that phase- I know I did!
Maybe you could slowly deplete the candy fairy’s supply without her knowing? NOT by eating it btw :p
Good luck!
November 4th, 2009 at 11:24 am
I dunno, maybe I’m becoming militant about the whole thing, but I think I’d sit down your daughter, and, in terms she can understand, tell her you love her for giving you the candy (the Fairy), but that you are trying very hand to lose weight to be healthier, and candy just isn’t on the plan. Period. At five, she’ll get it. And you’ll have taught her a VERY valuable lesson about the “value” and “worth” of candy.
November 4th, 2009 at 11:50 am
Candy fairy? That is so sweet. As long as it’s just ONE, it’s got to totally be worth the smile on her face! Welcome back.
November 4th, 2009 at 3:48 pm
I love the idea of entering the new year at your lowest weight. I’ma give it a try too.
November 5th, 2009 at 10:51 am
The Candy Fairy is very sweet. Very dangerous for Mom, but very sweet!
I find that if I go a day or two without blogging or posting to the forums, I start snowballing down hill. It’s a great way to stay accountable, plus we like hearing from you everyday 