Marathon Mom

I got hit today with some major financially devastating news. It has left me reeling and I don’t know what to do. It’s my own fault for not asking the right questions and making some basic assumptions. I don’t know how I’m going to make it month to month. And in March it’s going to get markedly worse. I can literally FEEL the stress in my body right now. I feel like I’m going to implode. I hate the mess I’ve made of my life. Financially, I am never going to be ok. I make it month to month and I’ve learned how to be ok with that. Now that’s being threatened. I just have to cut out ALL extras. I hate that this has happened right before two of my kids’ birthdays and the start of the holidays.

I’ll make it work. I always do. I’m just freaking out right now. And it’s going to be a hard few days til I can fully accept this news and learn how to be OK with it. It is what it is. Life was just feeling like it was going to be alright there for a few minutes and now the rug’s been yanked out again. Damn it. Kids and I are going to have to have a family meeting tonite so they know that while we’ll still be able to pay our bills, all extras have to be cut out. There’s just no other way.

Being poor sucks.

Posted on September 13th, 2009 by firefly
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