A.M. weigh-in: 166.0
Even though my weight is still up, I sure I’ve come out of my depression. Thank Goodness. The hopelessness and self-hatred of the past few months is gone, as is the overwhelming sadness and loneliness. I just feel “better”, like after battling a long and persistent cold (speaking of, I think I’ve come down with one, slight albeit, but annoying nonetheless!)
I’m increasing my protein and cutting way back on my “bad” carbs. Breads and sweets are my trigger foods. Well, carbs in general really. Bread, pasta, pastries, french fries, heck even baked potatoes. Eating even one bite for me is like an alcoholic taking that first drink - I wake up the next day in a carb-hangover with wrappers littered about wondering what the heck happened?!
However, I’m not creating a NO list for myself. Nothing more enticing than a list of forbidden items! My inner brat is spoiled and incorrigible!
More protein and veggies. Less bread, pasta and desserts. I’m counting calories (had to give up the WW membership, I just couldn’t afford the monthly payments to gain weight. Not WW’s fault. I wasn’t working the program. I’m using The Daily Plate, I’ve used it in the past and I really like it! FitDay is another excellent site that’s made BIG chances and inprovements over the last year and I admit, I have an account there too (both are free, I’m a cheapskate!)
On the exercise front, I finally went out last night and bought a new pair of REAL running shoes (Saucony). I cringed at spending $50 on shoes, but they weren’t even close to the most expensive ($135 on running shoes??? REALLY?? Do they run FOR you? And do the windows? Cause ouch!) And if I’m going to really run, I need real running shoes, not the cheapest bargain sneaks that Target has to offer.
I downloaded a 5 week to 5K running plan. Unfortunately, I can’t find a 5K in my area within that time frame. So I don’t have a “goal” I’m working towards, which sort of sucks. But there are 10Ks coming up in October and so I’m long term shooting for them. I REALLY want to run a marathon by 40th birthday, next April. Or better, ON my 40th birthday. Cause I think that would be really awesome, and also I’m totally crazy like that.
UPDATE 10:53 A.M.
How cool would this be: Paris Marathon is held next year ON MY 40th BIRTHDAY!!! I am seriously considering this. I have never been to Europe. And to go to Paris for my birthday and run my first marathon in PARIS on my birthday - that would just be TOOO awesome!!
That sounds crazy, doesn’t it. Most people dream of cruises, lounging on beaches, room service and romance. Not mean, I fantasize about excruciating feats of physical endurance. Yeah, I’m totally whacked! But still, I totally want to do this!!! I’m going to change my blog to Maman de Marathon!!
UPDATE 11:49 A.M.
I’M GOING TO DO IT!! I’ve talked to my mom and she’s going to come with me. She’s been to Paris a couple of times (at least) and she loves Euro-Disney (of course!!) I’m going to pay my way, she’s going to pay hers and we are going to DO THIS!! She thinks its a great idea. And what fantastic motivation for me!! PARIS! In April! I can do this!!!
Posted on July 17th, 2009 by firefly
Filed under: daily blathering
I’m sorry to hear you’ve had to battle that the past few months. I’m very happy to hear you’ve woken up and are being freed from it. A lot of people assumed I was depressed during the last 7 weeks of being off plan and for some reason I wasn’t. I don’t know why, but I am forever grateful because had I been, it would’ve been 1000 times harder to deal with. Hey, we’re back again, and we’ll come back as many times as it takes right? Hopefully we learn something along the way and, one day, not make the same stupid mistakes
WTG!
Haha I spend a lot on shoes cuz my feet have issues- I spend at least $300 a year on shoes and good insoles (not the dr. sholes or whatever but good inserts that was like $40+.
Dude it made FIFTY million ONLY on Wednesday! I know it’s going to hit records!!
Lol yes broc is a bird!
I will have to check out fit day. Haven’t been on that site in years. I’ve been using daily plate, too. Glad you are feeling better.
Holy crap, this is the coolest thing, EVER. Like ever. I will be rooting for you!!!
there is NO WHERE better than Paris!!!! How awesome!!! YOU CAN AND WILL DO IT!!!