Marathon Mom

A.M. weigh-in: 160.6

Slow and steady wins the race, right? RIGHT??!! I just have to keep reminding myself that it’s OK to lose .2 lbs a day. That is something to celebrate. Unless Jillian Michaels is residing in my house, it is foolish to expect a pound a day weightloss. Good. Any loss is good. Losing one to two pounds a week is good.

Why is that so hard? I’m such an all or nothing kinda girl. It spills over into every aspect of my life. This Go Big Or Go Home mentality isn’t getting me anything but a permanent residence in Frustratedville. Moderation. I need to learn how to embrace this concept. Doing things in moderation. Yeah, I’m gonna have a hard time with that one.

Speaking of, I ate too much dinner last night. I made the kids grilled cheese with turkey sandwiches for dinner. And there was left over BBQ beef from the night before. So last night was sandwiches night. But it was a hot meal that I prepared for them, not “hey, make yourself some sandwiches” cold straight from the fridge. So I feel ok about them. I made myself a couple of wraps with whole wheat low carb tortillas, a couple of slices of turkey breast, lettuce, tomatoes, and pickles. Hmm… and then I made a third and melted a little low-fat cheese in it as well. Then I noticed that Skye didn’t eat all of her sandwich, so I finished off the last few bites… and then I had like 3 BBQ beef sandwiches on hamburger buns… and ate a small piece of white chocolate that’s been hiding in the back of the freezer… and then I said WTF?! And stopped it there. Even though I was REALLY wanting some Twinkies… or Ding Dongs… or Hostess Cupcakes… or Zingers… not really that picky, just about anything would have done. THIS is why I don’t keep that kind of stuff in the house, even if Sean wasn’t allergic to them. Because if they had been there, I would have eaten first and asked questions later. Since they weren’t on the premises, I would have had to drive to the store… and that made me stop. Thank GAWD!! I stopped. And then I found my mind and put it back in, cause for a mintue there I had TOTALLY lost it! Whew!

So far today has been in control:

Breakfast: sugar-free Quaker oatmeal
Snack: fat-free Yoplait, apple turnover YUMMY!!
Lunch: Southwest Chicken panini, Lean Cuisine

I AM going to my Weight Watchers meeting tonite. And I’m weighing in. And it’s going to be even higher than my last highest-ever-weight-weigh-in. And that sucks since I’m actually down a couple of pounds! But, tonite is my bottom of the barrel, last straw night. I’m back on it again!

Funny how life is so cyclical. The last time I joined WW was back in 2007. Six months in I weighed in more than I had when I joined. That was my wake-up call that I needed to get my act together. I lost pretty steadily after that, until I stopped going. Then I plateaued for about 8 months and then rejoined in January of this year. Six months later and guess what? Yep, weigh more than I did when I re-joined in January. At least I’m not back up to what I was in 2007. I’m still down 60 pounds.

Posted on June 10th, 2009 by firefly
Filed under: daily blathering