A.M. weigh-in: 148.4
Yesterday I signed up for a 12 month membership to the gym right next to work. Not even a block away. They’re open 7 days a week, have showers, spinning and kickboxing classes, and long hours. I get two free sessions with a personal trainer. I’m totally psyched. So, did I jump out of bed and hit the gym this morning. No. I didn’t. I’m too intimidated to actually GO IN! Even the idea of it makes me all nervous and squidgy inside. Why the hell is that? I mean, it’s a gym. And it’s not even that I’m fat and I worry about everyone pointing and laughing at the pathetic, uncoordinated fat girl. I’ve belonged to gyms before and loved them. But it’s hard for me the first couple of times I go, because I don’t know anyone and I feel like an outsider. Like everyone is part of this little gym-clique and I’m on the outside. I don’t know where I get this from. Once I go a couple of times, I’ll be fine. But ugh, I hate being the new girl!!
Posted on March 30th, 2009 by firefly
Filed under: daily blathering
You can do it! Funny thing is I just quit my membership- I decided I’d rather work out at home
I’m sure one day when I lose more weight I’ll go back to the gym, but not right now…
LOL! You went skydiving but you are “afraid” to go to the gym. I totally understand though. The good thing is that once you get there a few times, you will feel at home there. That is how I am with the track. Now I feel like I own the place.
It is tough to do things for the first time but generally once you do it becomes easier. Even if you only go for 15 minutes the 1st time it will be worth it!