Wherever it takes me

So I have a fancy-schmancy event at the Plaza tomorrow night, and of course I needed a dress for it.  So I went to Macy’s during my lunch yesterday but did not find anything that I loved.  Although, I did fit into a couple of size 14’s which was thrilling

Then, last night after work I headed to Dress Barn (there was also a Marshalls and a Fashion Bug in the shopping center so I knew I would find SOMETHING!).  And, I went over to the “regular” side, not the Women’s side, and found a few dresses.  The dress that I wound up getting is a size 14 and very cute.  I am very happy because this was my first shopping victory

My husband asked me when the last time I wore a 14 was and I had to answer that it was before we even met……more than 13 years.  That’s just crazy!!

But I am at 19lbs down!!!  Another 2.2 lost this week!!!!   YYYYAAAAYYYY 

I cannot believe how good I feel about all the positive changes in my attitude, and choices, and movements.  I still don’t see the difference in the mirror or in clothes, though others mention the changes they see.  But, I don’t need to see them yet.  I know in my head (which is really where I think it matters most) that the weight is finally coming off.

So far I’m having a pretty good week.  My busy time at work is easing into the monthly downtime period.  I love this week of the month.  I feel like I get so much of myself together, rather than the running ragged that happens the rest of the time.

Food hasn’t been great this week, but I still have time to make up for that.  Zumba last night was fantastic - I’m so glad that I’ve found it and can keep going with it.  I made a new gym friend last night who was taking the class for the first time.  She loved it and said that she’ll definitely be back so that’s nice.  My Monday night class is hard because I don’t know anyone there.  I do that one all by myself which isn’t the end of the world but it’s nice to have someone there to talk to and be friendly with.

Tonight is going to be a “take it easy” night for me.  My knee has been hurting since Saturday so I’m hoping that going easy tonight will let that heal and keep me on track for the rest of my exercise goals this week.  I also desperately need some good sleep so will be heading to bed early.

Another pound that is :)  I’m so glad that even among weeks of high stress, frustration, and little sleep I can still manage to lose weight! 

Tomorrow is Easter.  The eggs are decorated, the girls are asleep, and the eggs are being hidden.  I have no plans beyond breakfast in the morning with my dad and the kids and I am beyond thrilled about that. 

I hope that everyone has a wonderful week. 

My life is spinning out of control.  It has been for awhile now, but it’s really come to a head in the last couple of weeks.  Part of what has kept me going with the weight loss and exercise is that I am able to control that.  It’s still what’s keeping me going. 

Ugh………………………

Another weigh in has come and gone and I am down another .8lbs.  I’m perfectly fine with that.  That brings me to 15.8lbs in 9 weeks.  I am happy with my rate of loss and my changes in attitude and action. 

This weekend was a wash.  I was supposed to have a booth at a flea market all day yesteday selling my diaper cakes and by 9:00am 98% of the vendors had packed up and left.  In order to “stick it out” and, in part, prove my mom wrong I tried to stay.  But, people were driving into the parking lot, seeing that there were no vendors and turning right around.  So disappointing!  I did get a lot done yesterday though. 

Today, the girls and I are hanging out with my mom and her fiance and celebrating my oldest’s birthday.  Then Sunday dinner at my dad’s tonight.  One day I will put my foot down and claim my weekends for myself!!  Not this weekend though

I have a busy week ahead of me.  I’m in the middle of my busy time at work and DD’s birthday is Wednesday and my husband’s birthday is Thursday, and Easter this weekend.  Plus need to get in my workouts.  I WILL get to my Wednesday morning class this week regardless of whether or not the young DD keeps me awake all night.  I really missed it this week.

I’m sure I’ll check in along the week.  Good luck to all competing in the challenges and to everyone on meeting their personal goals!

I’ve posted before about that super critical voice in my head.  She shoves her way in every so often trying to derail my efforts.  I’m getting pretty good at ignoring her.

Until yesterday when I realized that she’s my mother’s voice.  My mother sat me down yesterday and told me that I never follow through on anything so she has a hard time supporting me in what I say I’m going to do.  Ok, it’s definitely true that my record on follow through is not great.  But, why take away from the positive of what I’m doing to point out my flaws of the past?  That little voice in my own head tells me all the time that I won’t keep up, that I’ll quit just like everything else but I can push through that.

But when the words come from my mother, it’s harder to push them away.  She says how happy she is to see me not being sad anymore but she doesn’t think it will last.  Well if you’re telling me that I’m a failure how am I supposed to be happy and not depressed? (is what my positive voice was screaming back at her)

I will push through this because I know that I’m going to be successful at SOMETHING.  And gaining the confidence that losing all this extra weight, and some of this emotional baggage, is getting me is only going to set me up for MORE successes.  Hell, I’ve lost 15lbs in 8 weeks and met my first 5% goal - and that was without her “support” so I know I can do this.  On the other hand, I need to let these feelings out because that voice in my head has added ammunition to get me off track…..

Every day so far this week I have thought it was the next day (Tues = Wednesday, Wednesday = Thursday, etc.) so today was supposed to be Friday gosh darn it!!  I am exhausted but very happy that I managed to get to that total body class on Wednesday morning all by myself - no DH bashing involved

Also last night, I made a discovery.  First, an admission - I LOVE TACOS.  Actually, I love almost all Mexican food.  I could (and have while in Mexico) eat it every day.  So when my husband mentioned making tacos for dinner last night a bell went off in my head.  You see, I was at target yesterday during lunch and saw that MorningStar Farms had a meal starter that is a replacement for ground beef (or ground turkey in my usual case).  So I told him to pick that up since I figured that with the taco seasoning any aftertaste or texture issues should be covered up

And…… I loved it!!  It is definitely my new replacement for taco meat and I will probably try it in some of my other recipes.  And it’s only 1 point for a 2/3 cup serving. 

Tonight I’m going out to dinner with some of the girls from work.  Shockingly we are going to a Mexican restaurant LOL.  Stay awaaaayyy from the chips has been my mantra all day.

Enjoy your evening Chickies!!  Weigh In tomorrow!!

It’s really amazing to me how much support I receive at work.  Since I’m doing weight watchers at work there’s support among women in all of the different departments, as well as my inter-departement “competition” that we are having. 

My head keeps swelling with the constant chorus of “You’re looking so skinny.”  Now, I don’t see it, nor do I feel it but it’s so awesome to hear the words and know that all of the good decisions that I’m making really are making a difference.

I also find it amazing that the job that I was so miserable at for such a long period of time has led to such great friendships and a really positive support system.  I honestly credit all my girls here for keeping me on track.  There’s definitely an accountability factor, not only to myself, but to the group. 

My whole outlook is so much more positive - on everything!  I am doing things for myself and losing the guilt of taking time away from my family which is actually making me a much more pleasant wife and mother and daughter and sister and friend.  Who woulda thunk it? 

I didn’t get to the kickboxing class yesterday - I think that back to back classes are beyond my abilities right now.  But that’s ok.  I may get there one day.  Tonight my husband is working late so it’s just me and the girls.  I am considering doing a class tonight and putting them in the daycare.  We’ll see how I feel as 7 rolls around, and also how they are since they are usually in bed by 7:30. 

Have a great Tuesday everyone!!

I was awful this weekend.  Really really really awful.  All of my flex points are gone and most of my AP’s (though I’ll start building those back up today).  But I had so much fun - I honestly think it was the best birthday weekend I’ve had in a ridiculously long time. 

I planned for it though so I’m not dissapointed in myself too much, and I know that it’s only 1 week even if I do go up in the end!

However, I am thinking about doing the kickboxing class prior to my Zumba class tonight for the extra kick in the butt.  We’ll see how that goes!