Wherever it takes me

I have had successes during the last 16 weeks.  I have managed to lose 10% of my body weight at a healthy rate, I have developed an exercise plan and stuck to it.  I enjoy working out and the satisfaction of the sweat dripping off my body.

But, I’ve lost some of my momentum recently.  And I’m not sure why that is.  Since I am, in fact, in this for the long haul and really do want to continue to lose this weight for good I’ve decided that it’s time to recommit myself and make some more changes to keep myself moving in the right direction.

• I will exercise at a minimum of 4 times a week and aim for 6-7 times a week for at least 30 minutes at a time!
• Every day at least 1/4 of my daily points allowance will be filled with fruits and vegetables.
• I will limit my alcohol intake to no more than 4 drinks a week.
• I will document my successes and failures and weakness here in this blog at least once a week.
• I will continue going to my WW meetings every week - even if work cancels the program.

This is my promise to myself to keep myself on track for the rest of the year long weight loss commitment.  I know it won’t be an easy journey and I know that I will falter but my health is more important than a binge or feelings of defeat.

The sky is the limit and the only barrier is ourselves - so get out of my way fat girl!!  It’s time for healthy to work her way out!!!

I am just about back to my weigh in weight on 5/8.  While I understand the principles of the body and recovery it’s nice to know that that’s really what it was.  I have failed at weight loss so many times in the past that the little voice (yes she made her appearance again) was telling me that I was just headed down the failure path again. 

I went to the gym last night to do my Physical therapy exercises since I had to cancel 2 of my appointments this week.  I’m actually going to try to  bring PT down to 2 days a week (or even 1 if I promise to do the exercises at the gym 2 x a week in addition to the visit)….  it’s a lot to take that time out of my evenings in addition to my regular gym time.

It’s a rainy, dreary day here so I don’t foresee doing a heck of a lot with the kids.  Enjoy your Sunday!!

So last week was fantastic!  I lost another 4.2lbs bringing me to my 10% goal and 25lbs.   And then this week I gained IT ALL back!!  I’m right back where I was 2 weeks ago.  That being said, I added new exercise this week and my muscles were still screaming yesterday so I was probably retaining water as the muscles rebuild, and, because I knew the scale was showing a gain I didn’t pick my weigh in clothes accordingly - I wore my heavy jeans.

But, I’m not excusing myself.  I will be asserting myself twice as hard this week to go back to where I was last week!  I know that I can do this.  I just need to recommit myself to trying harder and not slipping.  I need to allow myself to remember how good it feels when I’m on plan and everything works!!

Had one of those weeks.  I used my no weigh in pass last week because I really didn’t want to step on that scale.  I’m proud to say however that this week I’m back on track - though I have yet to step on my personal scale to see my progress.  But I’m ok with whatever it is.

I think that being so close to 10% freaked me out.  I’m ok with small goals but the thought of having to determine my final goal weight made me feel like I’m setting myself up for failure.  I know that I can keep setting the mini goals, just like I’ve been doing.  But, it was daunting.  All of my insecurities come out and really affected me last week. 

But I’m ready to push forward.  I AM doing this - I don’t need a goal that’s 60lbs away to freak me out.  I’ll just keep taking it 1lb at a time, meeting my 5lb goals and heading towards filling my book up with those stickers.