Tired…

So I’ve a had a good long day but I’m so knackered. And everyone just keeps talking to me about food and eating to the point that I’m actually even more tired from discussing this stupid shit. Everyone (who doesn’t diet, have EDNOS or in fact even seem ┬áto know much about dieting) is busy telling me what to do, how to do it and why I fail at it. It just makes me feel fatter, less attractive, more depressed and uncomfortable in my skin. I am considering approaching a low Gi diet, and actually removing most simple carbs and sugar from my diet as now that I’ve been eating so little meat and more past or bread I havent lost ANYTHING. I still eat virtually nothing… I mean my calories are low most days although last night I had some sushi, more than I’d usually allow myself for dinner. Still I feel plateaued and I’m so tired of all the self hate I’ve inflicted upon myself. I envy people who don’t care, who can just eat and be happy. I miss those times. I the time when food was awesome… now I can’t enjoy it because even while I’m eating it I hate myself for eating it…

Ugh. Sorry for a very EDNOSy post, whoever is reading this. Not good stuff. I’ll be trying to battle is and look into a healthier way to lose this weight…

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