Me… just thinner and happier.

I have literally reached the stage where a single minute of a single day where I am not thinking about my weight. Over the last year, i have put on 1/2st - 1st (i really dont want to know exact amounts), and even though logically i KNOW its not a huge amount of weight, and logically i KNOW i’m not massively overweight (size 10, will be gearing towards a 12 if i don’t do something), its seriously torturing me.

Even though i’m in a relatively good place in my life at the moment - i finished college last year with AAA at my A levels, i have a great boyfriend, work two jobs and am going to uni next year - i still cant feel happy. I can be moody, snappy, oversensitive (fat jokes send me into some kind of demonic overdrive) and more than that, the way i feel doesn’t feel normal. i dont like it.

So, as of today, i’m doing something about it. Not half-hearted attempts, but i real goal and a real plan. My ideal weight would be around 8 1/2 stone… but i can adjust that depending on how it goes. to be honest, i’m not overly concerned about the numbers on the scales anymore, i just want to feel good about myself.  wish me luck!