Yep. Tomorrow I go back to work after a week plus hiatus. I have taken full advantage of sleeping in and its going to bite me in the arse tomorrow. I am going to watch the Biggest Loser tonight. That is going to bite me in the arse tomorrow. I really continually wish that I was just independantly wealthly. If I don’t get my head out of the clouds… its going to bite me in the arse tomorrow.
I’m having a hard time “liking” my job. I used to love it. I put myself through school, and into debt, to get my masters degree to have it. Now that its mine, there are days (more often than not) that the money doesn’t matter. I have anxienty that doesn’t seem to leave, even when I am sleeping. Especially when I should be sleeping. I am a 41 year old woman running a dominately “male” world. I have clawed my way to the top over 14 years. When I arrived, I had to wonder if I was too eager. I am a director of a 75 person department with 10 division and 95% of my staff are incredibile. Its the 5% that shake me to the core. Therein lies the problem. It sounds stupid, and I am not intending to whine, but there are days that managing things rather than people sounds SOOO enticing. How did I end up on this topic? Oh, yeah… back to it, back to work.
Think I’ll go find something uplifting to read or watch relight my fire (and shake the funk). It is a new year… and my first day of work I should return shining. Night blog world.