191 days until 40th. Today is Christmas. Decided to give myself the gift of a little time to evaluate how to get my butt in gear and pull some pieces of my life back together. I let the days run me lately, I don’t get to manage my time, I only react. The fact that I have been majorly ill twice in the last 6 weeks is a huge red flag that I need to change. So 3, no 4 elements that need addressing House Work, Work Work, Finances, Fun. I have too much of the first 3 taking up my time, stressing me out. And fun, nothing feels fun anymore. Everything feels like work. Christmas felt like an appointment. Here at 1, there at 330, here at 645, there at 7, up at 5, kids home at 9. Oye. No wonder the last 24 hours have been exhausting. Add me sick, hubby sick, and less that 4 hours sleep. Recipe for a blast, right? uh huh.
Okay – so Item 1 – House Work. I need help. I work long days. I am not the only one who lives here, full time or part time. I am going to put a chore list together. I know it seems juevenile, but I think that if both hubby and I have one or two little chores a night/day that we do, then the house will come together. It may be slowly, but it will happen. I am going to count on flylady.com to help.
Item 2 – Work work- I have a new job. Its interim now. Its a ton of responsibility, and a paycheck that reflects that level of responsibility. The $ is very helpful, the extra stress is almost unmanagable. I need to delegate some work. I need to get my supervisors on the same page in terms of how they manage discipline in their divisions. I need to learn that I am not the one that needs to find the solutions to their problems, they need to come to me with solutions. One day at a time. I need to plan down time to think and schedule. I say “yeah, I’ve got a minute” way too often. I need to let other people handle their stuff.
Finances – ugh… this should be the easy one. Quit charging. Save first, manage the rest. Pick one system to budget. I currently have a spread sheet, quicken, and…. oh I’m sure theres another one. So committing to one by Jan 1st. Probably the spreadsheet.
Fun – -I miss fishing. I can’t relax unless the house is at least presentable. I am hardpressed to leave for a vacation if I know I am coming back to a dirty house. I want the end of my vacation to be a vacation too. I also need to put priority on the “fun” part of life. I tend to work now play later, and it turns into work now and then work some more. I know I have to get a handle on this to keep my marriage strong, and to make time for me to get healthy – or even relax. I know I need to get a handle on this to keep my sanity. I am actually really looking forward to getting some down time outside of my house. Gonna start maybe by planning some trips. Then will worry about scheduling work around it. Will start saving for it, and be sure that the house work doesnt make me deviate from enjoying it.
I think I’m off to plan January. Baby steps, but determined steps. 2011 will bring new life….. much needed new life. And maybe more than fit at 40, I will be fullfilled at 40.
Off to explore some options – looking forward to pulling it together.