Okay… last tushy headline… I promise. Just got back from Superbowl game at BF’s brothers, and dropping off kids. Am pooped, but ready to start a new day tomorrow. I think in hind sight, I have totally abused my injury time and taken advantage of feeling like crap as my moment to mow through anything resembling food. I blame my 8 lb in 2 weeks weight gain soley on my inability to exercise. I see now that I am a moron. I could have controlled myself and opted out. Well, I will see what the scale reads tomorrow morning, and go from there.
My weekend was funky, and draining, and numb. Revisited emotions from one of the items on my 2008 top 10 things that suck after a number appeared in the text messaging details of Boblians phone bill. Anywho… that was like Thursday, then Friday was cleaning out my office and found some stuff I had written about how I felt about the same thing in 2008 when it originally surfaced (and obviously affected me enough to have me running to the store to empty my head out in journal format). Found myself awash in emotion again, reliving an epic “reactionary WTF?” and then ran full speed into “why should I deal with this” ultimately performing a “I’m not gonna let it rent space in my head” dismount and sticking the landing at “this is not my problem”. As I sit here tonight, my mood had improved (margaritas a happy girl make!) but even yesterday… when I was being grilled about my demeanor… I did not let it my mouth react. I kept my brain and aching heart in check.
2/3/09…. so days (2 to be exact) have passed since I started writing this post. Nasty computer virus really put a damper on my relax time. I reread my stuff, and have decided I am going to be reasonable, not imagine the worst, but reserve the right to feel caca about things if I want. Other than that, Boblian has been taking care of the house, work has been flying by since its budget prep time. Looking forward to Friday off. Happy to report that my bum is feeling quite fine though, even if my head is full.
Gonna go wander the blogs…. maybe have 10 minutes to just check out.