Fat and Happy but not Healthy

Wow, I haven’t posted on here in a bit. I think I need a new approach to my lifestyle change. Currently I’m in a whole new place with my life. I’m working a full time job as a nurse in an Emergency Department. I’ve moved into my own home with my husband and his best friend is currently living with us. He has a blood disorder and he can’t have alot of protein so it’s torture watching him eat a pile of mashed potatoes, and all the carbs he can get his hands on and he’s like a stick. My husband is ballooning, eating whatever he wants, whenever he wants, and how much he wants. I’m trying to watch what I eat, but most of the time I find myself just not eating, with a little help from friend Phentermine. I’m taking that as well as my doc put me on Metformin. I do have to say I’ve lost quite a bit of weight. I haven’t taken it at all for the last week because I’ve been sick, and previously I’ve only taken it on the days that I work which is 3/7. I lost quite a bit of weight with that. My clothes are looose. It’s a different lifestyle down here, more booze, less just sitting and studying. I have a house to clean. My husband and I got a very energetic puppy (beagle) she keeps me busy alllll the time. She could always use another walk. I honestly can’t wait for the Spring, and PetSmart Leash training!

Back to my weight loss I’m down to 277.0 and I feel good. BUT I have alot to lose. I need to add more exercise and a better regimen to my life. I had a little binging episode, Okay a big binging episode today and I’m sad at myself.

I wanted something sweet and went for a Strawberry yogurt, convinced myself I could make cookies and eat a little blob of dough. A huge big later, I was ashamed of myself so I through what I had left away. I seriously felt nauseas either from the sugar, or the shame. So tomorrow I will go in with a better mentality because that’s all I can do at this point.

Couple of bad weeks (personal issues that prevented me from getting to the internet)

Breakfast

1 Cinnamon Raisin Bagel

1 T penut butter

Lunch

3 cups of Salad Mix -23 cal.

1 can of Tuna - 125 cal.

1/3 c. moteray jack cheese - 110 cal.

3 T of Ranch - 45 cal.

Total /1500 -1800

Breakfast

3/4 c. Cheerio’s -110 cal.

1 banana - 110 cal.

1 yogurt - 60 cal.

1 water - 0 cal.

Lunch

Leftover Chicken TAco Salads - 221 cal.

Cheese - 80 cal.

Water - 0 cal.

Diet Rite - 0 cal.

Snack

Special K protein Bar - 200 cal.

Dinner

Spaghetti Whole Grain - 300 cal.

Sauce - 60 cal.

Turkey Meat -160 cal.

1 3 Muskateers - 63.5 cal.

1 brownie - 100 cal.

Cheese - 80 cal.

Total 1544/1800 calories

School has begun. I always eat less when I’m in school! BUT, I also walk alot more, which could be bad. I’m a little stressed BUT I officially changed my name with the university which was very exciting!! I’m staying with a friend here as well as my Hubby! It’s fun, were basically camping :p

It’s put a damper on my working out and stuff so far, but I’m still keeping track. I’m going to try and do my wii fit tomorrow as I slept the day away today. I was exhausted from moving and stuff!

I came up with another reason to exercise and why I want to lose weight so I’m going to edit that post with today’s date next to the one I’m adding BECAUSE…I want to have children, my chances increase if I lose weight of me having my own children. They are already very low at normal weight at obese their extremely low.

I’m working on developing an inspiration outfit and stuff that I’m going to bring here to this website! For my first mini-goal!

I haven’t weighed myself yet. But I’M anticipating a gain because I haven’t eaten enough these past  2 days so my body probably thinks its starving again. I need to eat more for breakfast :p

The beautiful Miss Jennifer Hudson! This is another inspiration photo! I love curves and I want lots of em. Shut and Drive is going to be my theme song by Rhianna! BUT right now I’m working with rolls

Well I’m off to sleep and for a better day tomorrow!!

Drink your water and eat your protein!

-MiraMae

Breakfast/Lunch

Family Reunion :p

I have no idea how much was in any of this, I forgot my salad at home

I had beef n noodles (one scoop)!

Asian Salad ( 1 scoop)

5 baby carrots, 2 pieces of broccoli, 2 pieces of celery

A few pieces of chicken breast

and a diet pepsi!

I know it wasn’t much of anything!

Dinner

QDOBA!!!!!!  I splurged since I already ruined my day with the reunion I figured why not!

I got the lean pork NAKED with black beans, rice, corn salsa, lettuce, grilled peppers!

The nutrition fact says 540 calories

I ruined it by having Chips and Guac! I seriously am addicted to GUAC! BUT I only ate teh broken ones

BUT my awesome diet buddy sent me a link for guiltless guacamole it’s only 65 calories a serving. Imma try it :p

Evening

1 little cup of Musselman’s applesauce from Steak and Shake and a water!

I then went to bed

This is just a piece of inspiration for me! I love Marilyn Monroe…she’s definitley someone I admire. I think she’s gorg and I’d love to look half that good! I just want to be able to pull off a bathing suit without embarrassing myself. I’m not even looking to a bikini that would be nice, but a sweet one piece would be great!

I was getting ready to do my wii fit and I convinced my husband and my mother to go for a walk with me.

It was great to get my mom moving!!

My mother walked with us for 30 minutes, I even got her power walking. We do a form of HIT cardio. We walk, then we walk as fast as we can for a certain length of time, or length in the road. I’m up to do whole blocks now which is good!

Then my husband and I walked for another 15 minutes. I came back and did wii fit for 30 minutes! I feel good. I ate like crap today!

We had african which is my weakness….and I almost ate it all. I wanted to but I stopped myself, but I still feel bad about all the carbs today. it was the guacamole. 2 of my weaknesses in one day, and tomorrow I have the family reunion. i’m going to take a bowl of lettuce, and healthy option tuna.

We’ll see. Moving to Terre Haute tomorrow!! Cannot wait!!

Off to sleep, must rise early to pack

Breakfast

7 slices of Deep Fried Turkey Breast the 97% fat free kind - 60 cal.

1/2 c. Seasoned Tomatoes - 50 cal.

4″ of Sourdough Crusty Bread - 150 cal.

1 lite n fit yogurt - 60 cal.

Snack

1/2 c. of Guacamole - 187

15 tortilla chips - 150 cal.

Dinner

8 oz of baked tilapia -218

1/2 c. stewed tomatoes - 50 cal.

1/8 c. onions - 14 cal.

1 c. of white rice - 180 cal.

1/2 c. of guacamole -187

15 tortilla chips - 150 cal.

Snack

1 piece of whole wheat bread - 110 cal. (I’m never buying this bread again)

2 T of Penut Butter - 180 cal.

1 T of cinnamon an splenda - 0 cal.

1 lite n fit yogurt - 60 cal.

Total 1806/1800  ( I always over estimate…and here’s a case where I’ve gone over :D)

Breakfast

1 schwan’s bagel pouch - 330 cal.

1 c. blueberries - 84 cal.

1 T splenda - 0 cal.

1 glass of tea - 0 cal.

Lunch

3 c. lettuce - 24 cal.

1/2 c. tomatoes -6 cal.

5 oz of white chunk tuna -191 cal.

1 T of dill relish - 0 cal.

2 T of lite ranch dressing - 80 cal.

1 slice of turkey bacon - 35 cal.

1 snack size  3muskateers - 64 cal.

1 T of mini chocolate chips - 70 cal.

1 serious chocolate craving….

1 glass of tea - 0 cal.

Snack

1 bottle of H20 - 0 cal.

Dinner

Homade Pizza Guestimate

Pizza Dough - 340 cal.

1/4 c. or less pizza sauce - 35 cal.

1/3 c. motzerella cheese - 90 cal.

1 c. Pork Sausage - 230 cal.

1/4 c. canned mushrooms - 10 cal.

2 T black olives - 25 cal.

2 T fresh green peppers - 5 cal.

1 can of diet rite - 0 cal.

Snack

My aunt offered to buy me an ice cream cone when we stopped at Mcdonalds. I opted for the apple dippers…no caramel - 35 cal.

2 c. Cantaloupe - 108 cal.

Total 1762/1800

So for today I have been a total food nazi and that had to do with the fact that “lunch” aka your dinner was a dinner party with family. I knew I needed to front load my calories and have an amazing breakfast and I made sure I snacked before going. It paid off. I was tempted by the treats and I induged myself in a teeny tiny piece of brownie that turned out to suck and I opted for fresh fruit and cool whip with angel food cake which tasted a hundred percent better. I actually saved the brownie until the very end and was disappointed.  I’m going to eat a very simple dinner now. It’s really proving that if I’m eating more and more healthily it’s amazing, I know it’s only like week one but I feel finally like I’m ona n eating plan I can maintain. Calorie counting is definitley for me. I have a friend who eats whatever she wants as long as it doesn’t go over her calorie limit. I’m trying to make better choices and I’m definitley coming out more satisfied. Even my husband agrees that this healthy food change has made a definite improvement in my affect. I’m in a good mood alot more often then I was on “junk” While I never ate truly junk, I think I starved myself on accident cause I thought it was what I was supposed to do. Also!! I read the rule that half of your plate should be vegetables it truly helps you feel fuller. The steam fresh bags are AMAZING!!

Also I’m going to continue measuring my food as I am truly surprised at the amount that is acceptable and the actual surving size.

One thing I want to invest in is a small scale. I know down the road I will become used to the serving sizes and probably won’t have to measure as much, but until then! I’m going to continue measuring.

I’m excited for tomorrow to see what it brings. I’m nervous also because on Sunday is our family reunion, and I also have to move down to the university for 5 weeks and live with a friend. I know it won’t be as easy to maintain my diet there with all the temptation.

I do enjoy an occasional drink, what alcohol has the lowest calorie content. Sounds like a search I’m going to need to make.