Coming back from feeling like a mess.  Funny how when things get tough, the first thing to go is taking care of ourselves… it should be the opposite!  “I’m sorry that –insert work of some type here– is going to have to wait while i go for a bike ride, go to yoga, take a bath, and pamper what is most important, ME!”

Yup.  Happy New Year! May it be the best… and it will… because things only get better with age.  Watch the fitness studios get overcrowded as new-years’ resolutions get people out of their homes and into stretchy apparell for three weeks.  Yup.  By the end of January, things will be back to normal.  The hype will be gone.  Will that be you?  It’s not about DOING your exercise, mindlessly, on the machines, watching, waiting, as the time ticks… it’s not about ‘getting it done’… just fit it in, get it done!  It’s about embracing it as part of your life, something you enjoy, something that you look forward to, something that you… what’s the word… identify with….  And if that isn’t the elliptical trainer, then find something else.  What have you always wanted to try?  You can do it.  You can.  Whenever I have doubted myself “Oh, i can’t do that” there was someone there saying “yes you can”… and it was true.  It is so blissful to live knowing that you tried and to do the things that have held you back.  I can, i will, i know.

For a long time i have been telling myself that i want to DANCE.  I am not a dancer, never have been.  I once did a ballet class once a week at the university with my roommates, mostly as a joke- as i am the least graceful person.  But it was fun.  i think i want to dance this year.  I think that is my resolution… do something rhythmic.  How?  Hmmm…. money is an issue and dance is expensive.   I will find a way… because this is what i want to do… so i will find a way.

Song of the moment: T.I. w/ Rihanna “Live Your Life”

Current weight: 152 lbs (as of 2 days ago)