Re-evaluate here.  I’m at a good spot: 150 pounds.  I have lost 16 pounds since writing this blog.  It’s not a huge amount, but it is the process which has been so important.  i think i have found things i didn’t know i lost… i think i have grown more into myself and figured out what makes me happy.  I think i have finally learned to put myself front and centre and it’s ok.  i have found that people respond to me differently when i stand tall and smile…  i have re-found my bicycle and how happy and free it makes me feel.

At this mark i need to re-evaluate my goals.  Are my goals weight related?  Yes, i guess mostly.  I want to get down to 140.  I am 10 pounds away.  I need to check in with exercise and diet.  Both are pretty good… they are not overly controlled or planned… but i find i do better that way.  I think if i set up a general outline for working out… i can see what my week looks like.  I spend way to much money on groceries that go bad before i end up eating them… i think quick stuff on the run is a better way to go and time-saver.  Spinach salads… proteins such as tofu and chicken and beans… etc.  Still not buying bread, but will eat it when i’m out (in moderation).  I think i need to stop buying chocolate and wine gums… i tend to go overboard… it’s bad.  As long as i have my super-crazy-healthy-cookies… i think that will curb the chocolate cravings. And i think i can also give up alcohol for a month… i can do without the calories, hang-overs, and any embarrassing stories that i may regret later.

Fitness goals: i want variety… i want… freedom… trees… outside.

1 long run around the lakes

2 shorter runs

1 hike/walk/run through one of the parks

ride to school 3-4 x / week.

weights (mix it up), 3x / week

climb once a week

yoga 2x

So these are the goals for the next month.  I’m aiming for 145 by november.  That’s 5 pounds this month… ugh… i’m not sure i can lose that fast… but i’m going to try.

Sooo, i’ve realized that… A lot has happened and i haven’t really taken the time to reflect.  Time has flown.  Time flies as i sit here typing.  I can’t figure out how i put aside so much time to get my school work done and all i end up doing is outlining what i am supposed to do, but don’t get anything done.  Physical activity and healthy eating seem to be taking the front seats in my life.  I love being active, i love being outside.  But somehow there is something that makes me feel incredible irresponsible to live this way– that is- to put myself and my happiness first over school work or making money to support myself.  What about the rest of my life?  I am at the end of my degree… the homestretch, i can’t give it all up now.  I need to take pride… i need to take balance.  What about my social life?  What about the friends who i don’t call back, or say i’ll make plans with and then blow off so i can go get lost in the woods by myself?  I tell myself, well, that’s what i need more at this point.  School is such a social process, i feel so overwhelmed and overworked that i don’t really want to see people when i’m not at school.  i guess that’s why i’m enjoying being active and exercising… it’s a stress release.  I have vegetable soup on the stove cooking.  in the past three hours i have: had a bath, cooked soup, eaten some other easy stuff– yogurt, fruit, broccoli, my-super-healthy-cookies,…. thats pretty random for diet…. i’ve thought about all of the emails i have to write, all of the things i have to do for school… but i haven’t actually done them.. hmmm.  This isn’t good.  I think this is time to write new goals…. to deal with life- just living… because being healthy is living healthy, and i need to balance some things out.  I’m starting to get anxious when i don’t get enough exercise in, like i’m going to gain 23 pounds and turn into a blimp… like i’m going to put on everything i’ve worked so hard to lose.  Time to re-evaluate.  I think i’m in a good spot to do it too… as i have just hit 150 pounds.  New goals…. coming soon.