I was just looking back at the past year i have written here.  I started at 166.  Today I am 152.  I am 12 pounds away from my goal.  I can do it.  I am a different person than the one who starting writing this page last November.  I am more sure of myself and my life.  It feels good to get here.  I just hope i stay on this track of going up in confidence and down in weight.  I think weight loss is more about the inner than the outer.  You have to get your stuff lined up first on the inside, before it reflects on the outside.  Cliche, but true.  Probably cliche for a reason.

It is Saturday night.  I am home cooking and baking.  I made some pretty weird (awesome) cookies.  They are super healthy– i just made up the ingredients, a little bit o’ this, a little bit o’ that.  the 3 main ingredients ended up being ground oats, white kidney beans (pureed), and soy protein isolate.  There were lots of wet ingredients including a banana and apple sauce.  There also was NO egg, sugar, or fat… but of course there were plenty of chocolate chips.  I’m feeling pretty good after an insane week.  I am here to relax, regroup, and just chill before another steady week.  My bike was in the shop for 24 hrs having fenders put on.  I felt like a part of me was missing.  I have it back now and look forward to going for a ride tomorrow.  I think i will go to the early yoga class as well.  i need an excuse to get up early.  today i slept until 11:30am.  That is very unlike me, but i just couldn’t wake up.  Possibly as sign of stress.

Goals for this week: 1 pound down: to 151 pounds.  climb monday, yoga tuesday, gym wed and fri morning.  A long ride on thursday.  Ride to school mon, tues, fri.  i want to start walking again in the mornings.  i miss that.  The trouble is convincing myself to use that time for walking instead of last minute readings that i didn’t get done the night before.  perhaps i can compromise and go for  short run instead of a walk on those mornings.  We’ll see.