Ahh, sigh…. today was so long.  Now it’s downhill for the rest of the week.  Today was pretty good, apart from the munching on this peanut, sesame cracker/chip thing and rice cracker mix that is totally addictive.  I had a test to write today and was feeling overwhelmed in the morning, so i started munching on this mix.  And then after hockey I munched on some more.  In fact… I haven’t actually sat down and had a real meal today.  I just got a tea misto on the fly to classes…. Oh, and one of my profs brought cookies.  It was right in the afternoon when i really wanted to eat a cookie too.  I need to learn to say no.  After class and the second cookie incident of the week, I came home and went for a run.  I just felt I needed the stress release.  Hockey didn’t leave me too tired.  I just ate a banana, a pear, and a few pieces of cheese for dinner.  Hopefully that will be enough to replenish my muscles for tomorrow.  I feel good, and worked, and i like that i have a plan.  But i don’t feel like i’m losing weight.  I don’t even feel like i’m sticking to the plan cleanly.  But even then, eating ‘clean’ is just some overly controlled way of eating anyway.  I don’t know.  I just don’t feel like I’m doing enough, and doing well enough to lose the weight.  Friday will be the one week mark and my official first weigh-in.  I don’t think anything is going move on that scale.  Partly because i’m still weighing myself 4 times a day.  And partly because i have my period right now and i don’t know what that’s doing to my weight.  I need to hang in there.

Diet

•  7:30am 1.5 cups cornflakes and soy milk
• 8:15am 1 cup peanut and rice cracker mix
• 11am 1 cup peanut and rice cracker mix, juice box
• 2:30pm tea misto, non-fat milk, sugar-free syrup, and a dried fruit and veggie bar
• 4:30pm a cookie… mmm.
• 7:15pm banana (a giant one), pear, 3 pieces of mozza cheese

Exercise

• hockey
• 25 min jog