Day 4. I think i’m already starting to lose momentum. Back to classes today, and it was busy and stressful, and of course…. I turned to sugar. I ate a cookie. Not just any cookie, but one of those big coffee shop kind of cookies that cost a $1.50. The day started well, I went for an early morning walk, 45 minutes. It was in between classes and before my exam when I broke down. I promised myself a diet pepsi, just a little jolt of caffeine to get me through the afternoon, but then I noticed my friend getting a chocolate bar, so I got the cookie. And as I sat there, staring at it, uneaten, I thought to myself, do I really want to do this? And the answer was, well, I’ve already gone through all of the trouble to get it, i may as well eat it now. Maybe i will just have a bite and throw away the rest. That didn’t happen. I ate the whole thing.

The cookie incident motivated me to go home this evening and go for a run— a short run I might add. It was 20 minutes, I could have gone longer… but I had plans with a friend and had to get home. A lousy excuse, I know. Tomorrow will be a longer run. I didn’t feel hungry after the run (probably because of the damn cookie!), so I had some chicken broth for dinner.

A look at the diet:

• 8am: 2 cups cornflakes, soy milk
• 11:30am (lunch): carrot and celery sticks, leftover steak, mozza cheese, an apple w/ 1 tbsp light peanut butter
• 1:30pm (more lunch): a smoked chicken sandwich with lettuce and brown bread, and something else to make it moist– I don’t know, it was a impulse-bought sandwich (starting to break down from stress)
• 4:30pm: the cookie incident w/ diet pepsi (stress break-down)
• 7:30pm: chicken broth
• 8:00pm: tea misto, decaft, non-fat milk, sugar-free syrup

Exercise:

• walk, 45 mins
• jog, 20 mins