I’m here!
I’m here. Still hanging around 190 - over a month now. I guess 30 lbs is all I’m going to get off with exercise only. I can’t seem to get a grip on the food. I’ll do good for breaky and/or lunch, then about 3:00 it’s all downhill from there. I’m trying to use the kids as motivation for this also, I’ve really noticed in the past 3-4 days that they are both turning into little sugar hounds, and it’s all my fault.
Stress is quite a factor in this, I know. The money situation is not improving, as a matter of fact, it’s worse than it was, which I didn’t think was going to happen. The marital difficulties just keep increasing. That’s really no excuse. The key is that I need to train myself to deal with stress differently - not run off for some candy or dive into some online game to distract myself.
DH’s been doing a lot of nights lately. That makes it extra hard to put together a decent dinner, cause honestly, what’s the point? DS will complain and pick and barely eat and DD will probably eat anyway, but she can’t exactly tell you it was good, bad or indifferent. And I really resent being sole childcare for 12 hrs at a stretch. It’s not like he was busy making money or anything. He watches a LOT of movies and plays several games of his own, I know that much.
I’m trying to convince myself that a box of good n’ plenty from the store is NOT a treat, it’s really just poison, but I’m not getting too far yet.
Steamboat is in 2 weeks. I guess I’m going to still go - it’s all paid for. I will probably have to walk most of it - I can walk at 3.7 MPH no problem, but the second I start to jog, my heart rate goes up over 155 and I go back to walking. It’s ok though, as long as I finish in under 2 hrs, it will still be an accomplishment.
Training is going fine. If you’re on Facebook, you know I did 400 crunches on Saturday. So far, I’m only a little sore today - we’ll see what tomorrow brings. I need to sit down with my trainer and come up with some new goals - I feel like we’re coasting lately. I’m at 10 workouts for the month - not half, but better than April. The only change is I’m do 42 minutes on the elliptical - I no longer count the 5-10 mins warmup on the bike towards my 42 and I don’t allow myself to break for more than 45 seconds or so to drink some water or stretch the damned left calf. The machine loses your workout settings at 1 minute, so that’s a good way to see. I should go downstairs now and do the yoga dvd, but I doubt I will. It’s 9:30 pm, everyone is asleep but me, and I just want to veg out for a bit.
DS graduated from pre-school again Friday. On the academic front, he’ll be way ahead in kindergarten, already reading a bit and starting to do addition/subtraction. On the focus front, he still has a terrible time sitting still and paying attention for long - unless it’s a cartoon. :-( Socially, he’s gotten much more adept. It is a joy to see him at church, interacting with the adults and really feeling at home. At least I’m getting that much out of the church committment. I’m REALLY looking forward to our new pastor starting, my spiritual being is not being fed by most of the current services.
DD finally put together a 2-word combo yesterday — “More, please” (asking for candy of course). I was starting to get a little concerned. I think it’s a combination of the pacifier use up til last month and the fact that Mama is so good at reading her little mind that is making her speech a little slower to come. She is just adorable about clothes and accessories now - really wants barrettes in her hair and to wear certain outfits. I thought she would explode with joy at the shoe store on Thursday. LOL. What a girly girl!
The zoo had their big Mem Day plant sale this weekend. I got 11 good sized plants. Ice plants and sedums and some showy milkweed to start my butterfly garden. Hoping to get them into the ground tomorrow. And get to the gym. Oh, yeah, I got my massage reward for staying under 200 for a month. That was very nice and I signed up for their 6 month package, which we can’t totally afford, but it’s a small price to pay for sanity. And it’s half the price of my old massuese, so that was my justification. I’ve actually been under 200 for 3 months now, if you can believe that!
I keep saying it, but I don’t do it — I really need to get into the habit of writing in here in the morning then shutting the damn computer down for the day. On the days that I do, I get an extraordinary amt of work done. And get some meditation in there too. I did start logging my food again, and that is helping a lot until the cravings kick in in the afternoon.