Seeking Support

Just a quick post to stay in touch.  Thanks for all the support on my last post.

Today was Lil Kickers soccer for the kids.  It’s not like a soccer league more like games for dd and beginning sport skills for ds.  They are holding it outside this summer, just 5 mins from my house, so that is awesome.  We played on the playground afterwards, came home to lunch, and now dd is napping and ds is watching tv while I deal with some desk stuff.  Mainly a denied dental claim (grrrrr) and posting here.

Training yesterday was awesome.  He had me doing crunches on a machine with SIXTY-FIVE pounds on it! It’s the ab machine that makes me most uncomfortable, as I have to lift my belly up over the bar thing when I start, but it’s hidden back in the corner of the gym and hell, my trainer knows my rolls more than anyone but DH!  I also tried the Precor crossramp machine instead of treadmill or elliptical.  I don’t know if I mentioned that since the 10K both of those cardio machines cause me pain.  I also backed down my target heartrate to the 120s and the whole session went much better.

Had Dad and step-mom over for dinner and cake for dd’s b-day last night.  Gosh, I can hardly believe she is 2.  Dad agreed to go play mini-golf on Monday with us, so that’s a huge step.

DH says maybe I won’t have to go back to work, but still won’t sit down and go over details.  I have 2 more months of outplacement services that I have delayed as long as possible, so I think we need to make a decision and move now, so I can get the most out of them.  I do not want to wait until we’re having to put groceries on the credit card and then start scrambling looking for a job.  We’re ok for a few more months, so this is the ideal time to start looking, in my opinion.  And frankly, after 11 years of hearing about the next big project that’s going to bring in so much money and it NEVER has, I am doubtful that this time will be different.  As Dr. Phil says - the best predictor of future behavior is past behavior!

Food has been marginally better.  Meaning I got a regular size pkg of m&ms at the store yesterday instead of the king size or worse - the movie box size. My doc dropped my diabetes medicine from 2000 mg to 1500 mg and this is the dosage that the nutritionist MD and I upped 2 yrs ago to take advantage of it’s weight-loss side effects.  I hope this doesn’t have repercussions on me - but hey, as long as I’m eating bags of m&ms, I can’t really put the blame on the prescription!

Gotta go get some more stuff done. I’m trying to get caught up with everyone on here, but it is slow going.  But know I haven’t forgotten about you. Oh, that reminds me - can someone else post on the journal help thread and ask Suzanne what the status of our entries is?  She didn’t even respond to my last gentle nudge!  The longer it goes, the more likely the backups will go bad or the equipment they need to read them, or some other kinds of issues.