Confessions of a Bulk Eater

2 miles.  It was easier than I thought since it had been an entire week since i had run.  Plus i played volleyball before I ran so I was worried (rightly so) about my knees.  They hurt out of the gate, but not so much once i got into it.  I think i have come to the realization that new shoes are DEFINITELY needed.  Shins are starting to hurt again.  I was hoping I could make it to the Candlelight Run in June, but I’m not sure.

Eating… bish, plz.  

Weight — not too bad.  Well, it’s not where I want to be but I’m holding steady right around 190.  I mean, it could be worse, right.  I could be back up to where I was awhile ago.  I weighed myself last night and I was 192 which i was pleased with after the wedding extravaganza of this weekend.  I weight myself this morning and I was 187.  Go figure.  If I could get my eating under control I’d be okay.  Why is that the hardest part?!

OH!! And I will have to post pics of Jase in his tuxedo from this weekend when I get a chance.  He was so handsome!!  And of course I will post a picture of myself all dressed up.  I must be doing something right because I have gotten all sorts of compliments from people. 

Yes, yes… I know… i’ve been a terrible blogger lately.  But really, there isn’t much to blog about.  I’ve had crappy crappy runs (except for last night where I ran 2 miles).  I don’t understand how I can have an awesome run one week and then barely be able to run a mile after that.  Because seriously… that’s what happened.  A few days after my three-miler… I couldn’t even run a mile.  Same thing happened a few days later.  Then yesterday… 2 miles easy.  I don’t get it.

Food wise…. HA HA HA!!!   Seriously, not sure what is going on with me.  Except I’m over the whole cooking food and making food for everyone else and myself and I want someone to do it for ME just once but it still be healthy and yummy.  Yes, I know… dream on, dream on. 

I’m hovering right at 190, which is fine.  I go +-2 from week to week.   My 16’s are loose, some of my 14’s are just right, others are too tight still.  Who knows.

The mileage I ran today WITHOUT WALKING!! WOO HOO!!! I am beat now though! A friend of mine says I need new shoes. I say no.. we’ll see what happens. They aren’t quite a year old though.

Anyway, yes… I ran 3.41 miles tonight. The battery was showing dead on my ipod so my plan was to run until it died. Well, it never really died. I just kept running… sort of like Forrest Gump.

My own slump buster challenge is not going well. I have a lot going on with work and stuff right now… but I’m trying to keep at least partially with the slump buster.

Getupnow… I know… I suck. Totally not cool. I feel really disconnected, but I’m still lurking around.

You can find it here

This week has been CRAZY!! Work was nuts, kids were nuts (as always), family was nuts… but I did all my challenges. I refuse to post NKOTB on my page though… sorry.

I was going to do next weeks challenge and start a Slump Busters page, but I know that Angelina is already going to be doing it. SO… week after next, there will be an all new Slump Busters page that we will be able to go too. We can give people permissions to be authors and whoever wants to do the next challenge can just email me and I’ll make you an author. We are hoping that maybe this way, other people can find the page and maybe we can keep this going for awhile. This will give me a week to work on it as well.

I must say that running has helped me out a bit. I was able to outrun my husband today when he was trying to crush a cupcake in my face. Of course he did eventually, but I was able to outrun him at first. If I had my shoes on and hadn’t been barefoot, he never would have caught me. I would have just kept going like Forrest Gump!

Hope everyone has a great Easter weekend. STAY AWAY FROM THE CANDY!

Wow, my titles are oh so inspiring aren’t they

We won our game last night! WOO!! It was definitely tough. This was the team I wanted to beat though b/c the people on the team are just… I don’t know… annoying. One guy was on our team last year and keeps on and on about how we didn’t ask him to be on our team this year (because you are annoying dude). The others are young and cocky. It’s funny b/c this league is comprised of most of the Saturday night players that we’ve been playing with for years with a couple of other teams of random people mixed in. So you know before even starting who you want to beat… and this was my team to beat. We would have never heard the end of it if we hadn’t.

I’m tired today though. Not sure what I will do for exercise today b/c it is COLD here! I don’t get it. I have a sunburn from sitting out in the sun too long on Sunday, and now it’s cold. My son has soccer practice tonight so that cuts into my time… but there i go making excuses and my thing to give up this week is making excuses so I’m just going to have to find something to do!!

Water: 101/80
Breakfast: Eggo Nutrigrain lowfat waffles w/ banana and PB - 295k
Lunch: Jerk Spiced Seitan - 300k blood orange - 86k
Valid Snack: cheese stick - 86; smartfood popcorn snack pack - 120k (OMG - have you had these — SO GOOD
Dinner: Lean Cuisine Pizza - 350k
Exercise: 50minutes 130/275
Total Calories: 1275k I AM HUNGRY!

I must say, dinner was tough for me because everyone else was eating real pizza!! I ate my lean cuisine pizza and did NOT eat another peice of their pizza. I ran 1.5 miles today. I really wanted to try the 2 miles, but my lady parts are hurting a little when I run. I stopped and debated at the point where I either go straight for 1.5 or turn for 2 miles. Blah.. I hate that because I was up to 3 miles!! Now I feel I’m back at square one!! ARRRRGGGGHHH!!! Oh well, I have 2.5 months until the Candlelight Run getupnow and I are planning on doing. Hopefully I won’t be a dissappointment to her when I get there!!!

I haven’t seen our slump buster challenge yet but it isn’t stopping me!  I have my water ready, I ate a healthy breakfast (haven’t done that in about 3 weeks), and I’m ready to go!  Not ready to work though obviously since i’m updating my blog instead of working.

Okay, so I just saw this weeks Slump Buster Challenge.  Oh the cruel and unusual punishments you ladies come up with.  275 minutes of exercise this week (I like the mile challenges better), clean eating, 80oz of water, giving something up that hinders weight loss, and doing something different exercise wise.

Not sure what I am going to give up.  The different exercise routine?  Well, I will keep running all week, but I may go play volleyball tonight since our league is starting up.  Our game is at 9pm so hubby and I have to figure out which one of us is staying home since our kids will be in bed long before that.  I may start doing Debbie Siebers again.  I need to tone up a bit and she helps.  And my clean eating will be staying within my alloted calories, diet coke ONCE A DAY only, and staying away from snacks!

 
Water: 101.4 + some/80   HELLS YEAH BITCHES!!!
Breakfast: Eggo Nutrigrain lowfat waffles w/ banana and PB - 295k
Lunch: Jerk Spiced Seitan - 300k blood orange - 86k
Valid Snack: 1 string cheese w/ 1 fat free flour tortilla - 186k I say this is valid b/c I will be low on my calories if I don’t eat it, plus I am going running in a little bit so i needed something.
Dinner: Dinner is going to be the Oven Fried Chicken Thighs with Buttermilk-Mustard Sauce that getupnow made last week. Which is funny since she is making something I’ve made before as well. Anyway, Chicken thighs - 378k, 1/2 cub stuffing - 160k, broccoli - 30k
Exercise: 80/275: 20 minute run + 60 minutes volleyball (we won by the way!)

Total Calories end up being: 1455k   I could make it lower by not eating the stuffing, but since I’m going running AND playing competitive volleyball tonight, I feel justifed in consuming it since I’ll burn it off quickly.   I finished my water consumption!  Now I wonder….  how much diet coke can I drink in one sitting?! 

So i got on the scale yesterday just to see what was going on, because like getupnow, i really didn’t think it was fat gain I saw on the scale the other day.  Well, it was DOWN 7lbs!!  And I KNOW I didn’t do anything to lose 7lbs of fat, so it’s got to be fluids and weirdness from all the saline and anesthesia they gave me in the hospital.  Made me feel better anyway.   I’m going to try to get back to normal tomorrow by going running after work.  I’ll see how it goes.  Probably will only to the short 1.5 mile loop instead of pushing 2 or 3 since it’s been a week.  Hopefully I’ll be back up to 3 in no time.

ARGHHHHHH….  take a few days off of exercising and I have a 5lb gain!  5 LBS!!   WTF is that all about!  I keep telling myself that I was pumped so full of fluids on Tuesday that by body is still trying to get rid of them (which could be true b/c my fingers are still a little swollen) but methinks that it’s just wishful thinking.

This is what I hate about deiting and my body.  If I don’t exercise EVERY DAY, any progress I made gets thrown out the window.  It’s like my metabolism is non-existant and even if I eat lettuce 3 times a day I still have a gain if there is no exercise.  And you know what… I don’t have TIME to exercise every night.  Or if I do, I sure don’t feel like doing it, or hubby gives me some sort of attitude b/c oh no.. I’m going to go running again (really, support is nonexistant in my house). 

Blah… sorry for the early morning rant.  I just get so frustrated sometimes.  Why can’t I just live my life the way I want and lose the weight I want!!  Plus I’m frustrated b/c I’ve really wanted to run the past few days but I know I am not up to it yet.  Being at work all day yesterday destoyed me… I went to bed at 8:30 last night.  I feel better today though. Hopefully i”ll be back to normal and running next week.

So I guess I’ve finally worked myself up to 3 miles. I ran last night since I figured I wouldn’t be doing anything more this week. I did walk a bit, but not very long. Pretty much ran the whole thing.

OH!!! And I realized something on my run last night. I do SO much better if I let myself go. That doesn’t make too much sense, so i’ll try to elaborate. When i run, I tend to sort of hold myself back. I can feel the tension in my arms and such. Does this make sense (I’m on pain meds right now so bear with me)? Anyway, I found a GREAT track on podrunners that I’ve run to twice now and it sort of trances me out… easy to just get lost in the music. Well last night, I noticed I was keeping everything loose.. my arms were moving and it actually helped me lengthen my stride and run a little faster.

So I am down and out for at least the next few days. In the risk of TMI, I had an endometrial ablation. So there isn’t incisions or anything, just a lot of cramping. I can start running again as soon as I feel up to it. So hopefully got next week’s challenge. I’ll be watching all of you this week.