Confessions of a Bulk Eater

Total Daily Points Allowance — 26

Breakfast: 1 Onion Alternative Bagel - 1
1 W/W Cream Cheese - 1
1 W/W Key Lime Yogurt - 1
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Total Used: -3

Lunch: Lean Cuisine Butternut Squash Ravioli - 7
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Total Used: -10

Snack: Orville Redenbacher’s Buttery Salt and Cracked Black Pepper popcorn* - 4
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Total Used: -14

**Have you guys tried this stuff yet?!! It is SO good. Not necessarily the healthiest of popcorn, but they come in the mini-bags so at least you are getting 1 serving when you pop a bag instead of however many are in a normal bag of popcorn. I’ve tried the aforementioned flavor as well as the Buttery Garlic and they are both very good. There is a lower fat version of butter, but that’s boring LOL!!

Snack before gym: banana - 3
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Total Used: -17

Dinner: Strawberry Vinegarette and Turkey Salad - 7
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Total Used: -24

Total Points used for the day: 24 out of 26

Not bad. I really should use up the other 2 points b/c that is how the plan works, but on the OLD plan you had a range of points so really I am still okay. I also went to the gym and gained some activity points but I never count those.

I do have to say I have been hungry and I thought about food ALL DAY. Calculating how long until my next meal, how many points I had eaten and how many I could eat. I really hate being tied to points and the point of thinking about it all the time. I feel like it just rules my life at that point, but I have to change something. The core program worked for awhile (and was good for the types of food I eat) but I am horrible at judging portion and I think I tend to over eat when I am on that plan. I have to get back to portion control at this point! I’ll bear with it for awhile.

So to make up for my discouraging day at the gym yesterday and my feast at Chipotle this afternoon for lunch, I decided to go back to the gym this evening. After reading getupnow’s post about motivation and the comments back and forth between her and I on my blog, I decided to try to do it on my own. When I got home from work, I downloaded some new music on my ipod and as soon as hubby came home I headed for the gym. He told me not to run, but I wanted to try something. Before I left though, I took 3 advil just to be sure.

So I get to the gym and head to a treadmill. I put it on the 5k setting and took off. I walked for almost 5 minutes and then started running. I ran through 2 songs — which made it almost 8 minutes!! Then I decided to walk again for a little. My plan was to walk when I wanted too and run when I wanted too…. however — MY IPOD STOPPED WORKING!!! AUGHHHHH!!! So I ended up walking most of the time since I was fiddling with my ipod, but decided to run a few times and finished up the last 1/8 of a mile or so with a run. I finshed the 5k in under 45 minutes which I was proud of.

Then I hit the weight machines. I did a few arms, back, and chest and then concentrated on the legs. I have always been overweight, but when I was younger, I was a TONED overweight. You know what I’m talking about? Even though I was “overweight” I had muscle tone - my legs were ripped. Now it’s just flab. As I was doing the weights, I realized that’s what I really want. I want to be toned. I really wouldn’t care about the weight if I was just toned more.

So after weight machines, I hit the elliptical machine for 15 minutes. Whew!! I was wiped by the time I was done. BUT……. I weighed myself afterwards, and I was 3 lbs lighter than I was yesterday!! I think that was part of the problem yesterday. I weighed myself when I got to the gym and I was up a lb. Ugh - talk about discouragement. So I was happy to see a downward trend.

Food:

Breakfast - shredded wheat, blueberries, fat free milk, splenda —

Lunch - fajita veggie burrito from chipotle; tortilla chips/salsa — so not core

Dinner - (after the gym — needed some lean protien) salad with grilled chicken, grilled pineapple, broccoli, tomato and fat free french dressing — core. I put some walnuts on it just for some crunch and healthy fats — those are not core. Honeydew — core

I had a bad day at the gym yesterday. It wasn’t bad in the fact that I got injured or anything like that. I just wasn’t feeling it Not only that, I didn’t make it through my second day of week 4 in the C25k program. I had to stop at the second 5 minute run. For some reason it was really difficult yesterday. I couldn’t find my groove yesterday. Not only that, my legs were still sore from Saturday. Now I’m wondering if I just used that as an excuse. The music for this week is just killing me. It’s too slow! I know the point is to take it slow - it’s not a race, it’s about building endurance - but I need a back beat to push me along. Either that or put the words on the freaking instumental guitar songs so I’m not racking my brain trying to figure out what song it is!!!! Sorry… I got a little off subject there. I’m wondering if I should just do week 4 to my own music. But I don’t want to watch the timer the whole time on the treadmill. It makes it worse I think. Once I stopped my sad attempt at running, I did do some weight machines - abs and legs. Then I left. I could(should) have stayed longer, but I just wasn’t in it.

My food was good yesterday though:

Breakfast: shredded wheat, blueberries, fat free milk, splenda

Lunch: Salad - lettuce, homemade chili pinto beans, fat free cheese, tomatoes, fat free sour cream, salsa; watermelon

Dinner: w/w vanilla smoothie with blueberries and fat free milk; salad with lettuce, tomatoes, green pepper, fat free french dressing

Snacks: grapes, watermelon, banana

All core foods yesterday! YAY!! Just wish I could have done better at the gym. Hopefully I’ll snap back into gear either tonight or tomorrow when I go.

Would you like to know what I ate yesterday….

Breakfast: shredded wheat with some sort of fruit (I don’t remember) — core

Lunch: Black Bean and Mushroom Chili — core
1/2 grilled cheese sandwhich

Snack: some chocolate peanut butter POPS cereal that I bought my son. WHA!?! Let me tell you, it was SO good. I don’t even like cereal that much but I can tell this one will be hard to stay away from. This will be the last time I buy it, I’m sure.

Dinner: I let hubby choose dinner location since it was Father’s Day. I would have cooked, but couldn’t get ahold of him before I went to the store. He chose Tijana Flats. Now remember, I had just been there Saturday night and did well. This time though I didn’t want to be good. I had black bean nachos. Ugh… I paid for it though. I felt sick this morning when I woke up. I used to feel like that just about every morning. That sick, full feeling from eating too much and then going to bed. I’m glad I don’t feel like that much anymore. And when I do, I know I have brought it upon myself.

I’m sure there was other stuff I put in my mouth yesterday, but I can’t remember. I seem to remember grazing through the day.

So I’m back on the wagon today. And I’ll be hitting the gym tonight too.

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I am still spaghetti legged. My butt still hurts from the seat. Spinning is definitely NOT my cup of tea!!

Went to the gym this morning and did week 4 day 1 of C25k. Results are on my C25k page. Read them there. Then I decided to try the spinning class. BIG MISTAKE I felt like I was going to throw up half way through. There was one other new “spinner” in the class. I’m glad I wasn’t the only one. I wasn’t able to do everything. I couldn’t stand up when everytime she wanted us too, or stand up only a little bit. But I kept spinning the whole time. I was SO glad when it was done. I wanted to quit part way through but I didn’t want to look like a wimp. I kept thinking to myself “I should have done the step class, I should have done the step class.” Next week I will be going to the step class.

After the gym, I took the kids to the pool. It felt good to get into the cool water. Then we went to lunch and came back and took a long nap. Then we went to the library and then dinner. Now we are back at the house just hanging out. I have laundry to fold, but I am putting it off.

Food has been not that great today, but not totally out of control either. Dinner was my only downfall:

Breakfast: 1/2 a W/W smoothie with strawberries and blueberries before the gym

Snack: 4 cantelope melon balls afer the gym. A handfull of goldfish at the pool

Lunch: 3/4 of a whole veggie sub from Firehouse Subs (no mayo); jalepeno potato chips

Dinner: Taco Salad from Tijuana Flats: lettuce, black beans, cheese, sour cream, jalapenos, salsa. And of course…… chips and queso. I am proud of myself though for getting the salad. I have never had one of their salads. I normally get tacos or nachos. But I opted for the more healthy choice. Baby steps.

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Ugh, today wasn’t a terrible day, but I made a few bad decisions. I resisted going out to lunch but then a few people wanted to go get ice cream after lunch so I went with them and got that AND onion rings (I didn’t eat all of them though). Then for dinner I ended up with a veggie sub (no cheese) and ate chips and salsa. I am hungry now and really want some pizza bagel bites but I am blogging instead of eating.

Breakfast: shredded wheat, strawberries, blueberries, splenda — core

Lunch: salad-homemade chili pinto beans, lettuce, red pepper, fat free cheese, fat free sour cream, salsa — all core

Dessert: 1/2 diet coke float; 3 onion rings — so definitely NOT core

Dinner: footlong veggie sub with fat free mayo, NO CHEESE — core except the bread; chips and salsa — NOT CORE

I am going to go to the gym first thing tomorrow morning. I have the kids all by myself and the kids klub (I hate that they spell it like that) is only open from 8-11. Even though it’s midnight, I know the kids will be up that early. There is a spinning class at 9 that I am sort of interested in trying. Burn 700 calories in 45 minutes — yeah, I’m there!! I plan on running first though or else I’ll never get on the treadmill after the bike.

Today is my son’s 6th birthday. I can’t believe I have a six year old. I took the day off and he and I went to the beach. Hubby took the baby to daycare so we didn’t have to worry about her. It was fun! I can’t believe how much difference a year makes. A year ago I couldn’t even get him in near the water when we went to the beach. Today, we were in the water for 3 hours!!

Can I mention a pet peeve of mine? This happened at the gym today and I’m not sure why it bothers me but it does. It was 9am so the gym was EMPTY. There are all of 4 people using the 25 or so treadmills that they have. This girl comes in and picks the one RIGHT NEXT TO ME!!! Wha! It’s the same as when you are in a parking lot and it is empty and you are parked way out in the middle but someone has to come and park RIGHT NEXT TO YOU!! Wha?! It’s just a pet peeve, but it bothers me. Like there are plenty of other places to park or plenty of other treadmills to choose. Why the one right next to me?! And of course she was running much faster and longer than I was. Grrrrr….

Day 3 of C25k. The details are on my C25k page. I can’t believe I’m a third of the way through. That’s all I did at the gym today. I wanted to get to the beach before the rain. I still felt good though.

Food today has been a little dicey. Only because I was on the go all day and not at work.

Breakfast: pumpernickel bagel with very little jalepeno salsa cream cheese from Einstien Bagels

Lunch: 1 chipotle bbq grilled chicken snack wrap and 1 honey mustard grilled chicken snack wrap from McDonalds (I avoided the fries! Didn’t even take my son’s! YAY ME)

Dinner: making Chicken and Potato casserole — core

We are having my grandparents and mom over for cake and ice cream. I bought myself some of the weight watcher ice cream cups so I can indulge guilt free (I’m not a big cake fan so that’s not a problem)

Breakfast: shredded wheat, fat free milk, strawberries, splenda — all core

Lunch: salad with lettuce, fat free cheese, homemade chili pinto beans, hot sauce, salsa, fat free sour cream — all core

Snack: watermelon/cantalope ; frozen grapes — all core

Dinner: it went down hill from here. I was SO SO hungry. My feeling of just wanting to eat had not gone away. We went to Sweet Tomatos for dinner and I sort of overdid it. Lots of salad and lots of bread. Could have been worse I guess. There are so many other foods out there I could have over indulged on so I guess salad and bread isn’t all that bad.

Whew… now that’s over. I don’t feel like eating my weight in food (which would be an awful lot!). Tomorrow will be a challenge because I am taking the day off of work and taking my son to the beach.

I SO want to eat. Not just eat a little or eat something healthy, I want to EAT!!! I have resisted though. I wasn’t going to eat after I worked out, so I made a Weight Watcher smoothie with some strawberries. But after I drank it, I still felt hungry. So I ended up making a potato and red pepper frittata. Plus, I needed to eat so I could take some ibruprofin. I am so sore. I have bruises in weird places. I only know how I got one of them.

I was tempted at lunch today too. I had brought some homemade chili pinto beans and was going to make a taco salad at lunch. Well, my friends dragged me out to Chili’s for lunch. I told myself in my head that I was going to get a side salad with a side of black beans and salsa and just make my own taco salad there. Well, apparantly there is like some samonella scare or something and they had NO tomatos or salsa!! WHAT?!?!?!?! That almost changed everything. I just about went for broke and ordered whatever I felt like. But no, I kept my cool and ordered a side salad with no fat honey mustard dressing. YAY!! I was still hungry when I got back to the office though so I ate my chili beans then.

Breakfast: shredded wheat, fat free milk, strawberries — all core

Snack: frozen grapes — all core

Lunch: side salad with fat free honey mustard (a little shredded cheese), chili pinto beans — all core except for the cheese but there wasn’t that much of it

Snack: cantalope, watermelon — all core

Dinner: weight watchers smoothie with strawberries, potato and red pepper fritatta — all core
triscuits - 2 points (2/35)

This is how I feel I am walking today. I went to the gym yesterday and hopped on the elliptical machine. OMG - that thing KICKED MY ASS!!! I had a lofty goal of doing 30 minutes. I only made it 20, but that was more than 5 minutes which is the point I really wanted to quit, so I called it even. WOW!! I could tell it was working different muscles than I am used too. BUT I LIKED IT!! I will probably use it as my off day exercise now instead of walking the treadmill.

Then to add insult to injury, I worked my legs. I think I did about every machine there were for legs. The hib abduction/adduction ones put me over the edge. They are the reason I am walking bowlegged today. I think those in combo with the elliptical machine did it. But I need to work them to thin out my upper thighs. Or at least tone them so they aren’t so flabby. I hope I am able to run today. I guess I’ll see. Maybe start out with a long walk to get my muscles loose.

Yesterday’s food could have been better (hence the reason I went to the gym in the first place):

Breakfast: Tofu Scramble — I will never be able to duplicate the 7 point frozen Amy’s Tofu Scramble. I don’t know why I keep trying. The one I ate was core because I made it without any oil. I should just bite the bullet and count the points and eat the one I like, but I keep trying. Plus, I saw the price went up like .30 cents, so I’ll keep trying.

Lunch: We ended up at a mexican restaurant for lunch. I got a grilled chicken salad (spinach, chicken, onions, candied walnuts, mandrin oranges) with a Mango Margarita Dressing. The worst thing on it were the walnuts and the dressing; however I indulged in chips and salsa. Man, I love those things. Oh, and 2 flour tortillas.

Dinner: Whole wheat spaghetti with fat free sauce mixed with leftover lean ground beef; 2 small leftover pieces of garlic cheese bread

I snacked on chips and crackers throughout the morning too. I felt after lunch that I needed to go to the gym, and then I got into a fight with my husband before I went to the grocery store. I really, really wanted to buy a candy bar or something bad at the store and eat it before I got home (which used to by my MO when upset) but I resisted and went and took out my frustration on that damn elliptical machine!! YAY ME!!