Spinning, spinning out of control. I need to get a handle on it, but I’m not sure how to right now.

First off, the time with my dad was great. He did a ton of demo at our house and right now, we have NO landscaping in our yard (except for 1 large oak tree, 4 crepe myrtles, and 2 hedges that didn’t need CPR to stay alive) That seems like a lot, but it’s not. We also have about 30 contractor trash bags lined up on the side of our house full of trees and bushes and mulch waiting to be picked up. We didn’t have time to plant anything, but he is going to draw some stuff up and send it to us so we know what to do.

Secondly, like I said, my eating is out of control. Snacking, snacking, snacking… on junk, junk, junk. I guess the first step is acknowleging the problem, right? Now I have to actually stop.

Things are a little stressful. We found out yesterday that effective Jan 1, everyone in our company will be recieving a 20% pay cut. It’s better than not having any job, but still. That means we have to cut back… and the only place to cut back is our gym memberships. I hate to do it because paying is motivation for going to the gym, but I would rather be able to feed my kids, ya know. So now i have to make myself start running for real outside (SCARY!!) and doing my videos again I guess. It’s just having the motivation — and I sure won’t be doing it first thing in the morning anymore. It will be in the evenings, which will be tough.

And I also need to figure out a way to eat healthy on a budget. Let’s face it, usually the cheapest food is the stuff that isn’t all that great for you (hello, ramen noodles) Does anyone else have any ideas? Anyone else going through this?

So for now I’m just hanging out. I’ve missed you guys over the past week. It will take me awhile to get caught up since my time at work is limited now that I’m doing 4 people’s workloads.