Confessions of a Bulk Eater

I’m still not sure how I feel about this. Hubby asked me yesterday when it was all said and done if I was happy and I told him no. I’m not yet. He looked a little dissappointed, but I told him that it just hasn’t sunk in yet. I think once we actually get into the house THAT’S when it will hit me. We still have so much work to do before we get in there. My mom and grandparents came over last night to see the house for the first time. They were excited. And we have already met one of our neighbors. They are really nice. Their daugher and granddaugher were over as well and we got to meet them too. They were all excited we were moving in. I guess the house has been vacant for awhile.

THANKFULLY…. the house came with appliances b/c my dryer broke the other day. Good timing. I guess I’ll be doing laundry in my new house before we move in!! It’s only a mile from where we live now so it’s not too far out of the way. Plus we will be over there working a lot so it’s not like I’ll have to make extra trips. The only problem is my workout clothes that get washed every day. I’m going to have to figure out what do to about them.

Food this week is a bust. We went out to eat last night to celebrate. I’ve been a ball of nerves as well. Plus they are laying off more people today or Monday. I made sure I wasn’t one of them before I left for closing yesterday. But that means more work is coming our way. Ugh.

2pm.

I am a wreck right now. I didn’t get much sleep. I went to bed late b/c thanks to tiny2b, I have become hooked on True Blood and I was watching episodes on HBO On Demand to catch up. My son is sick and wanted to sleep with me since hubby was working overnight last night. He kept waking up and then waking me up to “snuggle” which was like snuggling with an oven at 350 degrees. My daughter for some reason woke up and refused to go back to sleep until about 3am or so. Not only that but my mind was racing. Finally fell asleep sometime before 4. My alarm goes off at 5. I didn’t wake up until 6. Never heard my alarm. At that point, I was running 30 minutes behind. My hair looks like crap today b/c I couldn’t even dry it. (I have found the secret to liking my hair though - it has to be dirty) So I was late to work. Found out there will be layoffs tomorrow or Monday. 2 in our department. THANKFULLY not me - that would be horrible horrible timing.

SO…. combined with nerves for the closing this morning, running late, no sleep, and having to leave early today so I have to work like a maniac to get 2 days of work done (stayed home yesterday with son) I am a mess. I have already eaten an egg mcmuffin, a hasbrown, and a cupcake. What a great start to the day.

That is the question.

I’ve been thinking alot about this lately. A few of my friends have gotten it done in the past year, and I think tiny2b had it done a few months ago as well. I am almost out of contacts, which means it’s time for another eye doctor appointment. If my prescription has changed, then glasses will be needed as well. Contacts and glasses are not cheap. Of course, they are cheaper than lasik, but if I have to change the prescription every year, is it really cheaper? When I get pink eye from my contacts, is it cheaper? When I can barely see my computer screen because my eyes are so dry, is it cheaper? There are lots of pros for sure but I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOO nervous. I haven’t even made a consultation appointment and I’m anxious. I’m trying to decide b/c open enrollment will be coming up at the end of the year and I can do the flexible spending account to pay for it. I need to decide and make an appointment for a consultation before that so I know exacly how much it will be.

UGH….

Here they are… pictures of my hair. Now, here’s a disclaimer…. hubby took these pictures and it was late last night. You are not seeing “fresh salon” hair. I had to wash my hair after the gym yesterday so it lost it’s “freshness”. I’m feeling a little frustrated with it because they make it look SO good when you get it done and once you wash it… POOF!! It never looks the same. But I need to have some time to play with it and figure it out. I still like it and I like the color. If anything, I’ll just start growing it out again.

Here you can see the color….

Here’s a view from the front with me and a weird face b/c hubby was being a douche with the camera…

I like my hair cut, I really do. I just wish I could make it look as good as the girl did on Saturday. She got it perfectly straight and soft without using a flat iron. I flat iron it and I still get waves. And it isn’t nearly as soft as she made it…although I think it was the deep conditioner she used. She said my hair is really coarse (which is why it didn’t hold the color the last time I did it myself).

In other news…. I jumped on the scale today at the gym and I am DOWN a pound!! I am just on this side (the larger side) of 200. It was less than 201 though!! WOO HOO!! I guess I didn’t do as bad as I thought last week OR it will bite me next week. I had my session with the trainer. We did total body workout and I almost threw up!! I had to stop at one point for a few minutes because I became nauseated. That never happens, so I’m not sure why. I’m wondering if it was because I was low in my calories yesterday and didn’t get enough. I was going to eat a banana before I went today since I felt a little hungry, but I didn’t. Hmmm…. something to ponder.

AND in house news…. we will close either Wednesday (yes, tomorrow) or Friday. It was moved to Friday, but our mortgage guy (Jason Veritek’s (from the Red Sox) brother btw) called last night and said as long as the sellers were okay with moving it to tomorrow we could. We’ll know for sure today!! Exciting - but yet scary as well. At least I’ll know I’ll get some exercise this weekend since we’ll be pulling flooring out of the house. Anyone want to join us? Anyone? Bueler?

Oh, and getupnow…. my husband ate the enchiladas and he is not a bean person… but he IS an enchilada person. They do not taste “beany” so maybe you could get them past your husband

After a week of… laziness, avoidance… whatever you want to call it, I am back in the saddle today. Last week didn’t start out like that, but with hubby coming down with strep and being in bed for 3 days, it became that. I wasn’t able to get to the gym. Cooking didn’t make much sense since it would only be me and the kids and they don’t eat half the time. Besides that, with me being sole chauffer, homework helper, bather, kitchen cleaner, bed tucker, etc, there wasn’t much time to cook healthy meals. Single parents have the utmost respect in my eyes. I don’t see how they do it. Besides not eating healthy, I couldn’t get to the gym either and the weather was not really condusive to walking.

SO…. here I am again. I have no idea how bad I sabotaged myself. I guess I’ll step on the scale tomorrow or Wednesday. But I went back to the gym this morning. Hubby has to go work overnight on the coast tonight, so I won’t be able to get there tomorrow, but maybe I’ll be able to go tomorrow night or go for a walk at least. I will be logging calories on sparkpeople again (none of that was done last week) It seems the cycle never ends. It’s like learning to ride a bike — you have to keep climbing back up once you fall and trying again. Of course, one would think that after 6 years of trying, one would get the hang of it.

In other news…. I did get my hair cut this weekend. I will have hubby take a picture of it tonight so I can post it. I went with number 2 — sort of. We didn’t put the short bang in it, but I like it. I got it a dark red/purplish color and then she put 6 lowlights in it to lighten it in parts. It looks really good.

***Why oh why can I eat breakfast and lunch and be freaking starving by 2pm. I’ve been chewing peice after peice of gum today to try to stave it off. No dice. Thankfully, it is 4 which means I can go home and cook dinner. I have plenty of calories left so I can afford to have a snack while cooking dinner. I know that doesn’t make much sense, but it is the only way I can restrain myself at dinner time. I have to eat something to take the edge off so I don’t go overboard at dinnertime. Sad..

Got through the day. Calories are at 1242, which is the low end of my range, but that’s okay. I had a bowl of cereal and milk when I got home while I made dinner. We had White Bean Enchiladas which sound as though they are complicated, but they are actually real easy. And yummy too!! I also made a salad with some of the leftover veggies from a salad I was making for my lunch tomorrow. I’ve brushed my teeth so no more munching for me tonight!! I am waiting for my gym clothes/towel to dry so I can pack my bag. Hubby changed his schedule for working tonight since he was off all last week so I can go to the gym. I have an appointment with my trainer and we are going to start working on my booty!!!

If I make my own bread is it healthier than the bread I can buy from the store? The recipes I’m looking at have almost twice as many calories as store-bought bread per slice, but on the other hand you aren’t getting the high fructose corn syrup and other stuff that goes into store bought bread.

Hmmmm…. this whole economy thing has me thinking and I think it’s time I start flexing my cooking wings and making some of these things myself. I have to admit I am a decent cook (I just don’t like the mess that comes with cooking) but bread baking seems to elude me. It may be the humidity here, but it NEVER turns out.

I think it’s time to start trying again. I don’t eat alot of sandwhiches anyway (GROSS) but my husband and son do and I can go through almost 2 store-bought loves a week.

Anyone have any tips for me?

So I’ve decided to do it. This weekend I am going to get my haircut. It needs to be done. It is so dead on the ends… I have horrible split ends, it’s dry, it’s brittle, it’s time for it to go. So I’m going to have to cut quite a bit off to get it healthy again — which means SHORT!! It’s been 2 years since I’ve cut my hair off (right before I had my baby) and it has now grown to the middle of my back.

So…. here’s a few ideas I’ve found so far. Don’t be swayed by the color. I haven’t decided what I’m going to do in that department yet. Probably won’t decide until I am in the chair.

Yes, I know most of these look the same. I have a magazine to go through as well. I showed hubby and he told me to keep looking. You know what though, never once in the 12 years we’ve been married has he EVER liked my hair cut. No matter what I do, he doesn’t like it. So phooey on him. Number 2 — IT’S JUST HAIR!! It will grow back.

I knew it on Saturday when I was trying to make a grocery list. See, I plan out my whole menu for the entire week. I know what I’m going to eat for breakfast, lunch, dinner every day. I know the amount of calories of each and that way I can plan snacks accordingly. I knew it wasn’t going to be a good week when I just couldn’t find anything to cook. I half-heartedly found things that I didn’t really want to make, but they sort of looked good on paper (Monday’s dinner looked good on paper but was horrible for real). I knew it wouldn’t be good. And it hasn’t been. My Aunt Flo is partly to blame. I hate her… she makes me hormonal, moody (I’ve been feeling on the verge of tears for the past 3 days and that is NOT like me) hungry and so freaking tired. Besides her, I’m just blah. I think the house thing has me under more stress than I realize.

So yesterday was not a good day. We ended up going out to eat for dinner because hubby had to go to the bank and it’s WAY on the other side of Orlando from us and I was laying in bed in my pajama’s when he got home from work. He knew I was in no mood to cook so he took me out. Blah… This morning, he’s sick so I had to take both kids to school so I stopped at Chick-fil-a and got a chicken biscuit.

As a side note– why are men such BABIES when they get sick? When I get sick, I go to work, I cook, I clean, I take care of the kids… there is no time to rest. What does he do? Calls in sick to work. Really? He has a headache and a sore throat. Wahhh.. In about 2 months I’ll have my annual sore throat that persists from around Christmas to sometime in March.

I’m going to try to keep exercising this week if only to keep that on track because I already know my eating won’t be. If the weather clears up, I’ll go running tonight around the lake after I take my son to church. The weather has been PERFECT for running outdoors here lately and I love it.

Keep on keeping on, Sisterchicks.

It’s one of those days….

I’ll be better tomorrow.

I didn’t set out to have a lousy workout this morning. I had a training session scheduled so that at least got me out of bed. I got to the gym late because I have been so tired lately and it’s been hard to get up. I walked on the treadmill for about 5 minutes but noticed my trainer wasn’t there yet. So I went and stretched — still no trainer. It’s now after 5:30. So I figured I might as well hop on the treadmill again and at least break some sort of sweat. I walked for 20 minutes. I ran for a few of those and walked at a 10.5% incline for about 10 minutes. Then I did a few weight machines. By then it was 6 and I noticed my trainer coming in. I asked if she forgot about me. She asked if I had gotten her text messages. Uh, no. She had texted me last night and this morning saying she wasn’t going to make it. I guess they didn’t come through because I always check my phone in the morning in case my friend has texted me. She felt really bad, but I told her not to worry. I still exercised. Sure enough, when I got to my locker and checked my phone.. there they were. Oh well. I’m not upset. I cancelled on her last Thursday so no biggie.

BUT…. I did weigh myself again today and I dropped 1 lb. So I am at 201.something!! I am getting closer to the 190’s and it’s exciting.

Here’s a question though… I’ve dropped about 20lbs if not more since Thanksgiving last year. Why are my 18’s still fitting fine(just a little loose) and i have only 1 pair of 16’s I can get into?! WTF is up with that?!