So I have this one pair of jeans. They were given to me by a girl at work who has lost a TON of weight. No biggie. When she gave them to me, I was still filling 18s well (meaning they weren’t falling off of me like they are now) They are size 16 and they are Calvin Kliens. Hence the reason I kept them. Not to mention they are old and frayed and comfortable looking as well as comfortable to wear. Anyway, they were the one pair of 16’s that fit. Go figure — a designer pair of pants fitting when others don’t. None of my other 16’s fit. And if you wonder how many pairs of jeans I own…well, I don’t even know myself. I could probably outfit a small army in jeans. I love them. It’s my daily uniform. Jeans and a shirt.

Anyway, I put these comfy pair of Calvin’s on today and…. they are loose. They are not annoyingly pulling my belly button ring while I’m sitting like they normally do (the top of the jeans get’s hooked under the bottom barbell), I did not have to “suck it in” to put them on, and they are not looking skin tight on my thighs. Could I actually be making some progress? I’ve been sick all weekend and haven’t eaten much at all, so I’m not sure if it’s real or not. These jeans are not fitting like freshly washed jeans. They are fitting like jeans that have been worn every day for a week — and I’m sure we all know how those feel.

I am a little nervous to try on some of my other pairs though. Although it would be nice to be able to wear some of them instead of the 18’s that are starting to fall off of me. I’m just afraid that if I go to try them on and they don’t fit, that I will feel that sense of defeat. It happens… I guess I just have to mentally prepare myself and not let it defeat me this time.