Confessions of a Bulk Eater

I am headed to Rochester tomorrow to see my boys!! WOOT!!! I’m very very happy about that, but not really happy that it will be COLD!!

If you are taking your children trick or treating, have a safe halloween! BACK AWAY FROM THE CANDY!! Have fun, and those of you dressing up and heading to parties… WE WANT PICTURES!!!

I haven’t decided if I’m going to dress up or not. If anything, I may just get some vampire makeup from Party City and go as a vampire. As Twilight and True Blood have shown us, vampires can wear normal clothing which I like. Makeup is cheap… clothing not so much.

Seriously. I should just inject an IV bag filled with diet coke into my vein. It would probably be the same as the quantity I have consumed over the past several days. And the junk food… sheesh. I must really be stressed. There are times I feel stress, and others I don’t but my subconceince must be working overtime because I can’t stop! Doesn’t help that I haven’t gotten to the gym in 3 weeks or have had a chance to do any exercise. Every time I want to go out for a run, my hubby takes off to do something at the house leaving me with the kids. Hopefully we can get moved and get on with our life. I sort of feel like we are on hold right now.

Yes, I know. I haven’t posted pics yet. I figured I’d wait until flooring goes in so you can see the finished result. It’s coming along!!

I hope it’s a lot because that’s what I’ve been doing all day. My legs are sore, my hands are raw, I still have paint all over me and in my hair (even though I’ve taken a shower) and I felt my abs working at a few points during the day. But you know what? It’s okay becuase we FINISHED!! That’s right, we painted the whole house today. The only thing we need to do tomorrow is trim work and second coats in 2 closets. Hubby and I have the BEST friends in the world. We had a ton of people helping us today.

I’ll take some picture tomorrow when I go back over there so you can see what we’ve done.

I am wearing a pair of pants I haven’t been able to wear since I became pregnant in Jan ‘06!!! Almost 2 years after the BIRTH of my daughter (Nov 9th same year) and I’m finally able to wear them.

WOOT!!!!

I’m still around. I’m sure most of you regulars have noticed comments from me. I’m just wrapped in a ton of stuff right now and haven’t been able to focus on calorie counting, exercising, or me for that matter. Work has become chaos after 2 people in our department were let go last week. We are down to bare bones in our area… but we’ve been told we are safe until January. Oh good. 2 months until we have to worry Not sure what will happen then.

The move… ah, the move. I am SO over my husband right now. He’s been at the house every night doing “something”. Not sure what takes him hours over there, but I’m over it. I understand he’s trying to get things done before we move, but we still have things here in the apartment!! I’ve said all this before, so I’m not going to beat a dead horse.

Things are just very stressful right now. I have not been able to get to the gym. I was sick the beginning of the week so it was out. I feel better now, but just not ready to jump into gym time. I would have loved to go for a run tonight - the weather is gorgeous here right now - but hubby went back to house. Can’t go running with the baby - my stroller sucks.

I’ve been trying to watch my portions so I don’t totally overdo things during this period. It will be a few weeks before we are settled, so even if I keep THAT under control, it’s something.

I’ll be lurking around, commenting on your blogs, but probably not much of anything else for a week or so. Once we get paint and carpet in the house, I’ll have to post pictures!

So I have this one pair of jeans. They were given to me by a girl at work who has lost a TON of weight. No biggie. When she gave them to me, I was still filling 18s well (meaning they weren’t falling off of me like they are now) They are size 16 and they are Calvin Kliens. Hence the reason I kept them. Not to mention they are old and frayed and comfortable looking as well as comfortable to wear. Anyway, they were the one pair of 16’s that fit. Go figure — a designer pair of pants fitting when others don’t. None of my other 16’s fit. And if you wonder how many pairs of jeans I own…well, I don’t even know myself. I could probably outfit a small army in jeans. I love them. It’s my daily uniform. Jeans and a shirt.

Anyway, I put these comfy pair of Calvin’s on today and…. they are loose. They are not annoyingly pulling my belly button ring while I’m sitting like they normally do (the top of the jeans get’s hooked under the bottom barbell), I did not have to “suck it in” to put them on, and they are not looking skin tight on my thighs. Could I actually be making some progress? I’ve been sick all weekend and haven’t eaten much at all, so I’m not sure if it’s real or not. These jeans are not fitting like freshly washed jeans. They are fitting like jeans that have been worn every day for a week — and I’m sure we all know how those feel.

I am a little nervous to try on some of my other pairs though. Although it would be nice to be able to wear some of them instead of the 18’s that are starting to fall off of me. I’m just afraid that if I go to try them on and they don’t fit, that I will feel that sense of defeat. It happens… I guess I just have to mentally prepare myself and not let it defeat me this time.

That’s all I’m going to say less I spoil it for someone……

Against my better judgement, I came to work today. I really should stay home since I’m still not feeling well, but here I am. My glands are swollen, now I’m coughing…ugh. I’m sure if I got on the scale right now it would show a loss since I hardly ate all weekend. I was hungry, but I just couldn’t eat. Hubby went and got me some Broccoli Cheese soup from Jason’s Deli last night when he FINALLY got home and it hit the spot. I am trying to not be upset that he was gone all weekend and I had to watch the kids while sick. He was working at the house the whole time. My cousin, who is an electrician, came over yesterday and Jake helped him replace the breaker panel and install a fan box in the living room. He cut us a deal since Jake helped him. We probably paid about 1/2 of what he would normally charge.

I was thinking to myself how much we actually have to get done in a short period of time. We really need to start packing. We are down to the wire.

I woke up this morning with a sore throat and that weird head cold feeling. Not to mention the fact that I spent the night with the Captain last night and my kids woke me up before the crack of dawn. This is why I prefer not to drink when the kids are home - the morning comes too early. I’m not hungover, I just don’t feel good (yes I am whining!)

This cannot be happening. I can’t afford to be sick right now. We are supposed to be pulling the flooring out of our house today. I can’t take time off of work because we are now down 2 people in our department due to layoffs and I don’t want to lose MY job. I need to start seriously packing, I have to go to the new house to do laundry since our dryer is broken, I have to do all my usual chores on top of the stuff we are doing at the house. I go to NY in 2 weeks (YAY!) and I need to be better by then. I need to be able to go to the gym this week because I didn’t do ANYTHING- ANYTHING this past week.

Why does it seem that when we begin to make progress in our weight loss efforts, somethign comes along to sabatoge us? I was thisclose to Onederland and I feel it is a little further away right now. I know it will come off eventually, but I wanted to be under 200 by the time I went to NY. It’s not unattainable yet, but I definitely need to do some work to get there in 2 weeks.

And tiny2b: I think I am finally caught up with back episodes and ready to see the new one on Monday. One question: OMG - HE BIT HER!! I mean, I knew it would happen eventually, but I figured they’d drag it out a bit. And that damn collie really creeps me out.