Mondays are just so hard
General September 22nd, 2008I dragged myself out of bed at 4:40 to get to the gym. I really didn’t want too. I mean I REALLY didn’t want too, but I knew that I had too. This is it. I can feel it. I am going to do it this time. I am going to actually meet a goal. I did some soul searching while sitting in the airport this weekend (the reason why I bought my cool journal) and realized some of the ways I sabatoge myself and what i need to do to stop. One is I set totally unrealistic goals. Then when I don’t make them, I get self-destructive. I have to realize I won’t be to my goal weight in 3 months. It could take 3, 6, 9, maybe a year. I think it’s finally sinking in.
So anyway, I got to the gym and did an hour on the stationary bike as my tranier reccommended I try. I figure I’ll give this a try for a few weeks. See what happens. I’ll still have my strength training sessions with her. I can also get some other exercise in the evenings or something. Calories are going to be kept between 1200-1550 (that’s according to Spark People).
I can do this. I just need to remember it’s not a competition or a race. It’s life.
Updated: I went for a run walk at lunch. There is a park near my work that has a little fitness loop. It is about a 1/4 mile around. I probably ran half a mile and walked the rest. My legs are pooped!! I guess the bike wore them out this morning. It was mutiny - they jus wouldn’t let me run anymore. I was a little disappointed because in my mind I would do better. It’s something I want to start doing - gym in the morning, somethign at lunch. Even though it would be alienating my friends at work. And perhaps it doesn’t give my muscles a long enough time to recover. Maybe going at night would be better. Hmmmm.. lots to think about. But I still went!
I feel as though I snacked all day. But I had to get in my calories. Stupid sparkpeople won’t let me sign in on this computer for some reason, so I can’t figure out what I had yet, but I think I’m at about 1250-1300. Not bad. Oh and I guess I shouldn’t worry about getting more exercise in the evening since I was on my feet all FREAKING evening long!! From the moment I got home until about 8:30, I was on my feet doing something. One of those evenings. I really want to snack because it was just a tad stressful, but I will not. NO SNACKING!
September 22nd, 2008 at 12:14 pm
Hold on there, don’t get down on yourself. You did do “something” at lunch, even if it wasn’t running 100% of the time. Just think about how many people sit on their butts all day, and you have now been active twice! Your legs will eventually get used to all of this exercise, but until then, rejoice in the fact that you’re moving your body.
September 22nd, 2008 at 1:20 pm
hey girl. i started over today. with my diet. with work. with everything basically. i have the same feeling you have. THIS IS IT. WE CAN DO THIS.
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September 22nd, 2008 at 2:56 pm
Oh gosh. I could NOT run, especially in the heat where you live, at lunch time! I would scare customers or co-workers or whatever the case may be! I was running in temps less than 60 degrees this morning and was still bright red and all sweaty. Ick. So I think a walk is a great idea!
Definitely. It is much easier when we let go of the competition/race/deadline kind of mentality. And I think it is important to work past that anyway, because all of that implies that there is an end. And the reality I am trying to deal with is that there is NOT an end to this. I can’t go back to the way I want to eat. I can’t stop with the exercise. If I want to be healthy, I have to continue. And now that I think about it, I need to realize that it doesn’t matter when I get to a weight that I am happy with because even once there, I still have to keep up with this new lifestyle. So why be in such a rush?!
I feel like if I even work my legs too hard on the elliptical the night before I go for a morning run, my run does not go as well. So I can understand your legs protesting!!
September 23rd, 2008 at 4:27 am
I knew it! I just knew it!!! The minute I turn my back you’d put the pics. up. Oh very sneaky, girlie!
Your new pad is awesome, what with all the room and a yard to hang out in, why you’ll get lost all over the place after living in an apartment! LOL…When’s the house warming party? I’ll borrow that fancy new running shirt and drop by.
Ya sure got a smile outta me when you told about the concerned looks you got when you picked up your son with that “sweaty runner look”. Now that was priceless!
I wouldn’t be surprised at all if you have great results from cross training mixing up cycling, running and weight trn. Cycling will target your leg muscles in a way that running cannot and soon you’ll see improvement in your running from this. What a great calorie burner, too!
Try walk/sprints on days when running just seems to come tough. Your legs will recover better and your speed will increase over time. It’s working for me! I’ll write about it in my blog.
That house is really nice!!!