I am starting to feel like this is pointless.  I know that I have lost weight, but haven’t seen a difference in my clothes.  I saw a woman today that was obviously very overweight and I thought to myself, if I looked like that, would I be happier?  I could eat whatever I wanted.  I wouldn’t have to count points.  I wouldn’t have to worry about how much fat is in mexican food or pizza or any of those other good things.  But then I thought, no I probably wouldn’t be happier.  I’m not happy now, I certainly wouldn’t be happy then.  I think my problem is that I always expect miracles.  I expect to wake up in the morning and all my pre-pregnancy clothes will fit again.  I look at my closet full of shirts I can’t wear and my dresser full of pants and become discouraged.  I seriously wear the same things to work every week because I have nothing else that fits.  I have 3 pairs of jeans that fit and I alternate them through the week.  I’m tired of the same clothes.  Not that I’d have so much clothes to wear that I’d never wear the same thing twice, but I would at least have more of a selection.  I know that this is a slow process.  I know that it takes work.  I just don’t want to get to the point again of giving up.  I tend to get to that point quickly. I don’t see enough progress and just throw in the towel.  I must stay with it this time!

So….  here is my daily points for Tuesday.  I stayed within my points today (YAY!)

  • Amy’s Vegan Breakfast Burrito - 5pts
  • Lean Cuisine Chicken Club Ranch Flatbread - 7pts
  • cucumbers and tomatos with rice vinegar - 0pts
  • Nutz over Chocolate Luna Bar - 3pts
  • 1 lowfat whole grain waffle - 1pt
  • Barley - Vegetable Ragout - 4pts  (this was so good, I’ll post the recipe tomorrow)
  • Romaine lettuce with grape tomatos and 2 TBSP Annie’s Low Fat Ginger Vinegarette - 1pt
  • Pizza crust - 2pts (I’m guessing- can’t be anymore than that)

So I’m actually 2 points shy of my 26 points, but I’m going to leave it like that.  It’s 9pm already and there’s no point in eating them.  I’m not hungry.  Besides, on the old plan there was a range of points so I feel I am okay.  Hopefully there will be progress on the scale on Friday.