Here we (I) go…
Hello,
This is my first blog, ever, for anything! I have been using the Internet for years, but have never had any reason to speak out into the abyss of the Internet. So here goes…
I have been gaining weight over the past few years. I have felt so helpless, no matter what I did or didn’t eat, what exercises I did or didn’t do, it didn’t make a difference. I hired a personal trainer, only 4 pounds shed over a 3 month period. It is sooooo exasperating. I pretty much reached the point of why bother, and ultimately depression. What’s worse, my husband isn’t one of those supportive I’ll love you regardless types, he keeps pointing out how much weight I’ve gained and how unattractive I am…hello!!! I’m the one walking around with it, did you think that I haven’t noticed it engulfing my body on my own!?! So, I went to the doctor and found out that there is something wrong with my thyroid, and I’m severely vitamin D deficient.
Additionally, I know that stress can lead to weight gain in women, and needless to say, I have been under a great deal of stress. I had to have my gallbladder out late last year (most likely due to the weight gain and years of being on the pill). Then just a month after that my father had a stroke and has had many complications since the stroke itself. My parents live in another state and my husband freaks out anytime I mention even going to see them. And most of all my marriage has been pretty rocky to say the least. We’ve been trying to conceive for a while now, almost a year and nothing, not even a close call or miscarriage. My husband is convinced it’s the weight. I told him about how the thyroid plays a part in conception too, but he doesn’t want to hear it, he’s already concluded in his own little man mind that it’s because I’m fat. Ugh! (I keep telling him that it’s his swimmers out of spite and a minimal attempt at self preservation :p)
So all that’s been going on over the past year, even though I’ve been gaining weight for probably the past 3 years. I’ve started seeing a new endocrinologist. She has put me on a daily dose synthroid and a hyper dose of vitamin D that I take once a week. I have been going to the gym for the past month and a half, at least 3 times a week, sometimes up to 5. I have lost a total of 2-3 pounds. Again, it seems like so much hard work for basically no return. I can gain that in a day, but it takes 45 days or more to lose it! I’m trying to stay positive, but I can only be a one woman cheering squad for myself for so long…so here I am rambling out into the open abyss looking for others, anyone, just one other woman like me.
So, I’m marking officially July 5th as my start date to become a stronger, healthier, happier, more beautiful version of myself with the help of all you ladies on the same journey or one at least similar.
Thanks for listening and reading,
-Elizabeth