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MARCH WEIGHT LOSS CHALLENGE - DAY #12
Totals:  Thursday, March 12, 2009

            beerab………….
            brseay…………..
            delitaagain…….
            eileen2blean….
            feathers………..
            goodlife………..
            grabthebull…….
            hveeck………….
            inkheartmeg….
            janthea………….
            jaxie……………..
            joy………………..
            photogirljen….
            whitters…………

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1 green star   =  10 gold stars
If you’re new here and wondering what this challenge is click here.
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Eileen - Day #249 - Thursday
 Starting weight:  285.2    Daily intake goals::  20-35g carbs / 64+ oz. water
 Weight Last Entry:  237.0    Weight Today:  237.2
Change today::  +0.2 lbs.         Loss-so-far:   -48.0 lbs.  
Total net carb grams on Thursday:  23.7
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Only one star for me today.  I got caught up in some stuff at work and didn’t stop until after 11pm.  Hubby gets home from work at about 11:30 so I went right to the kitchen and made him some peanut butter cookies (the only kind of cookies he really likes).  What torture that was, ha!  At over 10g carbs each, I couldn’t even have a single cookie.  I took one tiny taste off the empty mixing bowl, probably the equivalent of a half a carb, lol.

Shoulda seen the smile on his face, though, when he saw I’d baked him cookies.  Totally worth it.

I was leaving a comment earlier today on beerab’s blog and it made me think.  Sometimes you do everything you’re supposed to do - you stay on plan with your food, you drink a truckload of water, and you sweat your ass off working out - and still the scale won’t budge.  It’s okay for a short period of time but it has the POTENTIAL of being disheartening if it goes on too long.  Okay so this is what got me thinking…

I have no real control over what the scale says.  The PHYSICS of human metabolism (calories in, calories out), those physics are real, but regardless of one’s level of understanding of those physics, our body, the machine we live in - is so complex, its systems so intertwined, that the outcomes are extremely hard to predict.  And hard to accept or understand.  Sometimes.  Most of the time.

So if we truly have no control over the extent of the earth’s gravitational pull on the solid mass of our body - why do we stress so much about our own culpability - our own blame - our own guilt - for not having a particular desired effect or control of it?!?  Because it is a simply-obtained measure of our own health, fitness, and yes - outer appearance. 

Instead of focusing on the unpredictable, uncontrollable measure of those things (weight), I would much rather focus on those things I can control.  I can control my eating.  I can control the amount of time I devote to exercise.  I wrote this in my blog entry the day I decided to host this March Challenge: 

“… the nitty-gritty of “weight loss” isn’t what the scale says, it’s the day-to-day commitment to do two things:  1) eat right and 2) exercise.  So that’s what I made my contest about.  Not about losing weight, but about doing what it takes.”

Now if I can just de-program myself from my reliance on the scale!  I have never been able to NOT weigh in every day - it’s a compulsion, an obsession!  But if I’m truly going to focus on what I can control, I need to stop being so obsessed about that number and whether it moved up or down two-tenths of a pound from the day before.  So I’m gonna give it a shot, gonna practice what I really, truly believe. 

Gonna skip the daily weigh-in, try to go for weekly!

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