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 Starting weight:  285.2
 Breakfast:  low-carb apple-sauce muffin
Lunch::  grilled chicken, salad, green beans, cottage cheese
Dinner:  2 domino’s sandwich innards (no bun) & a salad
Snack(s):  low-carb apple-sauce muffin, chocolite bar, peanuts
Today’s Exercise:  3+ hours walking / shopping 
 Weight Yesterday:  238.0    Weight Today:  238.0  bmi:  44.97 
 Change today::  +-0.0 lbs.         Loss-so-far:   47.2 lbs.    
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This morning I woke up and went out into the living room to enjoy the peace and quiet and snuggle with my cat.  I was curled up in the chair with a blanket over me and the cat on my chest - when I got the most horrible charley-horse in my right thigh.  Poor cat went flying off my lap as I struggled to stand on the leg, hoping to alleviate the muscle spasm which was making me do a weird dance in the middle of the living room.

My 16-year-old son, who had spent the night at his friend’s house, chose that moment to walk in the front door.  “Hi Mom.”  It took him a moment to realize that I was acting a little strange.  “Mom?  You okay?”

Oh yeah.  I’m fine.  Ow-ow-ow-ow-ow!!

Every time I push myself on the elliptical, I end up with a charley-horse.  In my calf, in my foot, oh and this time in my thigh.  Geez why won’t my legs just get used to this already?!  Okay, I know that I haven’t exactly kept at it every single day but I’d think by now it would have gotten easier.  I’d think.

I did notice today at the flea market (yes it’s part of our tub-market-research, there was a tub-refinisher guy there that we needed to speak to) that I was able to walk comfortably for more than THREE WHOLE HOURS.  It wasn’t that long ago that my legs, knees, ankles, and feet would have been *screaming* in pain after only an hour or so of walking … and today I didn’t really even think about it until we were headed for the car at 4:20 pm and we’d been there since before 1:00. 

Also, I didn’t get all swollen after walking that long.  I used to swell up after the shortest exertion.

Cool!  =D

I also noticed something else today.  It wasn’t that long ago that I would go out in public and I would always always meet disapproving looks.  Some people would look at me like they were disgusted by me.  It wasn’t my imagination, I know disgusted when I see disgusted.  Well today … it wasn’t there.  I met the eyes of many many people while walking up and down the aisles of the local (and very busy) flea market and not one looked upon me with that particular brand of “ewwwww.”  I’m still overweight, I’m still fat, I’m still obese - but somehow I’ve dropped below whatever threshhold that exists for certain people out there.

How about that.  I’m not sure whether to be pleased or not.  The people who have room in their hearts and minds for disgust towards another human because of their weight - I don’t really care what they think.  But pleased or not, I found it interesting.

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 Starting weight:  285.2
 Breakfast:  low-carb apple-sauce muffin
Lunch::  salad w/grilled chicken
Dinner:  2 tacos-in-a-bowl (no shell or tortilla)
Snack(s):  low-carb apple-sauce muffin, soft taco
Today’s Exercise:  34 min. elliptical - 216 calories
 Weight Yesterday:  237.4    Weight Today:  238.0  bmi:  44.97 
 Change today::  +0.6 lbs.         Loss-so-far:   47.2 lbs.    
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Whew!  It’s been a busy week at work!  I’ve been working 15 and 16-hour days and now it’s Friday (yay!) and I’m finally getting a chance to relax.  I think I’d better enjoy it tonight because I don’t think I’m gonna have all that much chance for relaxation this weekend! 

I have so much I wanna write about, I don’t know where to begin!  =D

First of all, I’ve made a huge change in my diet / eating plan.  It’s something I said I didn’t think I could do, but I am.  I did it the whole time I was gone and I’m still doing it now.  What am I doing?  It’s not really what I am doing, it’s what I’m not doing:  I’m not tracking every mouthful of food on FitDay. 

It’s weird.  I wrote, back on December 23rd:  “How liberating it would be to just trust myself to make good choices every day and never actually log in my food to find out!  Thing is, I guess I don’t trust myself.  Logging my food makes me accountable.”  It really bugged me, after I wrote that.  I kept thinking about that one sentence:  I don’t trust myself?  Oh yes I do!  There was a time when I didn’t trust myself, but I’m in a totally different mindset now. 

So I’m gonna try this for a while.  I’m not going to count calories.  I’m not going to count carbs (well except to keep sort of a running tally each day in my head, I can’t help doing that).  I’m not going to look up and log every ounce of my food intake.  I am going to stay with the same foods I’m eating now (low carb).  I am going to listen to my body and stop eating when I’m full.  I am going to eat between meals if necessary so I don’t feel hungry.  So that I still feel like I’m somewhat accountable, I’m going to keep a general list of my meals here in my blog.  Eventually I may stop that too.  If this works for me.

I am going to make it my goal to have at least 30 minutes of exercise each day.  Mild, moderate, strenuous, whatever - as long as I get my butt up and moving.

I was right with what I said about this before - it IS liberating!  I sure hope it works for me because I sure don’t miss spending all that time logging all my food. 

Next topic!  My bathroom still is not done!  We got the new toilet in on Christmas Eve and then the day after Christmas we left for NC, so we haven’t had a chance to return to it and finish the work in there.  In the meantime, Hubby and I talked and made a really exciting decision (exciting for me anyway!):  We’re going to change out our “regular” bathtub for a clawfoot one!  OMG I am SO gonna love this change!!!!  It’s a small bathroom and this will make a huge difference in making it look and feel more spacious - and besides, I just love the look (I want a slipper-style, one with the back higher than the front)! 

Clawfoot tubs are significantly more expensive than regular tubs - but we are resourceful shoppers… ha!  We’re going out tomorrow to do some “retail research,” and I’m hoping that we will find what we’re looking for.  Got my fingers crossed!

Anyone got experience with installing a claw-foot tub?  LOL, my husband (who I’ve mentioned hates plumbing) got some expert advice from my brother (who is a retired plumber) while we were in NC.  Brother gave Hubby specific instructions but his overall input was, “Installing a clawfoot tub is a pain in the ass.”

Lovely.  Ha!

Okay I’ll stop, I think that’s enough blog for one day!  =D

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