Ugh I apologize for not writing more. I’ve been with out internet so it’s been quick stops at coffee shops here and there.. I’ve just had no time to write a worthy blog post.
Well the past four days have been incredible! I’m getting on track with my eating habits. My urge to go eat fast food is decreasing daily at a noticable level… I’m even feeling REALLY good about the way I look. Not to say I haven’t before this, but dang, I love everything about me even more right now. Whether when I’m workout out, or just at home being lazy. Just that alone is making my mood great and motivation high.
One thing that has actually made me chuckle these past few days is a habit I know i’ve had for years but just now noticing it. I have this thing where I like to open the refrigerator and just look inside and then shut it. This could last 20 seconds, or just 5. It’s hilarious when I look back and think all the times I do this. Last night I just ate dinner, I was full, had no desire to eat or drink anything else but I got up, opened the refrigerator door and just looked in it. Searching for something. Not to eat it, but just the act of searching was what I wanted. Once I achieved that feeling I closed the door and sat back down. My mother actually noticed this and was boggled by it. haha.
It just got me thinking of how people dieting could have this habit and it might actually be a struggle for them. I do it knowing I’m not going to eat anything even if it looks good. What about the people who can’t help but do what I do but actually find something and eat it? It has to be SO difficult to manage a diet if they have such a hard habit to break. It’s not even a bad habit so to speak. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to look in a refrigerator. However, if it results in over eating than it can be a terrible thing. Soon there will be books not on how to eat healthier but “how to pad lock your refrigerator door”.
I also think my workout routine is complete. I’ve been going Monday/Wednesday/Friday and trying to do cardio Tuesday/Thursday. I say trying because I have problems with my legs right now, just a strange pain and to be safe I’m not working out my legs, and I’m restricting my running/biking to a minimum until I can talk to a doctor. The fact I’m actually doing a set routine for over two weeks now with a desire to keep going is fueling my passion to not give up. As much as I want to, I don’t care if I get bulky or more lean. The ultimate reason to workout in my opinion is to better yourself and make you more healthy. Getting skinnier, or bulk is just a bonus.