dysfunctionalbarbie on Apr 30th 2012 08:22 am
Good morning ladies (and the odd gent’s that read this)
I have had a fabulous weekend! Though I am up to 161 today, I am okay with that. I shall start with Friday my date. He’s cute, he’s nice and very flattering. A little shorter than me, kind of funny sort of awkward and I think he really likes me. Anyways even though there wasn’t any Za za Zu on that one date, I’m following the advice of a friend who said don’t write him off just yet. Sometimes things bloom later on. I did well at dinner though which made me feel a little bad about, because of course being a guy he probably wanted a beer, but instead sort of followed my healthy route and just got water, and no desert not because of my diet but because well…The deserts never taste that great. I ordered water with lemon in it and a chopped salad which was tomatoes, chicken, vinaigrette salad dressing, bits and pieces of cream cheese along with water with lemon in it. We then went to see American Reunion which was pretty funny. Over all it was a good “date”. I even managed to get a workout in before it all, because my acupuncturist was sick so I didn’t go do it, but rescheduled for this week.
Saturday I worked but then went camping! It was nice, I got some pretty pictures with my camera but now I need the patience to sit down at my computer at home to sort through them to add them to my photography page on my facebook. I don’t have any pictures up yet, but once I get pictures up I’ll post the link and feel free to like the page :D. I got some really good ones of horses up close! I really want to buy a closer lens for my camera though mine is only 55mm.
Sunday we came back, camping must have exhausted me because I was out by 8pm which is nice considering I work doubles all this week filling in for someone. Twat texted me last night just as I predicted he would text me Sunday. Shocker, he’s still going on with his mom story, which could BE true but…it took the doctors 5 days to figure out what was wrong. He apologized for postponing but she was doing better and I ignored it and just asked about his mother. Jackass. Apparently it was just one of her lungs constricted, but at first he thought it was a heart attack. I of course being who I am, turned the conversation around on me and starting talking about my Papa (R.I.P) who had multiple heart attacks in his life but and everything else wrong with him he survived for years. Haha…whoops. Listening isn’t my strong suite…not for someone I think is a liar anyways. Haha!
So we don’t get to go to my grandma’s this time around when I go home to visit which is okay, but I really wanted to see my babies (jinx and scruffles) who my psycho ex bought me back in 2008 when we were together. But when I moved back home for 6 months I gave them to my grandma because my mom’s cat would have killed them or tried to and they were already skiddesh and scared of people as it was. Of course I couldn’t take them back after I gave them to my grams so she has them for the time being. Man I cried because even though I was giving them to her I felt like I was abandoning them and that they’d hate me and think I was a horrible mother. They are in a better home for the time being anyways my grams takes amazing care of them!
Okay so here’s the plan for today.
Workout after work, and before job number two
Keep my water intake up
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dysfunctionalbarbie on Apr 27th 2012 09:44 am
Well my date this evening is the last guy I have chatted with from that dreadful dating website. He seems really weird but so did Mr. Douche before I met him, turns out he was pretty typical and normal in the end! So here’s hoping! I didn’t even have to plan for anything all he said was pick a movie. Then he brought up looking for places for dinner, and I said dinner before the movie maybe better, which he agreed. So we’re meeting at 5:30 and we’ll go from there! I’m a little excited about this. I have acupuncture at 3:30 so I’m definitely going to be hungry! I guess I should get ready before hand and that way I can just leave from my appointment down to the mall were meeting at and miss traffic.
I guess today I will consider my rest day and workout Saturday and Sunday for 30 minutes. I binged Yesterday at bit, I had two slices of cheese cake, a cookie, half a bottle of sprite and a can of Pepsi. Of course all at different times, so it didn’t surprise me to see the scale at 160 this morning. BUT I did workout last night even though I was tired. I didn’t push myself as hard as I have the last three days but I did work out! Everytime I stopped I focused on my sign I made for my wall “Make your supporters proud” and the goal weights I have. I’ll take a picture of it and post it in another blog!
Anyways nothing else to report! I hope you all have a wonderful and safe weekend!
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dysfunctionalbarbie on Apr 26th 2012 08:31 am
Apparently Charmings mother went into the hospital in the afternoon. That was his excuse as to why he couldn’t see me. Truth? I think he’s married, because the first time ever we were suppose to me, he apparently got into a car accident. We finally met, then the next time we made plans his friend “killed” herself (and I really wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt that he wasn’t a complete fucktard to make something THAT extreme up to get out of a date…) and then the mother things. So he either thinks I’m going to be really dumb and buy all his crap or he has some seriously bad karma that’s just hitting him now. I’m going to go with he’s married and is trying to hide it. Hence why he doesn’t want to take me OUT to dinner but hide me in my house so he can cook dinner. NEXT!
Actually there is someone else I have a date Friday, with a guy who flat out said to me “Would you like to go on a date with me to a movie of your choice.” He’s kind of been on the back burner on my facebook (he’s off the dating site I met the last two bozo’s on) but I never met him so I figure why not?! He’s either going to turn into a douche like the rest or maybe he’s going to turn into something else. Either way, I’m no longer involved with charming. Also my response to his text was just “mmk!” and I left it at that! If he was smart he’d never bother me again.
I was at 158 this morning, which I’m perfectly fine with! I did my workout yesterday, I finished all my house work my place looks amazing. I need to keep things cleaner it makes me feel so much better about myself. I made dinner then relaxed and played snoopy’s street fair on my iphone and chatting with NEW guy for a bit. I’m so happy it’s Thursday, and I hope you all have a magical day!
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dysfunctionalbarbie on Apr 25th 2012 08:41 am
I feel like I’ve slowly kicked into habit and the key to that success was forcing me to do 30 minute workouts on the weekend. As long as I don’t take more than one day off at a time I feel I’m good. Monday there wasn’t much of a struggle to workout I busted my ass off and even last night around 8:30pm I refused to NOT do my work out so I threw Bob in and within 10 minutes I was dripping sweat. By the end of it I felt amazing! My muscles were sore but I felt good! I come to realize that it doesn’t matter what time it is, if I haven’t done my workout I should get to it. Tonight’s workout will be JM BFBM, I enjoy going back and forth between that one and Bob Harper’s Ultimate Cardio. Jillian video doesn’t use weights at all, Bob’s does so it’s good.
Charming and I will finally be hanging out tonight after three weeks of not getting together. I’m not going to say anything negative though it’s hard not to…I’m just going to enjoy my time with him. I also have positive vibes that I passed my testing yesterday! I felt really good when I left and even going through the test! I can’t wait to see if my positivity was right or if it was just one of those times! Monday will probably be the latest and if I did pass the testing then I will be off to the Panel interview!
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dysfunctionalbarbie on Apr 24th 2012 06:39 am
Disclaimer: the title has nothing to do with my post.
This morning 157.5! Yep I finally passed 159; which is nice because it gets a little depressing when you see the same number on the scale for weeks! I didn’t do C25K on the weekend but I did do JM ripped in 30 on Friday, rest on Saturday and on Sunday JM 30 day shred. So I did do dreadful workouts on the weekend I had to force myself but in the end I felt good that I did them! I’m proud I did them! So let’s see if I can keep this up!
Yesterday I did my JM BFBM video, I had coffee right before I did the workout and it upped my energy so much that I pushed through, kept up and even started the next move before they did because I knew what it was. I felt good, and was flying high. I then blasted some music and danced around my apartment in my underwear and a white t-shirt ha-ha. I felt sexy, it was great!
Today I have my dispatching test again at 4. I’m not really worried if I pass it or not. Truth is if I do GREAT, if I don’t then clearly it’s not the career for me. I’m not worried. I think Charming and I are doing something tomorrow. He hasn’t really mentioned anything and either have I. Seems like lately it’s me texting him and not both of us…I got a huge compliment last night I posted a new picture of me after soo long and this guy messaged me telling me how amazing beautiful I was. Lol We “met” off a dating website but haven’t officially met yet. Because I’m fickle and it was cold out, but he wants to take me out…so I figure now that it’s nice out why the hell not! Haha. We haven’t made plans yet I just returned his message. He works in the rigs, so he’s home for a few weeks then gone for a few weeks at a time. So we’ll see how that goes! I really want to get out to the ZOO this weekend…maybe we can go there?!
Anyways all, I have nothing more to report! Other than I have this urge to pimp up my blog…haha.
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dysfunctionalbarbie on Apr 23rd 2012 04:07 pm
Progress pictures…The picture of me in the white T-shirt was taken about an hour ago! The scale first time in a long time in the evening has been under 160…159! Normally I’m up in the evening, so I must be doing something right lately! Sometimes I think I still look like the girl below, but clearly looking at the two pictures right now shows I look nothing like that girl! Hope you all have a wonderful Monday!
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dysfunctionalbarbie on Apr 20th 2012 09:03 am
I have accomplished 3 straight days of working out. Switching from JM BFBM and Bob Harper’s Ultimate Cardio, I tried to do JM no more trouble zones on Wednesday but I couldn’t get into it. So I made dinner then waited a bit and decided I still wanted to work out so I did Bob instead. I used to love Jillian, but the fact is she talks too much, and her gymnastics Barbie girls she has in her video hardly break a sweat and it’s hard to stay motivated. (I bet they do a set and take a break for the next shoot…)Their bodies aren’t even that spectacular to make me go, ooo I wanna look like that. At least in Bob’s DVD’s his people are sweating, they stop when they need to stop and they look like normal people that aren’t kicking over their heads etc. Also Jillian talks a lot, so it gets a little distracting but I am enjoying her BFBM dvd. I used to love her, but clearly I’ve jumped ship to Team Bob! I love her podcasts though, but listening to her ramble on in a workout video is blah. That’s probably why I’m so hesitant to buy her Body Revolution considering it’s 134.00$ and in her 10 dollar dvd she talks a lot…I’d hate to see how much talking she does in these! Lol
My struggles are the weekend workouts starting Friday, so I figure what I’ll do is C25K Friday to Sunday since I want to be able to run anyways and it’s only 30 minutes, until I get myself into a habit of doing it. It’s beautiful out today and the weekend is supposed to be just as amazing. I’m going home in a couple of weeks and I really need to keep this up. I want people to tell me how amazing I look and how proud they are of me. I want to look good when I go out for my birthday with friends and WANT pictures to be taken of me. I used to LOVE my picture taken…I want to find that girl again who wasn’t camera shy because she wasn’t a fatty.
Speaking of camera’s I think I want to buy a simple point and shoot one. I know I spent 600 on a DSRL camera but it’s really big to lug around and I want a simple small camera to just take out and about with me for random pictures. I’m such a money waster…but whatever…I will get into it sooner or later…I really want to get out on Sunday though and use my awesome camera I wanted so bad and decided to spend 600.00 on lol!
Well blogger’s and stalker readers have a wonderful weekend and I’ll touch base with you all on Monday!
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dysfunctionalbarbie on Apr 18th 2012 06:58 am
Good morning bloggers, I have attempted to write twice this week and never once finishing or posting the blog. So here I am and I really haven’t had much progress about anything except for small accomplishments without weight loss..until yesterday.
My week has been alright TOM is sort of here (started Sunday…wish it would make up its mind if its wants to bleed or not…I’ve been spotting on and off since Sunday night…) Maybe the acupuncture is helping? I hardly have had any cramps; I’ve hardly had any bleeding maybe today sometime it’ll finally explode?! My moods have not been psychotic; I didn’t want to kill anyone last week. I’m not as moody as I would normally be. (in general…not just TOM time.)
I worked out yesterday (shocking I know…) I had time to spare before my second job, so I popped on some music then threw on Jillian Michaels Banish Fat Boost Metabolism and every time I do this DVD I seriously never finish it! Yesterday I did it from beginning to end, and today? I’m Sore and I’m happy about it! Today I may do JM No more trouble zones and maybe just switch back and forth with these two DVD’s until I get on my flight back to Ontario next month! I figure as long as I continue to have music on I can do it. Plus I hear good things about combining these two DVD’s together.
I’ve also accomplished some other small things this week asides from getting my lazy butt moving! I realized the Bulk Barn is going to be a girls (or anyone looking to lose weight) best friend. It’s a store that sells candies, spices, pastas, whatever you can think off in big bulk bins. You grab a baggy and put as much of something you want in it and buy it. I bought a scoop full of glutton free pasta to try it (I’m not sure if I’m glutton intolerant it’s a hit or miss when I get a stomache) and instead of spending 4.00$ on a package I may or may not like I spent 69 cents on a scoop full. It’s meh, but I will probably buy it here and there since I’m trying not to eat as much pasta anyways!
Another small accomplishment twice this week, I now bring cash everywhere I go (grocery shopping) and use my phone calculator and calculate everything I put in my cart. (I think it’ll help me save money and two not put anything I don’t need in.) I’m trying to get out of the mentality of “oh I’ll just charge it go the credit card if I don’t have enough money…” So yay me! I know my acupuncturist said to go organic with my meats and my watered veggies and fruit…but not this time. I’ll try that next month. I know I know I should be but the pesticides haven’t killed me yet…LOL
The scale on Sunday said I was 162 (not surprised because I ate SO MUCH on Friday and TOM bloatness…) My goal is to be down to 155 before the 18th of may which will be the lowest my family has seen me in years!
OH OH! I also cleared out my closet! I have half a bag full of clothing I DON’T want or EVER wear to send off to Value Village. My room is trashed though lol but at least my closet is done! Now to accomplish the rest of the house!
Hope you all have a wonderful Hump day!
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dysfunctionalbarbie on Apr 13th 2012 08:52 am
It has been an eventful morning lots of drunks out this morning that’s for sure, I wonder if they had a post Friday the 13th part last night or something?! I know today I’m going to a meet up at a pub, I’m excited for that. My friend and I are going for an hour or two she’s has to work a midnight shift and I have to work tomorrow morning so I’m really not in the mood to be out late. I’m not a huge pub fan but one it’s Friday the 13th and two this pub meetup seems more calming than the other one would have been. (That I completely didn’t show up for) I get anxiety when I have to meet new people, I hate meeting new people especially the ones around my age because all they want to do is drink, but I want to get out more and start to know more people. So Today is my first step to do it. Get all dolled up put on my 6 inch heels do my hair and makeup and go out for a fun time. I’m making myself more excited for this.
I have my second acupuncture appointment at 4 today I’m a little excited about too! This week I’ve switch from coffee to green tea with honey in the morning and you know what? I don’t think I felt a super crash in mid-day from tea than I have been having from coffee. I decided to drive into work today because I got 100% soaked from the rain yesterday, ended up sleeping for a three hour nap from 3-6 and even was able to crash by 9pm without any issues. The scale hasn’t moved from 159.5 but TOM is also coming so I’m hoping this is TOM weight and after that I’ll be down? My goal is to drop 5 more pounds before I head home in May to see my family. 35 days, 5 pounds? I think I can!
I sent Charming a text today saying “Hey you, I was thinking about you and I hope you are okay. Xo” my friend said just drop off the radar and if I’m important to him he’ll come back. I think this is different and two I’m not really upset that he hasn’t texted me. I’m being calm and understanding of the situation. Someone died, it’s not like some guy I was dating and he just dropped off the face of the earth. Technically he didn’t even have to owe me an explanation. It was courtesy of him to text me to apologize and tell me what’s wrong even if it was after our date time. Am I right? I think I am. I know what’s wrong, I’m sure he’s going through a hard time so move on. When he’s ready (like some of you have said) He’ll come around and if he doesn’t that’s okay to. It happens. My life isn’t stopping because of it. I’m still keeping an eye out on mr. hottie contractor (a new one) lol but I’m not going to go forward on that he’s probably attached. They all are. Haha
I’m still reading I got your number by Sophie Kinsella, it’s soo good I’m half way through. I was going to read some more last night but I was tired and went to sleep instead. My friend finished the hunger games I definitely want to read that when I’m done this book. Maybe I should join a book club? Anyways nothing new and exciting today then again is there really anything exciting for me? My life is pretty boring…Even my weight loss is at a stall…lol
Have a wonderful weekend!
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dysfunctionalbarbie on Apr 12th 2012 05:58 am
The list of the bad I ate: Mars bar, a small bag of pop chips, a sip of pepsi (I didn’t finish the can), 5 Hershey caramel kisses, a whole bunch of unsalted pistachios (I’m sure these are bad for you just high in calories), 1L of Chocolate milk.
Thoughts after all of that: “Well I’m not going to be down in weight tomorrow.”
So it hit about 11:00 am and I decided to text charming (because I didn’t hear from him on Tuesday) and I remember before I would kind of do this (before we met.) We’ll 2:30 hit and I still didn’t hear from him since my 11am text and I thought, fuck this I am not waiting around. So I send him one last text saying “Hey! You must be super busy today! We’ll just plan another day to hang out. ;)” of course in my mind no intention of ever seeing him again after that, since it’s completely disrespectful to do that to someone and I’m not going to tolerate that.
So I went over to my friends house and we (well she) made a meat loaf I was too busy bitching and munching on anything I could eat. (TOM must be coming soon…this week has been out of whack and my boobs are so sore.) 4:00 hit and I still didn’t hear from him. Truth is I thought he was probably on another date and over lapped it not paying attention to the time. Which is fine (well not fine. Fine he’s dating others, not fine not sending me a text to cancel.) around 4:20 I all of a sudden get a text message from him, turns out a friend of his killed herself, and the 10 year old son called him because he didn’t know where she was when he came home from school…Ouch talk about heartache and now I understand why I haven’t heard from him. My friend made a comment about he could be lying and I vanished that thought quickly. That is a PRETTY shitty lie to get out of seeing someone and I don’t know anyone (other than my lying psycho ex) who would even remotely joke about that.
I sent him a text saying “I’m sorry to hear about that, and I hope he’s okay” and that was the end of it. I’m not exactly the most sensitive person when it comes to suicide and I really do understand why he didn’t text me because he’s probably been really busy dealing with all of this and that is understandable and forgiven. So he now has no strikes…I don’t want to bother him so I probably won’t text him…at least maybe not for a few days? I don’t know what do you guys think? Should I say something in a day or two like “hey hope you’re doing okay?” blegh, I don’t know how to do this sort of stuff…or should I just wait until he text’s me? (I like that idea more..But of course I would haha.)
Weight this morning: 159.5
That’s right! Even after all that crap I left the 160’s and I really didn’t think I would have!!! But I’m sure finally being able (TMI COMING!!!) to finally go to the bathroom which I’m pretty sure cleared my WHOLE system out (I have no idea what was in that meat loaf but it was amazing!) I booked my flight to go home in May (the 24 weekend/week) I really don’t feel like being alone this year for my birthday. Plus I miss my Mommy. Lol My Step Dad is paying for half of my ticket which is awesome and makes me happy. So I have a month to slim down so I can get a lot of wows and omg you look amazing! Haha I think that’s going to motivate me enough to get into a habit of working out…I have exactly 36 days!!! That’s enough time right? As long as I keep my ass in gear! My flight is booked and I’m kind of excited!!!
Goal: Go to the gym! (Maybe I should make a habit to hit the gym at a later time? Like 5pm everyday maybe 6? That way I learn that once I’m in my house its okay to leave it, cause I’m one of those people once I step into my house I just don’t want to go anywhere!
Goal this week: Diet and no flake out on the Meet up on Friday. (I didn’t bother going to the last one!)
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