People don’t change, just the situation changes.

dysfunctionalbarbie on Mar 8th 2012 07:39 am

This morning is 160 with the way my eating habits have been this week I’m not surprised which if fine as long as I’m not over 160 I’m happy. Calorie intake so far this week hasn’t been the best and the only day I managed to workout was Sunday.

Sunday Calories: 2075

Mondays Calories 1848

Tuesdays calories 2108

Wednesday’s Calories 1640

Yikes…I’m not going to lie I was pretty stressed this week though I don’t feel a huge weight of stress I could tell I was with my eating thanks to the criticall testing on Wednesday I had. It’s a little iffy on that if I’ll make it to the panel interview. I’m sure some parts of the test I did really well on. One part I bombed and the rest was I’m not sure. So I’m going to go with it’s a 50/50 chance that I may or may not making to the panel interview. The truth is though it really wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be. So when that position opens up again and I reapply I know what to do. I know what to study, and while working at elite I can practice typing in Data faster while listening to someone talk. It wouldn’t be too hard of a job for me that’s for sure and I think I’d really enjoy it. I’ll find out next week if I get an email saying I’m getting to the next stage which is the panel interview. I won’t be giving up though; I’m going back on my regular religious job hunting. I’m giving myself 4 months I need deadlines or I don’t get things done actually I don’t get things done anyways because I’m a lazy ass. I really need to work on that.

Boy came back, you know the one that I stopped texting he texted me on Tuesday. I knew that was coming considering I had a dream about him on Sunday. When I dream of people I don’t speak too or haven’t in a while they usually contact me 95% of the time it’s weird. The universe likes to warn me. Lol.I feel it’s different this time. I never felt it was different last times. I just need to learn to look at his actions not his words because he’s dumb like that. I don’t really want to put too much thought into it either. This is my test to see if I continue (which I WILL) with my weight loss and not allow myself to sabotage me.  Which I won’t. I set myself up for a small little prize if I reach 155 pounds I will get my dreadful ugly nails done! It’s only 5 pounds…I can do this! Right now I’m getting back on track! My friend and I are going to hot yoga tomorrow. I want to go to channel all my energy into something positive. I’m going to see if I can get the 40$ introductory again because then that’s two weeks of unlimited yoga.

I quit job three yesterday. I fibbed because I didn’t want the guilt trip from him for quitting early. I told him this Sunday is my last Sunday to work because I got a new weekend job that takes up both Saturday and Sunday. He seemed to accept it and not make me feel bad for it. So this Sunday will be my last Sunday for three jobs forever. I’m not doing this again, besides if dipshit is back in my life it’s not fair for him if I’m constantly working, also due to having to take the bus into work during the week it kind of leaves him either always coming to my house during the weekdays or me coughing up 20 dollars for parking when I go to his. Also my weight loss I’m exhausted and I do need a me day! Note to self: Stay focused, be positive and don’t freaking sabotage myself!

Goals: Eat 1500 or under

Do either JM 30 minute video or Bob Harper’s 1 hour either way get a fricken workout in!

P.S I also really think my psycho ex signed my email account up for a bunch of spam sites for things to come into. After screwing around with him (it’s a pretty funny story) I got all these dumb weird porn Viagra random messages stupid emails. Bahaha! That’s the best you can do? It all goes to my junk mail anyways so it doesn’t really affect me it’s just funny.

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One Response to “People don’t change, just the situation changes.”

  1. journey2skinnyon 08 Mar 2012 at 4:05 pm

    God I’m so freaking jealous!! You’ve made some fabulous progress woman! 🙂 WTG!!

    Keep up the awesome work! Sorry I haven’t been checking up on ya but it looks like you’re doing super!

    I so agree with you. Testing makes me eat more — actually just stress in general

    Have an awesome week 🙂

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