Still 164 I feel like I’m failing, completely disappointing myself something is clearly holding me back but what? Is it because I don’t have the money to buy my camera so I don’t lose the weight just yet? My eating habits aren’t bad, I eat normal food, I’ve always ate normal food and lost weight just smaller proportions. Wait, I just went back on my Calorie Journal…my eating habit’s suck! It’s not that I eat a lot of crappy food, it’s because I don’t have a lot of fiber, fruits or even much veggies in the mix I ate way too many carbs, they are my enemy! I bought a whole bag of oranges and seriously I ate one and the rest went to waste. I hate eating them at work because they always get stuck into my teeth…
So when I get paid Friday and use my 30 dollars for groceries I think I’m going to just buy a whole bunch of fruits and veggies and see if that will help me out a bit and start getting these dreadful 4 pounds off. At least I’m maintaining instead of gaining so that’s a good sign.
So last week I drove into work on Thursday and Friday I had the day off. Yesterday when I got on the bus the regular bus driver was like.
Bus Driver: “I waited 10 minutes for you on Friday, did you know that?”
Me: “Umm okay, I had the day off” standing there feeling awkward because I had no clue if he was kidding, being an asshole or what the fuck his problem was.
Bus driver: “We’ll I waited and next time you have to tell me when you have a day off so I can plan my route better…”
Me: Confused and trying not to awkward laugh. “Umm okay…sure…”
Isn’t that weird? A bus route is already planned out, you have to drive by the stop no matter what… Anyone else find that weird, it’s like…it’s the bus it’s none of your damn business when my off day’s are not to mention sometimes their unplanned what? Am I suppose to just text you or something or wait at the bus stop and let you know I won’t be coming in today then go home? Like seriously anyone else find this creepy? I found it creepy, I still find it creepy…So today I stood there awkwardly waiting for the bus, which I’m starting to think I should take the earlier one now to avoid him…but it was a different driver today! Phew…Maybe next time I see the bus driver I should be like. “You need to tell me you have a day off, I waited for the next bus for you.” Ugh. Someone said maybe he’s just worried because it’s 5:30 in the morning and you’re a girl walking the streets by yourself so he was concerned? I don’t see him waiting around for mr. Hot bus guy who hasn’t been there for over a week now. Maybe I just have no faith in people anymore so I believe in the worse when it comes to them, but that creeped me out!
So contractor hottie is avoiding me today…because of him over hearing my conversation with someone else about how hot he was, then I realized it was him coming down the stairs from the washroom above I completely took off running and another guy was like. “Oh she’s running from someone, who is she running from..” So today is he not only mr. not friendly, he’s mr. let’s not make eye contact. LOL. One of the ladies at work was like, he already knew you liked him. No it’s different when you hear it from the person’s mouth instead of he said, she said BS. That’s okay though it’s the story of my life haha. \
Okay so you know how I have three jobs right and Sunday’s are pretty much 12 hour shifts and I’m doing this guy a favour in working for his company on Sundays. I thought he was a “friend” he’d come into my work here cause he did our system work and we’d joke and flirt pretty harmless stuff, I used to think he was a good guy, and I guess he thought because I flirt with him, I’d do omg anything for him because I seriously look like I’m a dumb naïve girl. He brags that within a year his security company will be booming and him and his wife can both stay home and work from home and all this money he’s making…Well he wanted me to work full time and of course I gave that an option because I was pissed about the bus situation and this company, but declined the job. Simply because I wasn’t going to take a friggen pay cut and he wouldn’t pay me what I wanted and I saw no benefits going to work for his company. So the two weeks after that he completely ignored me and acted as if I didn’t exist, which of course he wasn’t doing before. Which of course lead me to see how much more of an greedy asshole he is. (see I might look like a dumb naïve chick but seriously I’m a lot smarter and can see through people completely because I’m observant…) So Friday of course I was off and he’s only playing me 14.50 because 16 or 16.50 is too high for him because he simply couldn’t afford it…I work one day a week…Anyways so I get a phone call at 6:30 am, then a text messaging asking if I wanted to work Monday for time and a half.
I ignore it because I’m sleeping and when I woke up around 11 I still ignored it because I finally had a three day weekend. Well at noon I get two phone calls from him, a new text saying sorry for calling me early he didn’t realize I had the day off, do I want to work Monday…(because of course I didn’t get the 6:30 text right? *Rolls eyes*) and of course when I don’t respond to him or his phone calls he calls me twice again but blocking his number. So of course I’m annoyed! It’s my F’in day off I’ll get back to you when I get back to you!!! So I finally respond with. “I’ll think about it because I’m enjoying the fact I have a three day weekend.”
D “We’ll you work for me Sunday straight time, and Monday would be 1.5 time”
M: “I know”
D: “also you’re company stat pay, it’ll be good money…”
M: “3 day weekend!!!! I’ll get back to you after I think about it”
Truth is if he had of left it at that I would have took the shift, but no of course he had to keep on going with a guilt trip which pissed me right off.
D: “261.00 just Monday I’d pay you asap, just so I can feel good about the weekend. I have to work everyday this weekend or else I’d do it.”
M: “ yea well if I didn’t have THIS weekend off I’d be working 8 weeks STRAIGHT THROUGH!”
D: “Yea but you already knew that.” <~~~ Here’s where I probably would have punched him in the face if he was standing in front of me. Like where the hell does someone get off pretty much telling me I knew I’d have to work straight through so I should DO HIM a favour and do so he can be happy…
M:” Yep and now I have a chance to have a weekend off” (He’s lucky I didn’t say stick it and find someone else for my Sunday shift so I could have a 4 day weekend off!)
D:” You know you were my last resort, I know you’re helping me out a lot and I figured you’d jump at the opportunity to work over time. So consider it and let me know.”
A few hours later I declined and it turns out he offered a co-worker of mine 16 dollars to work that day for him. As if I wasn’t going to find out. Not only has he lost a good back up plan when he needs shift taken. I’m done. I know in the next weeks the job will probably be extended and I’m pretty much going to say on the 18th of March that 8 weeks is up, I am no longer working anymore shift. I don’t care anymore he pulled a total asshole move. Not only did he make me feel guilty for wanting a day off and to enjoy my weekend he had the nerve to offer someone else 16 dollars an hour just to work for him when I’m the one who has been helping him out from the beginning. So too bad, I’m done. I may even just tell him to shove the rest of the 4 weeks. I haven’t decided because I don’t really need his money not to mention I will have the money for my camera.
Happy Hump Day everyone.