The day and a life of a Chubby Girl

In 6 hours I’ll be off into the air! I’m so excited and the best thing about visiting family is the healthy eating my mother will cook for me and so on. I’m hoping to get on with my running and healthly eating this week that by next friday I’ll be down in weight some more. I was 160 this morning which I’m happy about given the fact I’m still on TOM so here’s hoping I may get a nice little whoosh?! I still have some packing left to do but I’m mostly ready to go! I’ll be at the airport a few hours early so I’ll just work on my photo’s for my photography page to kill time.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend! I will try and post next week on my progress if I can’t you’ll all hear from in my in a weeks time!

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Well given the fact the scale is up because of TOM of course past the 160 mark (163-165), I didn’t make my 155 goal for this week. Will I get a big woosh at the end of it all and finally pass 158? I don’t think so, and I don’t feel like having my hopes for it to be ruined when the scale says…haha 158 still suckaaaaaa! Not that my scale can talk or anything..I Wish it did, I wonder what type of things the little asshole would say to me?  

I’m super excited for tomorrow when I get home at midnight, I’m a little stressed and sometimes I still feel like that 180 pound girl I was two years ago, but the truth is the weight I’m at now is the weight I was at when I moved to Calgary in 2008. So those people I haven’t seen I 4 years are not going to see the fat girl in me, they’re going to see the girl they always knew. Which is something I need to remember, and I’m sure I’ll be getting compliments from my family so I need to not stress so much!

Saturday I’m going to start C25K I’ve had a two week break from working out and it’s time to get back into! Besides it’ll be good to start running while I’m at home, there’s something about my small little home town that makes me be able to run for long periods of a time. So I think it’ll be perfect and a nice easy process to get back into it and before I know it, I’ll be back home in Calgary running routes here as well!

Ah more people than I expected want to see me when I come home, I would honestly love to see them all but my priorities are Mom and Dad and my 3 BBF’s and one other friend. I also need to stop by and see someone at my old Hospital job, because I want to see if I can use him as a reference and two it’d be good to do a little catching up with him. I may have to throw a small get together with the other people which would actually be nice considering I don’t really have many friends out in Calgary or really do much. Of course it’s by choice because I could easily just get out there and go do things but I’m so lazy…I’m even too lazy to meet new people haha..

I also plan on sending out my resume all next week to different jobs. I’m tired of working two jobs and I want to make more money, so since I’m off all next week resume sending will be perfect opportunity as well. I’m going to have a busy, productive week!

Happy Thursday all!

I’m happy happy happy today and there is no reason as to why really. I’m above 160 on the scale, I over ate last night, I’m on my period and in two days I’m going to be home seeing my parents and my wonderful friends. I’m super stoked about that, one of my friends is having a bon fire Saturday night she really wants me to go. But it’s the first night  I’m home with the parents. I don’t know more than likely I’ll end up going because I’ll be with my mom and dad, possibly my sister all day and I’d really like to see my friend. If I don’t see her at her bon fire though I’ll meet up with her Sunday for lunch. I then have 3 more of my BFF’s I need to hang out with, mostly two of them will be during the week while my parents are working so I don’t cut into parent’s quality time and my most amazing girl friend ever I will do a sleep over at her house. Don’t get me wrong all my girls are amazing it’s just two of them I won’t do sleep over’s for and I can hang out with them all day since they don’t really work.

I have nothing else to say, I hope everyone is having a magnificent day!

P.S Is anyone else having a week where they think every day so far has been Friday?!

Sunday’s Weigh in: 158

Not bad since Tom is kind of here and given the fact I had a drumstick snack size mcflurry and a cheese burger from MacDonald’s at 10pm Saturday night I guess I’ll be happy with not budging on the scale yet again. What have I been at this weight since the end of Feb…Without bouncing back and forth and seeing 157 a few times? Only thing I can do is stay on track this week at least try to give the cravings I’ll more than likely get.  I have one week before I head home! I refuse to stress about this…

I was supposed to go to the Zoo on Sunday with No Spark guy, but I honestly couldn’t bring myself to go with him so I canceled. I don’t blame me either for a guy who says “what time shall I pick the beautiful princess up at?” it’s like what am I 5? Or say’s Jammies, and say’s he’s cooking chicken boobies for dinner instead of chicken breast… Just because you have ADD and you’re 30 doesn’t give you the excuse to act like a 10 year old…We had a discussion and he asked me if I had a problem with him calling me beautiful? I told him because he says it so much it means nothing to me other than a being just a word. I think he was a little offended by that. He told me it was true though because I was one of the top 5 most beautiful women he’s ever met. LOL!!! I told him he clearly doesn’t get out much haha…He didn’t get it.. lol That’s fine I thought it was funny.

I’m more than happy to be single for the rest of my life to be honest. I’ve kind of already accepted that, that’s the way it’s going to be. I’m going to be a cat lady and you know what I’m fine with that because I don’t NEED a man, maybe sometimes want one but need, no. I really need a boy break…Maybe I just won’t respond to any text messages from guys for a few days?! Given the fact that I said that I doubt any of them will be texting me any time soon haha which is great! Cause I really don’t send the first text anyways! I think once I go home and I’m away from here for a week and spend time with my family and friends I’ll be refreshed and happy again that I’ll want to go out more with my friends from here and start doing more things…I’m kind of lazy now and have no motivation to be around people.

Those are not my feet though I do like the colour of the nail polish but this is what my scale said this morning…and guess what?! TOM is here (sort of…spot spot…)…geez it feels like she went away not to long ago and is now back again! But this is good…158 and TOM…would explain my cranky mood and over eating this week but hey I’m still under 160 so I’m going to take it!!! Besides makes me happy I won’t be on my period the week I’m at home!

I’d like to dream that this weight right now is my 5 pounds plus and when this is all over I’ll be down to 154!!! Do you know how awesome that would be?! if I met my goal of 155 for next Friday and when I go home to see my family?! It would be AMAZING! I don’t know we shall see!!! I am going to the zoo tomorrow with no spark guy, I’m excited I have never been to the Calgary Zoo and I’ve lived out here for 4 years!!! It’s going to be a beautiful weekend so I’m going to enjoy it and get some amazing pictures! woot woot! I really have nothing else to say other than my wonderful scale news…tho I know tomorrow is my official weigh in day I had to weigh in as soon as I started spotting haha.

Everyone have a wonderful weekend!

Good morning ladies! (and gents)

I’m in a good mood today! I actually woke up this morning excited because I thought it was Friday…lol okay so it’s only Thursday but whatever! I had my massage yesterday it hurt like hell! But I can still feel the kinks so I’m going to book another appointment in three weeks! Calories were a bust yesterday I decided to have a pity party for myself with Wendy’s burger, poutine and a pop… But that’s okay! I think I needed that pity party and that massage because today I feel GREAT! I was going to step on the scale to see the damage but then I looked in the mirror and said “I look thin today!” so I went with that and walked away from the scale!

I’d like the say I’m doing great calorie wise this morning and from the way I calculated it all…I should be on track today!  I’m still on a not working out strike for this week. I will get back into it next week and then I get to go home for a week and enjoy a nice relaxing time away from work! I reapplied at the hospital; I’m hoping the second time is a charm for that one to! I’m still waiting for my email to tell me when my interview is for the dispatching job as well!

I really really really need to start living off one pay and putting away money from my second job pay like it doesn’t even exist. You know discipline is not my strong suite especially when it comes to money…Apparently it isn’t when it comes to food either. Heh…Either way I have to start or else I’m always going to be stuck in the never ending BS…so my goal is by the time I’m 30 to be clear of debt! That’s three years, I need to start like 6 months ago…lol

Have a wonderful Thursday!

Turbo: Thanks for liking it! The campfire photo’s had to do with my shutter speed! I’m not really up to date with how I did it my friend set it for me and I just played around with it. As well with the help of the ground because once you start getting into shutter mode you need a try pod or a very sturdy hand haha!

I’m taking a break from working out! Why? because I can! I have a massage appointment today at 3:30 which I’m happy about I’m so tense and blah lately that I need it! Today is a beautiful day out so I’m trying to be cheery and happy but really I’m pissed and blah. I don’t know why? Maybe it’s the stress of going home next week? Which I’m excited about but…I can feel the stress hitting me now. I’ll just keep track of calories this week, stay under 1500 I should be fine for Sunday’s weigh in. I’m definitely staying away from the scale until Sunday!

I still have a lot of photos to go through for my page. I should probably sit down and have a relaxing night doing that tonight and just work on my photo page and worry about everything else tomorrow!

Have a happy Hump day!

I think I’m just going to maintain here for a while. This is really depressing and I’m really moody today and NOT in the mood to worry about weight loss or working out. It’s such a beautiful day out but today I gotta work both of my jobs it totally sucks. I’m in this rut, I’m still waiting to hear back as to WHEN my interview is. I think the scale just depressed me this morning!

Friday No Spark canceled which I was super happy about given the fact that I was soo exhausted from Acupuncture that I was out like a light by 8pm that night. He wanted to reschedule for Saturday but of course the place closed at 5 and I was working that day and didn’t know what time I was going to finished. He mentioned we could do a stay in and watch a movie and I was like not happening. (Movie nights usually mean make out sessions and sex) I’m really not that into him to invite him over to my place to watch a movie. Saturday I did my 30 minute workout, then went out to a buffet at an Indian restaurant which was amazing by the way!

Sunday was my weigh in 157!!! I was happy about that The Bow River clean up and all though I was home by one in the afternoon I wanted to work on my photo’s and add more to my photography page, instead of going out and doing something. I think my page is coming along nicely! 20 likes and one was from a random person! I just need 10 more than apparently I can do more with my page! So like it! facebook.com/dysfunctionalbarbiephotography Don’t worry I can only see you liked it, I can’t see anything on your page because we’re not friends.

I got a picture of the harvest moon it was really pretty. I attempted to workout yesterday only to have done two circuits from JM BFBM then quit, I was kind of full and my body was just like “ugh stop moving around so much.” I think a nap is in order after job one, before job two….Then tomorrow I may feel better and get back into working out, or hell I may even shock myself tonight around 8:30 and work out. Who knows…all I know is NAP TIME once I get home for an hour…

Anyone else having a blah Tuesday?! Have a wonderful rest of the day all!

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Fun day pictures Pictures there too big to post on this blog.

It comes to no surprise that that tiny delicious beast is what I shouldn’t have ate or else I would have been only 100 calories over 1500 instead of 400…As you guessed it I ate over my calorie intake. Whoops but on a POSITIVE note my exercises are becoming a habit! I have been able to keep up with them even forcing myself on the weekends to get in a short workout has been alright!

Today’s food plan:

6:00 – Green tea with Honey (60) ½ cup of cottage cheese and strawberries (160) = 220

9:00 – Two packages of instant oatmeal (280) ½ cup of 2% milk (70), Yogurt (35) = 385

10:30 – 5 veggie crackers (110), 2 table spoons of cream cheese (80), cucumbers (10) = 200

12:00 – Pizza Pockets (460) I know not the healthiest! But I really didn’t feel like cooking for lunch today!

Total:  1265

I don’t have dinner planned yet, but given the fact I have 235 calories left for dinner. I may make soup (210) and a salad (40) which would be good before I head out to archery! I have acupuncture at 3:30 until 4:30 I’ll head home and do Jillian Michaels (one of her 30 minute DVD’s) eat, then get ready since he’s not off work until 6:30 or 7:00. I’m letting him pick me up this time simply because I don’t feel like driving all the way down south for this and two I always wanted to be picked up for a date like they do in the movies haha.

Remember (charming) or as I now call him Twat? He text me and I pretty much confronted him on everything because I told him I had a date tomorrow. He said he wasn’t pleased about that. I said it’s been a month and EVERYTIME we we’re suppose to hang with the exception of our first meet you had an “Emergency!” I’m starting to think you’re married and hiding it and that I wasn’t going to stop dating when the opportunity came because who knows If it was going to be another month before I saw him.  He said he wasn’t married or involve. I said then what it is? Bad karma horrible timing what would you think if this was constantly happening to you with a girl you wanted to see?

He said he’d trust them until they gave him a reason not to. I told him I was following my gut instinct and if my gut instinct is stronger than my head telling me to trust someone I’m going to go with that! He said he was sorry that his mother’s illness was such an inconvience to me. I said don’t make me sound like a bitch here that’s not what I meant, it’s not just with your mother two weeks ago your friend killed herself, one time you got into a fender bender…makes it look like there’s a lot of excuses here because someone doesn’t want to put any effort into thing.

He said he wasn’t playing games here, and if he wasn’t interested he wouldn’t keep trying. (not that he’s really trying AT ALL, but I didn’t say that.) I said FINE, if you’re apparently NOT playing games then do something with me this weekend. He said he had to see if he was filming. Haha whatever, I have no thoughts on this one because I know it’s not going to happen and two if it does it’s he better plan something epic because cooking me dinner is not cool, not wanting to take me out is not cool…not spending money on me is not cool! (I’m not a gold digger and I’d gladly go out and do something free like a walk in the park with no spark guy…lol I know horrible name. but with twat it seems like he doesn’t want to spend money and if you’re a 36 year old broke ass I don’t want you either. Lol) As well if he was smart he’d step up his game because he obviously has some competition bahaha I’m evil…

Sunday:

Clean up the bow river which will be so much fun! I’m going to bring my camera too and just get pictures of everything! Speaking of I finally set up my facebook photography page! https://www.facebook.com/DysfunctionalBarbiePhotography feel free to like it! I’m not the best at photography I’m pretty amateur and some of the shots I messed around with on my Photoshop to enhance the colour and stuff. I’ll never become a professional but it’s just really fun and I think it’s a healthy great hobbies to get into!

Everyone have a wonderful weekend!