So it’s day 3 of the vegan pledge, and everything seems to be going okay. There’s some stuff that I’m not sure if it constitutes as vegan or not, but I think I’m doing pretty well. It’s a little challenging because we’ve gone longer than usual without grocery shopping, so there is not much in the house at all. I can definitely make it work, it just may not be what I want!
I find it interesting though how much easier it is to stay away from certain foods because I can’t eat others. For instance, I’m eating soup right now (yep, for breakfast). It’s homemade bean soup, totally fits the vegan requirements, and it’s super yummy and low calorie. Normally, I would pair this with two slices of bread and some (usually light) butter. Now, I can’t have butter, therefore the bread is not even remotely appealing. It seems a lot of the stuff that I find myself wanting to go along with other foods are dairy based and end up being high calorie also. I don’t know what that “means”, but it’s interesting to make a connection to my certain foods that would up my calorie consumption quite a bit. Incidentally, I am not counting calories at this time, just kind of intuitive eating.
Along with my vegan pledge, I decided to only weigh myself once a week. I haven’t been weighing myself much since the depression hit, mainly because I haven’t been doing anything to make the numbers on the scale go where I want to see them go! When I am actively trying to lose weight, or even just change my eating habits, I am obsessive about weighing. I hop on the scale every day, several times a day, after various bathroom trips and in different states of undress. It’s pretty ridiculous. I guess in some ways it’s good because I can catch a gain or counteract one before it gets bad, but I tend to also “overcelebrate” my losses and end up minimizing them by being too lax with my eating. So that’s why I decided to do a once a week weigh in, but boy, is it hard!!! I woke up this morning and after I used the bathroom the scale was just calling my name! I would get fidgety and keep glancing at it. I kept resisting, and finally I ate breakfast just so I wouldn’t get an (in my mind) accurate number for the day. Can’t I just be a normal person when it comes to food and weight?
That’s about it for today. I have some fridge cleaning to do since tomorrow is grocery day. I’m probably going to roast some cauliflower tonight and I’ve got some squash that I need to come up with an idea for. Time to get to work!