Well

I am starting to feel better. My friends have been really supportive of me and what has happened. I saw him yesterday. He’s still mad and says he is still through with me. I think I didn’t give him enough time. So I made my last attempt to let him call me when he is [...]

Onederland and can’t even enjoy it.

I’ve gotten to below 200 in the past few days, but not the way I would have liked. I really just can’t eat anything. I don’t want to eat. I don’t want to sleep. I’m not moping around or anything, but I’m tired of the up-down up-down thing.

Still feeling multiple emotions

He has not called once. I have not talked to him since Saturday. My friend told me if I don’t hear from him by Thursday, I just need to consider him officially done. So I’ve decided to seek help from a preacher to pray for me and possible counsel and will call that preacher on [...]

Multiple emotions.

I have went from angry, to sad, to depressed, to hopeless. Now I am okay again. On top of everything, TOM has started and I’m bloated. Maybe the bloat will be gone by Tuesday. I want to hit ONEderland before June 1st. So we will see.
My dog Jack seems depressed, although I’m sure he doesn’t [...]

My marriage

is over. My STBX told me yesterday and confirmed today. It’s happened so quickly. We have been married 10 months and together 3 years. I can’t say I didn’t see this coming, but it is not a mutual want. I love him. I know I have flaws, and he has a temper, but I love [...]

Weight goals

I did not notice that I set huge mini weight goals. Compared to my goal right now, 3 lbs here, 5 lbs there, I believe I am more motivated by those little goals. I am not giving myself rewards because of monetary reasons, but it feels good to move to the next ticker. I am [...]

Feeling better

After a shortfall last week, my weight has once again started declining. I lost 2.6. I am really happy with that. I am 2lbs away from my next goal of 15%. Then 1 lb away from being just “overweight.” Then the biggie 3 lbs after that… ONEderland. I am hoping to reach ONEderland by June [...]

Excitement

I am 5 lbs away from Onderland. I can’t wait until the day in a few weeks that I can officially say I have a 1 in the hundreds place of my weight. Oh happy day!

Needing a change

I feel like, in my life, I have been that typical extreme type A personality. In my honest opinion, it helped me get to where I am today. However, it has gotten the best of me in certain aspects of my life. I should not expect of others what I expect of myself. I know [...]

Haven’t wrote in a while.

I’m still on plan. I kind of went over just my dailies yesterday, by 18. Got on the scale this morning and weighed less! I know it’s not weigh in time yet, but I was curious. Things are looking better on the husband front. I’m just taking everything one day at a time.