Gluten intolerance? Celiac? Is it all in my head?

Note: There are going to be some personal things mentioned that you may or may not want to read or know about me (some TMI issues).

Okay, so long story short: My sister said last year that she wondered if she had a gluten intolerance. I have lately been so lethargic, it was truly scaring me. Not only that, but I had been showing signs of nutritional deficiencies: cracked/chapped lips, extreme dandruff, not being ‘regular’, irregular TOM.

So I started to research about my sister’s theory of gluten being an issue. I felt like I hit the jackpot because most of the symptoms I can pinpoint; not only that, but I can point out times where I should have known something was wrong.

The minute I eliminated gluten, I no longer hurt after eating. I always thought that ‘pain’ I felt was hunger and needing more food. Boy, was I wrong! I am no longer ever hungry. This next part is the one that is going to be difficult for me to say, because I’ve been embarrassed by this and have never known what was going on… I have 2 boils on pantyline, which aren’t uncommon, and I attributed them to my weight and also sweating. Well, lo and behold those boils went from inflamed the size of a little smaller than a golf ball, to inflamed the size of a pea and fading, not even 4 days into the diet change. Coincidence? I think not.

So I decided to go all out. I have given up gluten, dairy, and fruit. I am only eating meat, eggs, and veggies. I will eventually add back in dairy and fruit because I am not lactose intolerant and I love fruit, but I decided to take a low sugar, low carb approach and re-evaluate my relationship with food.

Unfortunately, by going gluten-free, I may never know if I have Celiac disease. However, I have contemplated having the ‘gene test’ just for some peace of mind. If I do not have the genes, well then, I guess I do not have celiac, but may have a gluten-intolerance. If I do have the genes associated, it’s not a diagnosis, but I will know for myself how real it is, and will keep with it all my days. I want a long, healthy life.

My weight today 186.7

My goal weight 163

Motivation

I have plenty of motivation to lose this weight, but can’t get into the swing of it. I’m going to really push forward the next few days and only eat my daily points. We shall see.

Well, a lot has happened.

  • I made it my goal weight earlier this year, 163.
  • I got divorced.
  • I met the man of my dreams.
  • I am engaged.
  • I will get married, again, in 2014.
  • I gained 40 lbs during this new relationship, happy weight. Highest weight 206.3
  • I am currently re-losing. Last weigh-in 191.8

Long time no post

I’m still alive and finally back down to where I was before when I was losing last year. I weighed in at 194.4 this morning. Hoping for the 180s by the end of April.

My husband and I reconciled for a little over six months and decided to separate once again. I’m ready this time to put this failed marriage behind me. I deserve to be happy and I am ready for a new beginning.

Work has been very stressful, but hopefully everything will fall into place very soon.

Good day!

Well

I am starting to feel better. My friends have been really supportive of me and what has happened. I saw him yesterday. He’s still mad and says he is still through with me. I think I didn’t give him enough time. So I made my last attempt to let him call me when he is ready to talk about ending things/splitting things, or anything else. If he doesn’t do that, I’m just going to go on with my life. At least I’m not feeling like I felt all last week. I don’t know if it is a little shred of hope or acceptance. I will not have any regrets because at least I tried to work things out and I am praying to God for forgiveness.

Onederland and can’t even enjoy it.

I’ve gotten to below 200 in the past few days, but not the way I would have liked. I really just can’t eat anything. I don’t want to eat. I don’t want to sleep. I’m not moping around or anything, but I’m tired of the up-down up-down thing.

Still feeling multiple emotions

He has not called once. I have not talked to him since Saturday. My friend told me if I don’t hear from him by Thursday, I just need to consider him officially done. So I’ve decided to seek help from a preacher to pray for me and possible counsel and will call that preacher on Friday. I have got to get through this. I’m pretty sure it is over. I am just trying to take it one day at a time. One breath at a time. I got emotional last night and couldn’t do what I planned on doing. I know that I am going to go through these emotions rapidly, I am just ready to truly start feeling better.

Multiple emotions.

I have went from angry, to sad, to depressed, to hopeless. Now I am okay again. On top of everything, TOM has started and I’m bloated. Maybe the bloat will be gone by Tuesday. I want to hit ONEderland before June 1st. So we will see.

My dog Jack seems depressed, although I’m sure he doesn’t know what is going on. He hears something, he runs to the door and I know he thinks it’s my former husband. Hopefully with time, he will be alright.

My marriage

is over. My STBX told me yesterday and confirmed today. It’s happened so quickly. We have been married 10 months and together 3 years. I can’t say I didn’t see this coming, but it is not a mutual want. I love him. I know I have flaws, and he has a temper, but I love him anyways. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep. I feel like I’ve been punched in the chest and there is no hope for reconciliation. I’ve went from angry, to sad, to hopeless. Please keep me in your prayers.

Thank you.

Weight goals

I did not notice that I set huge mini weight goals. Compared to my goal right now, 3 lbs here, 5 lbs there, I believe I am more motivated by those little goals. I am not giving myself rewards because of monetary reasons, but it feels good to move to the next ticker. I am 2 lbs away from that next ticker and am so looking forward to making it through them all! I think I can, I know I can ;)