December 1, 2010

Sorry for my hiatus. I was all out of sorts. but great news, i hit ONEderland 2 weeks ago. i am currently 198.8 (up .2 from thanksgiving, yikes!!) i have alot of stress this week. im very angry with my immediate family, and my grandfather is in the hospital as of today. so my eating and focus have taken a drastic hit. i know i can rebound from this, but it just all happened so quickly i definitely fell back in to bad patterns (especially since it was mixed with not having any groceries but tons of leftovers of bad food… ugh) so here i am at 198… finally in onederland , but im just in a slump, a bad mood slump, i dont feel like i can be happy… although i did buy myself 2 pairs of size 14 jeans from old navy on black friday… i have to pull them up from time to time in the waist, but the legs and thighs fit (of course)… but size 12 here i come…just need to snap out of this and stop letting the people in my life who are supposed to love and support me bring so much negativity around me and mess with my head and focus~!~

~RFG~