I was in desperate need for clothes :p At my larger size, what flattered me most was sack like/billowey kinds of things and now those are super unflattering on me and too big. Any smaller clothes I have are super tattered and raggedy so I was seriously just wearing the same thing every few days :( Also my shoes were falling apart! So I decided yesterday to hit up ross for a bit of shopping. I found some great finds. The only people who go to the ross where I live are really old ladies so all the young fun stuff is plentiful 
I got:
long black dress size m in juniors
short black dress size l in juniors
a beautiful white dress that looks like its out of the 50s size 13 in juniors
a sexy tube dress size medium in juniors
super adorable bright indie dress size medium in juniors
medium yoga leggings
cheetah print sports bra
workout shorts
4 pairs of cute boy shorts
1 bra that is CLOSE to my actual size. Its a 36D
pair of 6in tan wegdes
pair of 4.5in orange and tan wedges
1 white cinch belt
1 black cinch belt
All for under $200 which I think is pretty impressive :3
The most exciting thing for me though was buying entirely in juniors ;D I tried on 1 thing from womens and its was too large and too matronly. Only 1 thing I tried on didn’t fit and that was a juniors dress that was a medium but super tiny! Being an adult and being able to shop in the juniors section is pretty amazing. And its cheaper! lol While trying stuff on I realize that as the rest of me shrinks my boobs are staying the same, which I must admit is really awesome.
Now onto the more serious news…..I have not been eating well! I think I was totally sabotaging myself now that I know how many calories to eat ect. Also I exercised last week an ABSURD amount. Like bordering on exercise addiction status. It wasn’t healthy and totally depleted my body. So I took two days off and am going to try and be more reasonable this week…..calorie wise I’m getting my act together starting yesterday. I’m going to aim for 1600 this week. I realize I’ve not been giving calorie counting my all. I work so hard with exercise, but then totally undo everything by eating more calories. All the calories are healthy but that can’t be an excuse either >:( I joined another group on 3fatchicks. Its my 3rd group! lol But I really need it for accountability. My main group is awesome and all about health and my exercise group is great and now its time I add a calorie group because it seems I do well as long as I have a group for whatever I’m working on 
i’m going to have a mini goal of being down 5lbs by May. It should be totally doable, but I need to very carefully stick to my plan!
Posted on April 10th, 2012 by dottington
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So the strangest and craziest thing happened to me at the end of last month….
First off I need to say that the whole “its simple! calories in vs calories out!” thing never worked for me. I looked up my bmr on multiple sites. Did all sorts of equations, but the numbers just never added up. I would be netting 1200 a day and not losing at all….the only time it even budged was when I was nearly starving myself and then it was only .5lb a week. Even when I suffered from eating disorders the same thing happened.
All of march I maintained, it even looks like I gained a little. I ate the same every day. 1600-2000 calories and logged 1540min of exercise most of which was intense like heavy lifting, hiking, and rock climbing. I was about to lose my freakin mind! But then seriously all of a sudden, after the 8 week mark of starting my sessions with my personal trainer the scale started dropping. I didn’t trust it and was SUPER skeptical. But it continued. And then I started looking back on the math….
On average I burn approximately 600 per day from exercise(this is an average for a normal week). I eat between 1600-2000 a day with 1 or 2 spike days where I eat as many carbs as I can. I seem to lose between .3-.4lbs per day on days that are completely on plan. So what is going on????
My metabolism seems to have sped up considerably. Before it appears without exercise and calorie restriction my metabolism slows down extremely fast. Now with intensive exercise my daily requirements seems to be 2400 calories or more. And even stranger it seems that whatever deficit I get from eating less then this is even greater from the exercise burned calories. So on days I exercise 2400 is without the exercise. So If I ate 2000 yesterday thats -400 calories plus then I add on my exercise. Today I’m down to my lowest weight thus far since the new year.
I asked my trainer about it yesterday and he said that exercise does increase metabolism. I’m hoping this month that this loss is consistent and I lose more then 5lbs!
Posted on April 4th, 2012 by dottington
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Me and my sister hiking, I’m the one covered in mud :p
I’ve been trying to break my emotional attachments to eating. Its been very hard. I try to eat every 3 hours or so just a small amount and am averaging 1800 calories per day. Which may seem like a lot, but I do exercise a ridiculous amount. And not just walking. Intensive training.
The last week my exercise schedule looked something like this:
Monday:jogging 10 min, bicycling 20min at 200watts.
Tuesday:75 min heavy weight circuit training with PT
Wed:rest
Thursday: heavy weight circuit training with PT 75min
Friday: moderate hiking 90min
Sat: light walk
Sunday: rock climbing/hiking 4 hours
I’m exercising for around 500min a week, so 1800 cal average per day, feels a little like torture 
I’m just trying to train myself to eat less. I’ve been having insane hunger pains and can’t sleep sometime because of it. My trainer to me to take one day a week off and just eat whatever I want in any amount. Just to go by how I feel so my body doesn’t start catabolizing my muscles from restricting and working out so much during the week.Today is that day and its actually really hard….I have no desire to eat and am having to force myself NOT to exercise. Sigh. I need to go heavy on the carbs too since I avoid them like the plague during the week….I guess I’ll get used to this eating pattern in time but right now its so difficult for me My body though seems very happy with it :p My stomach is getting super flat, I’m getting tighter and more compact. Clothes are fitting better. A lot of clothes are getting too big. In general I’m happy with my size. I’m a size 8/10 and don’t look too bad Its a size I could live with, but would prefer to be smaller for aesthetic reasons, but know that I am healthy now. Weight loss is actually the last thing on my mind now. The things I care about the most are getting stronger, feeling more energized, boosting my confidence, being healthy, and accepting my body. If that results in weight loss, awesome. If not? Who cares? I look fine. I’m healthy and happy
Funny enough though I have a really strong feeling that now that I don’t care about it and am actually doing everything for the right reasons, the weight will come off haha I’ve taken some more progress pics and see some huge differences since when I starting weight lifting. If anything I only care about body fat % anyways. I would LOVE to be at 20%. Right now I’m guestimating I’m somewhere around 27% right now, at least according to a bunch of online tests…..My measurement goals of 25in waist and 36in hips would actually put me at 20% bf
So for the last month I made a goal of exercising 1200min since the month before I had done around 1000min. Well it looks like I’m going to surpass that easily since I’m probably going to end up at 1500min :3 So for April my goal of min will be 1750. Its going to be a challenge but I know I can do it!!!!
Posted on March 24th, 2012 by dottington
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BEFORE AFTER—->>
BEFORE
AFTER
Halloween, look how round my face is!
Taken today with all my nice angles!
I was nearly bursting out of this dress in Nov!
Looking much trimmer today!
Well…here are my stats
SW:197 CW:185 -12
Neck: 13/12.5 -.5
Chest: 40 -3
Ribs: 34.5/33 -1.5
Waist: 32/29 -3
Belly: 35/32 -3
Hips: 41.5/38.5 -3
Bum: 42 SAME
Thigh: 23.5/22 -1.5
Lower Thigh:20/19 -1
Upper Arm: 12/11.5 -.5
Lower Arm: 10 SAME
Pant Size: 12/14 NOW 8/10
Dress Size:10 or Medium NOW 8/10 Medium
So that’s 16in down, 12lbs, and 1-2 sizes
I still have a long way to go, but I’m really happy with my results so far :) Also someone asked about my height. I’m 5′5 
Posted on February 24th, 2012 by dottington
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I’m feeling super inspired lately I finally have a PT and he’s really kicking my butt! He also believes in me though and really thinks I can change my body. As silly as it sounds, sometimes I get so discouraged and think I’ll never be able to achieve the body I want, so having someone who also really believes in me is nice.
I’ve really made some changes this year so far…new job, new school, new instructor, pt…and I dyed my hair red!!!! I’ve been blond for over 2 years and everyone knows me as “blondie” and super cute and sweet and bimbo like ugh So I really just wanted a change. I’m also trying to grow my hair out, and it just wasn’t growing while I was maintaining the blond. I could have just kept it a darker blond, but I was sick of the image I had. No ones takes me seriously because of my stupid hair. And I was sick of being called “blondie” :p With this fire red hair I feel sooooo much more confident and invincible almost. I look a little older which is good since most people think I’m in high school. I think I look a little more serious, but I also still stand out and look interesting. And the best part? It slims my face considerably! haha The blond makes me very “soft” and hides any angles, but when I have darker hair my cheek bones and jaw really pop more.
So I’m really feeling like all of this is doable and its just a matter of time till I reach my goals I really think that’s the first time I’ve said that AND actually meant it :3 
Posted on February 8th, 2012 by dottington
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First time wearing shorts in a while!
boobs sticking out more then stomach! always a good thing!
possibly on of my favorite dresses
Posted on January 25th, 2012 by dottington
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I’ve been very dedicated lately and am glad for it Going to the gym, feeling/looking smaller, eating right, not going out…it feels pretty good but I know it can feel even better!
Someone commented on my weight loss today. It made me so happy! Its nice to know that other people are noticing and its not all in my head lol :3
I’m not even so worried about the scale. I have actually lost inches, even though my weight hasn’t moved much. Also I’m down to my pre weight gain size when I weighed 8lbs less. Its so funny how that works out….
My boyfriend and his mother(who are both thin) are totally on a weight loss/health/exercise kick. Its kind of adorable but at the same time extremely frustrating watching them getting over excited adding all their calories in on their apps and getting all happy for exercise….ugh they are NO WHERE NEAR IN ANY POSSIBLE WAY OVERWEIGHT. Most people would look at them and say they are perfect and on the slim side. Not even average really. But it is nice to have so much motivation coming from everywhere.
I’ve noticed there are some things I’ve changed in the last two weeks that are really having an impact on my efforts:
1.no going out-less drinking and temptations
2.not saving all my calories for the evening-honestly stopping the night time eating has made me feel better.
3.being honest-completely and brutally honest about the actual calories in food.
4.over-estimating a little-ensures success
5.getting out of the house-no temptation!
6.not eating out-i used to eat out at least once a week and now its pretty rare so long thai tuesdays!
7.being creative and in control of my life-i’m not depressed so I don’t eat
8. drinking 100 oz of water a day-this has made me feel better, look better, and be less hungry. Honestly, water is magical.
9.actively avoiding things I know I’ll snack on-sadly popcorn, chips, fancy chocolate, and all the amazing crackers I love have only made me fat….sigh. I now just don’t bring them into the house. At all!
So yeah, just trying to improve on those things and keep going to the gym everyday for an hour :3 the gym too is the biggest motivator for me. Tonight afterwards I was about to grab some crackers, but stopped myself think, “are you crazy?! you just burned those calories!”
Posted on January 25th, 2012 by dottington
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Don’t know if I’d mentioned it before, but my business has kind of changed which has actually been really good for dieting :3 I’m working less, but making more, and its all on my own terms which is very nice. Also, I no longer work next to a bunch of fast food places(including a donut shop!).
I’ve been crazy sick the past week so I haven’t been exercising. I HATE not exercising. It is the one thing more then anything else that keeps me on plan. Plus it just makes me feel better all around, but my boyfriend has forbidden it till I’m completely recovered. I messaged my personal trainer asking him if he thought I was well enough to start exercising again….I hope he says yes!
Food wise I didn’t count calories or stay totally on plan the whole week. But I still lost a bit over 1lb! I FINALLY am understanding this diet thingy :p I truly just have to be completely honest with myself. I don’t know why its so hard. But it is :/
My basic plan for the next year is to exercise/move everyday(unless sick) and to keep my calories at or below 1500 average per day for the week. This means I can splurge some days if I want to, but will ensure I get back on track right away!
Posted on January 17th, 2012 by dottington
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Well the good news is….I’m not fatter then before I started.
The bad news is….I’m right back where I started
Totally got out of control for the last 2-3 weeks. Holiday parties, chocolates, cookies everywhere….yeah so today I just started TOM and I’m at nearly 197 again. I also was being really bad with cheese. Totally indulged and its caused some MAJOR bloating. Also having been drinking water like I should. All in all its been shitty two weeks. I know a lot has got to be water weight and I probably really only gained like 2-3 lbs instead of 7(!).
So whats important is that I’m getting right back on track. I’m not giving up for months on end like I used to. I’m getting right back in the race :3 So I’m starting with making a goal for exercise. I hired a personal trainer and decided that this month I want to do 250 miles of exercise. So far I’ve done 17. I’m also going to be more active in every day life because my teaching job has changed a bit. I’m going to be driving all around and just moving more throughout the day instead of sitting in the same chair teaching all day. I’m going to aim for around 1200 net cals per day. Anything below 1500 I’ll consider good though. To make my 250 goals I’m going to need to do roughly 8-9 miles per day.
I’m going to try and make most of my diet fresh fruits and vegetables. It sounds obvious, but it takes a lot of planning :p Like today I made a huge thing of salad, cut up veggies, marinated and oven baked tofu, made a sauce out of almond butter all for a feast that all together is 200 calories per serving. Even if I ate the whole thing by myself which would be crazy because its HUGE I’d still be under my calories for the whole day I really need to concentrate on volume more then anything. Instead of chips, eat crunchy veggies and popcorn. Instead of crackers and bread(carbs truly are my weakness) eat lettuce and low cal/low carb high fiber tortillas.
I think the more I do this the easier it gets. Eventually I’ll have it down and the weight really will melt off
Posted on January 8th, 2012 by dottington
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So I’ve been super busy!!! :p My birthday was this weekend….which means I ate at maintenance for a couple days. But no crazy 3000 calories ridiculousness at least I’ve been at 192 the past couple days…ugh 192 is the new 195. Haha and 195 had been the new 197. So its slow, but there is loss. Also its TOM time. I was down to 190 before TOM, so I’m hoping to lose some more this week :p
But I did get a great motivator yesterday. I had a performance and my dad videotaped it. So I got to see 7 min of myself completely unbiased AND from the side 
I thought, yes you can tell I’ve lost a little weight. I don’t look too much like a blob, but I still look like a big girl :/ It was huge inspiration for me. I was like, “I can’t stand looking like this! I nee to be on plan!”
So yesterday I was around 1500. My goal today is to follow my body’s natural plan and do no more then 1100 today.
Last night I made homemade chocolate prune cake….a small piece is 362 calories lol but I’m not planning on eating it. I’ve just been giving it away to people :3 And I also made christmas decorations for my students.
I only have a few students today. Bf is off for break. I bought him and his family their christmas present today….a dna test to trace their african roots. It was nearly $300 on sale so I’m just giving it as a joint gift. I’m really excited to give it to them!
Hope everything is magical and low cal in dietland!
Posted on December 12th, 2011 by dottington
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