i’m sitting here at work while the kids are napping (i teach at a day school) and i’m really honestly not having a very good day. A while back my boss told me that I had missed something like 45 days in the year that I had been here from being sick. Obviously that’s a lot. Since then I have had my tonsils out and haven’t been sick since (this was like the very beginning of april). The other day I had to call in because I pulled a muscle in my back and my mom wanted me to go to the doctor and get it checked out. Fine, whatever. Well today my boss pulled me into her office and said i’ve missed something like 60 days now, and this can’t keep happening. I tried to explain to her that 10 of those 15 days were from after the tonsillectamy, and that one day was my back and one day was because I was throwing up and I got sent home….so that’s really only 3 days that i’ve called in for something that wasn’t serious….but it’s like that didn’t matter. I have been working SO HARD to be here even when I don’t feel like it. I have come so many times lately with headaches and stomach pains and things like that….even though I didn’t feel like it, and it’s like they haven’t even noticed a difference. I was supposed to go get an MRI on my back tomorrow because it has still been hurting and i’m not so sure it’s a muscle anymore…but I called and cancelled it because I feel like if I miss another day i’ll end up losing my job. It’s just so frustrating. I feel guilty and upset and angry all at the same time. I love my job, I love these kids, but I have always had an awful immune system and I get sick a lot….and i’m definitely accident prone, so I get injured. It just sucks that i’m trying so hard to please my boss and she doesn’t see it. I haven’t been working out as much so that i’m not as sore so that I don’t miss as many days as I was before for injuries caused by stress on my muscles. I’ve been going to sleep at 9:30 or 10:00 pm so that i’m well rested. I’m just so frustrated by this. I don’t know how to handle it. I’m going to have to figure something out, it’s just not easy. Idk.
i’ve got to go put the kids snack out. Thanks for listening =/
Posted on June 16th, 2011 by divinefidelity
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