dogs like cookies, this much I know January 30, 2012
Today I have a strong desire to remove my last post, but I don’t like deleting posts; it feels dishonest.
I have been stuck in bed hacking my lungs up, blowing my nose approximately every minute or so, and feeling feverish and woozy. This has been going on for several days. Yesterday I drank a lot of tea, so Chris decided to make me Russian tea cookies to make the little plate look fancier. He’s such a dumpling. He brought me these spherical almond cookies to dunk in my tea, and the texture was nice, but I couldn’t really taste anything. Since Lali had loyally planted herself beside my bed to act as my nurse, she was just sort of down on the floor and gazing longingly at my plate of little cookie balls. When my fella left the room I dipped a cookie into my tea and handed it to her. (he hates it when I give the creatures human snacks) She placed it on top of her paw and gave it some dainty licks before swallowing it whole. I think that she was going for the refined lady look for a minute, but she just couldn’t hold out. She looked so flippin’ cute and happy that I dunked several more cookies and fed them to her. She’s been hanging out in my room with me for days, and that kind of support totally deserves some cookies.
I really want to feel normal again, and kick these dreadful feelings of despair that are hanging onto me. Yesterday I couldn’t do much physically, so I spent the day researching native Florida plants. I have always wanted to dabble in permaculture, and create a food forest, so we plan on doing just that when we move. I am certain that we can find a place with a good sized yard, and both of us are into growing things and sustainable living/ homesteading/ etc, so it will be a fun thing the two of us can play around with together. I started off by making a lovely list of fruit trees, nitrogen fixers, vines, ground covers, vegetables, and plants to attract birds/bees/ butterflies and predatory wasps. I then went about designing a guild with some of my top picks. A guild is a grouping of plants that is grown alongside each other to maximize yield, pest control, and growing conditions, and minimize the amount of human work and interference that is needed. This way of planting results in larger harvests, and is sustainable. I was happy to find that there is a garden center in Sarasota that only sells native species, and Florida friendly flowers, shrubs, vines, and edibles. Our current plan is to do one guild at a time, and then add and change things until we have covered the whole yard area.
I also intend to build a top-bar beehive (just one) so that I can finally finally have some bees to call my own. Yes, I am infatuated with bees. I don’t even care for honey that much, so I will probably end up giving most of it away, or not harvesting most of it and leaving it for the bees to eat over the winter. I was talking to my dad about the type of hives that we had in Missouri (we had two boxes), but he couldn’t tell me the name. He liked having them, never used a smoker, never wore protective clothing, and never got stung, but he laughed and told me he has no official knowledge of bee keeping whatsoever. If a person has good instincts they can do without all the official know-how I suppose.
I have to admit that I am really dreaming of the future at the moment, and not so much living in the present. I am taking small steps to cut it out, but meh- it’ll get me through until the appointment on the ninth.
Goals for the week: Work out four times this week, starting with today
Do four healing sessions this week
Check craft fair directory and write down application deadlines, cost, number of attendants, etc.
Look into renting a space at the Seven Mile Fair
Long term goals: Lose twenty pounds by September first
Save four thousand dollars by September first