I started to write this yesterday and then changed my mind. After reading Sterling and Inkheartmeg, decided I better come back and do it. 
I read something a few days ago about how so many dieters blog like they hate who they are and their life and want a total change. The blogger liked herself even when she was heavier and is really enjoying being thinner and didn’t want to change herself or her life, just lose weight. I’ve been thinking about this since.
My past life — to the random outsider — generally creates shock and awe, people say things like they can’t believe I’ve been through so much.
Me? Well, I’m so grateful. I’ve been so many places (geographically and otherwise) and my life continues to get more and more interesting and worthwhile. I don’t regret the past. I’m excited about the future.
Being so overweight just more and more boxed me out of the life I can have and the person I can be. It is not that I want to be different, I just want to be who I already am, without the 150 pound handicap. I don’t want my life to change, but just the chance to live the life I now have the opportunity to live.
If all I wanted to do with my life could be accomplished carrying an extra 150 pounds, I might go for it. But, it can’t. I want to do things that can’t be done at that weight. I don’t want to be somebody else - just me without the fat handicap — physically and socially. I don’t want a different life, I just want to live life fully now, without sitting things out, without ruling myself out.
No food is as satisfying as feeling good and living life. My tastebuds and emotions will not rule my life.
Besides, the more weight I lose, the fitter I get, the better I feel and the more I get to do.
Who do you want to be?
