There are some things that rob us of our life.
Laziness. Fear. Bad habits like procrastination and problems with punctuality. Being undisciplined. Being fat is one of them.
I choose to lose the overweight. Any weight I carry over what I need to be happy and healthy is a burden, is slowing me down, robbing me.
Not only have I carried a 100+ pound backpack with me way too much of my life, everywhere, every step, but I have sabotaged myself by putting huge stresses on my health, positioning myself to sit out on — just plain miss — many of the things I would have liked to be doing.
Besides wasting much of my life on things that were not what I wanted to be doing, I succesfully disguised myself as… Well, you know… Instead of letting people see the moderately attractive, highly appealing and energetic “glowing” capable woman God created me to be.
I’ve robbed myself. More than any of life’s challenges I’ve been through, I’m at fault. Trauma as a child didn’t do all this to me. Metabolism as an adult was mostly my doing. I really have no one to blame.
Even when people helped, they were not the real culprit. Even when circumstances overwhelmed me there came a day when I could have gotten up, turned it around. I could have stopped and got help and made a change at 10 pounds, 20, 50, 100…
It really doesn’t matter how far I’ve come or how much of my life is past. It is what I want to be doing in the future that matters. There is no such thing as too old to feel better. Being able to live the life you want at any age is priceless.
I want to be free. I want my life back. I want to feel good, be healthy, be able to do all the things I want to do. I want to look good and feel good about myself. I want people to feel good around me, to expect me to be an addition to their life and not a drag.
I want my life back. I’m taking it back. One bite, one walk, one exercise, one choice at a time.
Starting today. No more excuses, no waiting for the New Year. I’m not stopping here, at one third of my goal. I’m not satisfied. I’m just started. I’m going to resist this tendency to get lazy and coast and start drifting back the other way. I’m going on. I’m taking my life back, starting here and now at 3:31 in the afternoon.
What is your decision?
