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Mechanical Malfunction September 26, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 8:57 am

Yep. That’s what happened this morning when I weighed in. I moved the Wii board from the side to the center of the room and failed to notice one of the legs fell off. I weighed in at 283.8 which would have been a loss of 5.4 pounds and about on par with the way I’ve been losing weight thus far. I had to have quickie weigh in since it’s picture day for the kiddos at school so I wrapped it up and finished getting them ready and headed on to the bus stop to sit and wait. And wait some more. We were about two minutes late getting there and the driver is not known for waiting for us so we waited until 7:05 and went back home. That’s when I noticed the errant leg…sitting beside the board. My mom had also called during this time to tell me the bus passed her house at 7:15. (There’s 10 minutes between our two houses and it takes about 4 minutes to get to the stop and I retrieved the message at 7:17 on my cell. Yeah try doing that math first thing in the morning to decide if we’d make it back to the bus stop in time for the kids to catch the bus or just have Jeff take them to school like we had planned.)

I knew I had one of two options

  • Keep the original 283.8 weight and expect at best a no loss next week or more than likely a gain or
  • Go ahead and put the leg back on and just re-weigh.

I decided I would rather go ahead and re-weigh and know my accurate weight this week since I know I should be expecting Mother Nature’s visit any time in the next week to 10 days. Besides I had an awesome NSV this morning. I met my one little goal I set and that was to fit into those hot pink shorts I bought two years ago!

This is me in my hot pink shorts. Weight: 286.8. Total Loss: 57.2 pounds!

 

Potluck September 21, 2011

Filed under: Food — dawnyalh @ 11:52 am

That one word has never struck such fear and loathing in me before. It has now. It’s also brought out my inner toddler who wants to throw a temper tantrum and say “I don’t wanna do it!” We are having a birthday dinner celebration for a coworker tomorrow and the original plan was to grill out and either chip in with a few bucks to help with the cost of the meat or bring your own to grill out. Perfect! I was gonna stop at the store and pick up a morning star turkey burger and bring my 100 calorie Sara Lee bun and have some Special K Cracker Crisps. Nice meal. Well managed calories. No biggie. But wait. The plans got changed and the cursed word potluck got thrown out there.

They don’t want to grill out since we are still under a burn ban. Technically we can grill out since the location is on concrete & well within the boundaries of being away from flammable vegetation.

There are several reason why a potluck sounds horrible to me right now.

  1. You can never get a decent calorie count for one since you don’t know how everyone prepares their food.
  2. The foods people are bringing are calorie and fat laden foods that just don’t sound good to  me right now. A couple of months ago I would’ve been all over a potluck and been signing up for at least two dishes to bring.
  3. After the Race on Saturday I had not one but two lunches—one at Olive Garden and one at Lonestar Steakhouse—and then had another basic potluck for a friend’s birthday that used up all those calories I burned. I skipped all the appetizers and dressing soaked salad at the Garden and passed on the yummy looking cake.
  4. It just plain costs a lot to participate—both in time and money. You have to buy the ingredients for whatever you are making and then make the crap after dinner. We’ve already bought groceries for the week and have nothing left over to buy on anything else.

If I don’t participate then I’m not being a team player and if I do then I’m either skimping on calories elsewhere or working my ass off to burn off said calories. Can you tell my inner toddler has really been having fun since yesterday afternoon? I got home and checked out the fridge and pantry. We have a large bag of broccoli and some cheese and could bring broccoli and cheese but someone is already bringing the nice fattening broccoli cheese casserole. There really is nothing else left. So Jeff and I rearranged our menu planning and I’m going to be bringing the Easy Beef Goulash we had planned for Thursday’s dinner. We are bringing in the Southwestern Chicken Roll ups that weren’t made the week before into its slot.

For me, it’s all about the planning. There is plenty of notice for planning this potluck out. And I did have it planned out. Then I had to change it all up again and it pissed me off. I don’t want a 1000 calorie lunch this week. And that’s what a potluck is to me..at least at this point in my life. I know this is a lifestyle change and it’s all about adapting my choices while still living my life. So my choice for tomorrow will be to eat my portion of goulash I had planned for dinner & some veggies.

 

I did it!!! September 19, 2011

Filed under: Exercise, Goals, Weight Loss — dawnyalh @ 12:39 pm

I finished the Race for the Cure in under 1 hour…barely. But I made it and that’s what counts. I did start out jogging and had high hopes of jogging at least half of it. That didn’t happen. As soon as I started, my chest started burning and I was having problems breathing. I tried telling myself it was all in my mind. I slowed my jog. I tried to breathe through my nose and out through my mouth. I started out with Eminem’s “Lose Yourself.” It’s a great song and it motivated me well on Thursday. I jogged all the way through that song and halfway through the next one and that was on my third round of jogging on that day. I barely made it through half of the song before I started walking during the Race.
I kept my walking pace brisk for me. Sure I kept getting passed but I didn’t care. It was way different from the first 5k I ever did. That one, I felt like a complete failure. This time, I kept plugging away. At times I even did a long stride fast walk. My total time? 56:09. I met Sheila about halfway through. She and I kept passing each other along the way and finally just walked side by side. She walked for her mom who has stage 4 breast cancer. We both decided to jog the last bit and it took all I had to jog the last less than 2 blocks of that race. I had the same chest seizing up wheezing problems that I had in the beginning. I kept telling myself I can do this and Sheila kept telling me I could do it and we finished the race together.

I am going to go back to the c25k training and see if I can get my breathing under control. If it’s not better today without the adrenaline rush then I’m gonna call my doc and have her order me an inhaler. I really do like jogging and the freedom it gives. It’s calming and peaceful and something to get me away from the stress of life. I don’t want it to be stressful.

While looking up a couple of things before the Race, I came across the half-marathons for Race for the Cure. One has piqued my interest. Yes a half-marathon! Who wouldn’t want to do a half marathon in Hawaii on their honeymoon? :D Yep. There’s happens to be when we’ll be in Hawaii. It comes with added stipulations—like a minimum of $2300 in fundraising—but it also comes with perks—hotel stay. I’ve been tossing it around in my head since I saw it.

It’s time for Jeff and I to have a serious heart to heart and decide if we are going to renew our vows in Hawaii next year or not. I know he says we are going to do that but we are talking a $10k chunk of change that we just don’t have lying around (and that’s not counting a dress, cake, wedding stuff, etc). It is something that we can do if we plan for it now…but we haven’t yet and that scares me. I don’t want to commit to something or tell someone who might be coming that it’s going to happen only to have us not be able to afford to go.

Final note: Down 2 pounds this week.

 

Going to walk it September 14, 2011

Filed under: Exercise — dawnyalh @ 12:30 pm

I’ve come to terms with having to walk the 5k and I’m okay with it…now. This morning I was upset and near tears but then I realized it’s no one’s fault but my own. I haven’t been exercising like I should. Part of it was fear. What if I continued to work out and still couldn’t jog it? I think that’s what has been holding me back. This way I forced myself to have to walk it.

I have at least two other coworkers who will be walking as well so I won’t be alone. I will jog tonight and Thursday and Friday to see how far I can go. Depending how well my stamina holds up, I may try and do the last mile of it jogging.

Everything else is just plugging away. Trying to keep planning meals and having everything scheduled (meetings, etc.)

 

754 September 5, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 1:36 pm

That’s my number for the Race. It came in the mail Saturday. Guess it makes it that much more real. Less than two weeks now and I’m still having stamina issues. I did c25k w2d3 this morning and about got dehydrated. I made it through the 4th jogging set and realized that I wasn’t sweating. I was drinking water in the walking sets but I guess it wasn’t enough.
Had one of the kids bring me my G2 and I walked the rest. Came inside with a cool rag and started sweating and feeling better. Tonight I’m going to walk two miles or at least see how far I can go. I need to make sure I can at least WALK that far if I’m not going to be able to jog it. I haven’t been exercising like I should. I KNOW I NEED to exercise and I do have the TIME to do it. I just don’t. It’s something to work on.
Now for the good news…after the 3 pound gain from last week, I lost it along with almost 6 of it’s friends! Down to 290.6 this morning! Sure shocked me. I finished my wii fit routine and had to go into the graphs to actually get the weight because I was sure I read that number wrong. But nope. I read it right. Just goes to show you to work through it no matter what and I was right not giving up on myself!

 

Weighty Roller Coaster September 1, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 9:27 am

Here it is. My adult weight loss attempts. And to think in high school I swore I would never ever diet and become a yo-yo dieter. But look at it. It’s there in black and white..and blue. I graduated high school in May 1991 at around 195 pounds and I swore that I would never ever diet again. I did the good old Slimfast diet before my senior year in high school and got down to 175.

It wasn’t the diet itself that ruined me on dieting per se. It was the fact that I was working one Saturday and my Mom called up and asked what I wanted for lunch and I said just bring me whatever. She was ordering Dad’s lunch from a local burger dive and I just assumed she was ordering me something from there as well. WRONG. She brought me one well mixed frozen Slimfast concoction and I just couldn’t stomach drinking it. I had my heart set on a greasy cheeseburger and fries and that shake didn’t begin to resemble them. My Mom during this time also lost a large chunk of weight and was down to a size 10 (before vanity sizing mind you) and liked the shakes. Even at 17, I knew that yo-yo dieting was bad and I just decided that wasn’t for me and to accept me for who I was.

For 10 years, I didn’t. I gained the freshman 50 instead of the 15. I weighed around 236 at the end of my Freshman year. But I biked and my dorm was the farthest away from campus so I lost the 15 and pretty much maintained around 220-225 all through college. I’ve never had a problem with self esteem. I know that I’m beautiful inside and out. There’s just more of me to love.

Then in 1996, I quit working at Walmart. I was still going to school full-time and got a job working at the TV station full-time. Translate that into sitting on my ass for 10 hours a day instead of standing on my feet. My clothes still fit me the same. I went in for my yearly check-up. I stepped on the scale—252. I joked at the woman and told her my purse must’ve been on there with me and made her weigh me again. There was no way I could weigh that much! But yep. In just three months I put on that much weight.

I didn’t actually decide to do something about my weight until 2001. The weights on my chart are all from my fitday. I hated having to give it up but they only offer mobile to iphone users and I’m going to go with what’s convenient for me.

  • April 2, 2001—294 first recorded weight
  • May 28, 2001—268.5 lowest weight on my first attempt also right after my divorce
  • Nov. 2, 2001—273.5 Started getting comfortable and let a few pounds back on
  • May 2, 2002—290 Found out I was pregnant with our first child
  • July 14, 2003—317 Found out I was pregnant with our second child
  • Feb. 3, 2004—304 Gave birth to our second child. Actually lost weight in prengancy
  • Feb. 6, 2004—295 Lost 9 pounds after giving birth.
  • Feb. 28, 2005—250 Lowest weight from second attempt at losing weight (got comfortable in new body)
  • June 27, 2005—266 Third pregnancy
  • Aug. 1, 2005— 265 Miscarriage
  • January 2, 2006—287.5 Found out pregnant with our third child
  • October 12, 2006—290 Attempt to lose weight after giving birth
  • May 1, 2007—315 Almost back up to my highest weight
  • June 18, 2007—293 Another attempt at weight loss
  • Oct. 14, 2007—313 Put the weight back on
  • Nov. 19, 2007—297.8 Lost a few more pounds
  • Jan. 7, 2008—302.6 Gained some over the holidays
  • Feb. 18, 2008—278.8 Ran my first 5k
  • May 19, 2008—247.8 Lowest I’ve been in my adult life since trying to lose weight
  • June 12, 2009—344 Highest I’ve ever been in my adult life

I’ve since started and stopped trying to lose weight several times since that last recorded weight in fitday. I couldn’t even count. I received my Wii fit for Christmas in 2009 but it took me until this year to finally get below the 330 to even be able to play it. The kids have had much use out of it before then. Let’s see I’m on day 200 something so that’s how long I’ve been using it.

Yes, I could look at this graph and say, “Damn, I’m good at quitting,” but I’m not. I can look at this graph and say “You can do this.” I do know what I need to do. I know that I have to change my life in every aspect food and exercise wise.

Yes, I can choose to still live the way I was living but that will be as a 300+ pound fat woman. But I CHOOSE to eat healthy AND exercise so I can find the healthy woman inside and ride a real roller coaster again!

 

Peaking my head out August 31, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 1:34 pm

I have survived the birthday weekend…barely. I won’t say unscathed because I came out with a three pound gain and a loss of direction. I haven’t been able to get back on track but I’m going to quote one of my favorite quotes:

Failing to plan is planning to fail.

It is so true. I haven’t been planning. That’s not exactly true. I’ve been half-ass planning. And then I let it all go to hell by the end of the day. I have intentions of planning but don’t. I can see how easy it is to slip back into the old habit without a backward glance.
First it was the exercise to go and it went quickly. Then planning the meals. Yes I planned on not having the healthiest of meals on Saturday and only on Saturday. But Saturday turned into Sunday which turned into Monday. On Monday I told myself I’ll get back on track on Tuesday. Let’s get the rest of the birthday celebrations over with and you will get back on track.
Had breakfast, lunch, and snacks planned out. Yes I knew we would probably end up eating Sonic burgers for dinner and even allotted the calories for that beast. Then I got home and chowed down on the ice cream left in the fridge and I can’t even remember what else. Why? I have no idea. It was there? Bored? I truly don’t know.
I haven’t done any of the c25k in over two weeks and the Race is now in just over two weeks. I have faith in myself that I can do it. I know that I can do it even if I have to walk really fast but I want to jog it. This is what usually happens to me and why I can never count on will power alone, especially when motivation leaves me. I haven’t given up and I know I will get back on track.

 

Plugging away August 25, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 1:07 pm

Yeah that’s me. And that’s about all I’ve got for the past couple of days. Did I mention it’s going to be a hectic week? I’m eating well. My stomach is doing well. I’m not getting my exercise in unless you count all the cleaning I’m doing. But I am here. :)

 

I think it’s working August 23, 2011

Filed under: Exercise, Weight Loss — dawnyalh @ 12:55 pm

It was great to wake up this morning and not have my stomach be all knotted up and hurting. I don’t know if it’s the Prevacid, the veggies and fruits only yesterday or a combination. Frankly, I don’t care as long as I have relief. If you would’ve asked me last night, I was planning on doing ONLY liquids today because I still hurt so bad last night.

I made the green drink and my kids loved it. Go figure. I think they almost had more than me. I’ve still got 3 servings left in the fridge and I’ll have another one tonight for snack and give them more. Shoot, they can have all they want!

I did c25k w1d3 in the pool again last night. Rigged up computer speakers to my cell phone and could hear everything just fine. I even jogged for 4 1/2 minutes in the middle. I still actually want to complete the program but I may start straight jogging 1 day a week soon. Of course that would require me to actually be able to jog and not in the water. We’ll see about tomorrow morning.

I slept horrible last night. Could be because I found the grease catcher to the small George Foreman grill stuck on the heating element in the dish washer and it was melted pretty good. I consider my good sniffer both a blessing and a curse. Last night it was a blessing because I never would have smelled it. I took it out, turned it off and unplugged it. Of course I also thought it was the central air first and turned that thing off. The downside to my super sensitive snout is I can smell every single smell that comes from my coworker and that’s not a good thing. I sometimes get teased because I stay well stocked in any number of candles, plug in air fresheners and sprays. Whatever it takes to keep the air smelling fresh.

This morning on my Wii fit plus, I was down two pounds. I’m going to use that as this week’s weigh in. Why? Because I can. I don’t feel so bloated like I did yesterday even if I do feel like a truck ran me over last night. I didn’t get in my exercise this morning and that means I have to get it done tonight. Such is my life and I am learning to live it.

 

Resorting to drinking and pills August 22, 2011

Filed under: Food, Weight Loss — dawnyalh @ 10:40 am

It sounds so rebellious and on a downward spiral I know. I wish. My damn digestive system is still giving me horrible, horrible fits. Horrible. Throw another one in there for good measure. I really don’t know what the deal is. I make a conscience effort to eat healthier and exercise and my stomach revolts. You would think I would be hearing something like

Dawnyal, Dawnyal she’s our gal

Eating healthy’s really swell.

Broccoli and fiber’s such a treat!

All this new food is really neat!

Go Dawnyal!

But no, I get the revolt of the century and get things more along the lines of “Damn Bitch, give us back the unhealthy crap. How do you like the rolls and punches? Want more? We can give you more!!!” Yeah that’s what it’s felt like this past week. I have felt bloated, gassy, heartburn and just downright uncomfortable. Sometimes eating makes it feel better, sometimes it makes it feel worse.

Yesterday I started taking Prevacid. At least I didn’t wake up with the pain so I hope it’s a step in the right direction. Now for the drinking part. :D I’m doing a modified fast today to try and cleanse my system in case I have some sort of blockage. I’ve been going regularly but it hasn’t been the “S” curve consistency Dr. Oz preaches on. Without going into much detail on it, let’s just say it’s not been my regular. Today it’s V8, V8 fusion, and fruits and veggies. I know I could take the time to make my own juices but the key word there would be time. Something I’m severely limited on this week. Jeff’s birthday on Friday, party for him and youngest son on Saturday, followed by WWE Raw for the family on Monday on my five-year-old’s birthday. Not to mention I get to mow the lawn this week to prepare for said party and finish up the laundry all while squeezing in work and exercise. I’m getting tired just typing all of that.

I am going to make one of Dr. Oz’s Green Drinks for dinner tonight and depending on how I feel or how hungry I get, I may continue the liquids tomorrow. I just want my heartburn hostilities to stop. Oh and I lost Zero pounds this week despite staying under calories and exercising. Not discouraged in the least, just stating this morning’s weigh in.

 

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