One woman…

…on a mission to get healthy!

One week down… January 13, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 2:43 pm

…Ten pounds gone! I’m okay with that. I’m feeling out of control though right now. I did great all week on exercising and logging foods. I stayed under my calorie goals each day but I’m just feeling wonky. I don’t know that I can explain it.

A friend suggested this year instead of setting New Year’s Resolutions to pick a word you want to work on throughout the year. I slept on it and the word that came back to me over and over was organization. I want to be better organized in every aspect of my life. I’m just getting overwhelmed with all that entails and I have pressing items coming up in the next couple of weeks that I have to devote a lot of my time toward. I’m taking it one day at a time and the good news is I’m not stress eating.

I’m sure my excitement mojo will return soon. I’m going to just continue doing what I’m doing now and see where it takes me.

 

It’s a love hate relationship January 31, 2013

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 1:35 pm

I love how I feel AFTER and most times DURING workouts but I haven’t found that mojo where I’m drooling at the mouth, can’t wait to exercise feeling just yet. It still feels like a chore. But I’m doing it. I’ve got goals to exercise 3x a day. I have the time. I might as well utilize it. I have my standing Slim in 6 workout and have been having fun with the Wii Fit for 30 minutes. I’m doing mostly the high energy exercises on it—hula hoop, obstacle course, boxing—and throwing in some of the other ones for brief breaks. Then on M-W-F I have the couch-5k training and T-T-S Wii Biggest Loser. This week I did two workouts M-T, three yesterday and am on my way to my second today. I’m waiting for lunch to settle and trying to upload something that needs to be emailed. After I pick up the kids from school, we’re going to come home and play outside for a bit and while I have dinner cooking will do my third workout of the day.
I told myself I HAVE to step up my workouts if I want to see losses. Hopefully I won’t dread them when I wake up in the mornings and it will be one of the things I most look forward to for my day.
The rest of my day will be spent planning menus for the upcoming couple of weeks, some laundry, and just enjoying life.

 

Mechanical Malfunction September 26, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 8:57 am

Yep. That’s what happened this morning when I weighed in. I moved the Wii board from the side to the center of the room and failed to notice one of the legs fell off. I weighed in at 283.8 which would have been a loss of 5.4 pounds and about on par with the way I’ve been losing weight thus far. I had to have quickie weigh in since it’s picture day for the kiddos at school so I wrapped it up and finished getting them ready and headed on to the bus stop to sit and wait. And wait some more. We were about two minutes late getting there and the driver is not known for waiting for us so we waited until 7:05 and went back home. That’s when I noticed the errant leg…sitting beside the board. My mom had also called during this time to tell me the bus passed her house at 7:15. (There’s 10 minutes between our two houses and it takes about 4 minutes to get to the stop and I retrieved the message at 7:17 on my cell. Yeah try doing that math first thing in the morning to decide if we’d make it back to the bus stop in time for the kids to catch the bus or just have Jeff take them to school like we had planned.)

I knew I had one of two options

  • Keep the original 283.8 weight and expect at best a no loss next week or more than likely a gain or
  • Go ahead and put the leg back on and just re-weigh.

I decided I would rather go ahead and re-weigh and know my accurate weight this week since I know I should be expecting Mother Nature’s visit any time in the next week to 10 days. Besides I had an awesome NSV this morning. I met my one little goal I set and that was to fit into those hot pink shorts I bought two years ago!

This is me in my hot pink shorts. Weight: 286.8. Total Loss: 57.2 pounds!

 

754 September 5, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 1:36 pm

That’s my number for the Race. It came in the mail Saturday. Guess it makes it that much more real. Less than two weeks now and I’m still having stamina issues. I did c25k w2d3 this morning and about got dehydrated. I made it through the 4th jogging set and realized that I wasn’t sweating. I was drinking water in the walking sets but I guess it wasn’t enough.
Had one of the kids bring me my G2 and I walked the rest. Came inside with a cool rag and started sweating and feeling better. Tonight I’m going to walk two miles or at least see how far I can go. I need to make sure I can at least WALK that far if I’m not going to be able to jog it. I haven’t been exercising like I should. I KNOW I NEED to exercise and I do have the TIME to do it. I just don’t. It’s something to work on.
Now for the good news…after the 3 pound gain from last week, I lost it along with almost 6 of it’s friends! Down to 290.6 this morning! Sure shocked me. I finished my wii fit routine and had to go into the graphs to actually get the weight because I was sure I read that number wrong. But nope. I read it right. Just goes to show you to work through it no matter what and I was right not giving up on myself!

 

Weighty Roller Coaster September 1, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 9:27 am

Here it is. My adult weight loss attempts. And to think in high school I swore I would never ever diet and become a yo-yo dieter. But look at it. It’s there in black and white..and blue. I graduated high school in May 1991 at around 195 pounds and I swore that I would never ever diet again. I did the good old Slimfast diet before my senior year in high school and got down to 175.

It wasn’t the diet itself that ruined me on dieting per se. It was the fact that I was working one Saturday and my Mom called up and asked what I wanted for lunch and I said just bring me whatever. She was ordering Dad’s lunch from a local burger dive and I just assumed she was ordering me something from there as well. WRONG. She brought me one well mixed frozen Slimfast concoction and I just couldn’t stomach drinking it. I had my heart set on a greasy cheeseburger and fries and that shake didn’t begin to resemble them. My Mom during this time also lost a large chunk of weight and was down to a size 10 (before vanity sizing mind you) and liked the shakes. Even at 17, I knew that yo-yo dieting was bad and I just decided that wasn’t for me and to accept me for who I was.

For 10 years, I didn’t. I gained the freshman 50 instead of the 15. I weighed around 236 at the end of my Freshman year. But I biked and my dorm was the farthest away from campus so I lost the 15 and pretty much maintained around 220-225 all through college. I’ve never had a problem with self esteem. I know that I’m beautiful inside and out. There’s just more of me to love.

Then in 1996, I quit working at Walmart. I was still going to school full-time and got a job working at the TV station full-time. Translate that into sitting on my ass for 10 hours a day instead of standing on my feet. My clothes still fit me the same. I went in for my yearly check-up. I stepped on the scale—252. I joked at the woman and told her my purse must’ve been on there with me and made her weigh me again. There was no way I could weigh that much! But yep. In just three months I put on that much weight.

I didn’t actually decide to do something about my weight until 2001. The weights on my chart are all from my fitday. I hated having to give it up but they only offer mobile to iphone users and I’m going to go with what’s convenient for me.

  • April 2, 2001—294 first recorded weight
  • May 28, 2001—268.5 lowest weight on my first attempt also right after my divorce
  • Nov. 2, 2001—273.5 Started getting comfortable and let a few pounds back on
  • May 2, 2002—290 Found out I was pregnant with our first child
  • July 14, 2003—317 Found out I was pregnant with our second child
  • Feb. 3, 2004—304 Gave birth to our second child. Actually lost weight in prengancy
  • Feb. 6, 2004—295 Lost 9 pounds after giving birth.
  • Feb. 28, 2005—250 Lowest weight from second attempt at losing weight (got comfortable in new body)
  • June 27, 2005—266 Third pregnancy
  • Aug. 1, 2005— 265 Miscarriage
  • January 2, 2006—287.5 Found out pregnant with our third child
  • October 12, 2006—290 Attempt to lose weight after giving birth
  • May 1, 2007—315 Almost back up to my highest weight
  • June 18, 2007—293 Another attempt at weight loss
  • Oct. 14, 2007—313 Put the weight back on
  • Nov. 19, 2007—297.8 Lost a few more pounds
  • Jan. 7, 2008—302.6 Gained some over the holidays
  • Feb. 18, 2008—278.8 Ran my first 5k
  • May 19, 2008—247.8 Lowest I’ve been in my adult life since trying to lose weight
  • June 12, 2009—344 Highest I’ve ever been in my adult life

I’ve since started and stopped trying to lose weight several times since that last recorded weight in fitday. I couldn’t even count. I received my Wii fit for Christmas in 2009 but it took me until this year to finally get below the 330 to even be able to play it. The kids have had much use out of it before then. Let’s see I’m on day 200 something so that’s how long I’ve been using it.

Yes, I could look at this graph and say, “Damn, I’m good at quitting,” but I’m not. I can look at this graph and say “You can do this.” I do know what I need to do. I know that I have to change my life in every aspect food and exercise wise.

Yes, I can choose to still live the way I was living but that will be as a 300+ pound fat woman. But I CHOOSE to eat healthy AND exercise so I can find the healthy woman inside and ride a real roller coaster again!

 

Peaking my head out August 31, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 1:34 pm

I have survived the birthday weekend…barely. I won’t say unscathed because I came out with a three pound gain and a loss of direction. I haven’t been able to get back on track but I’m going to quote one of my favorite quotes:

Failing to plan is planning to fail.

It is so true. I haven’t been planning. That’s not exactly true. I’ve been half-ass planning. And then I let it all go to hell by the end of the day. I have intentions of planning but don’t. I can see how easy it is to slip back into the old habit without a backward glance.
First it was the exercise to go and it went quickly. Then planning the meals. Yes I planned on not having the healthiest of meals on Saturday and only on Saturday. But Saturday turned into Sunday which turned into Monday. On Monday I told myself I’ll get back on track on Tuesday. Let’s get the rest of the birthday celebrations over with and you will get back on track.
Had breakfast, lunch, and snacks planned out. Yes I knew we would probably end up eating Sonic burgers for dinner and even allotted the calories for that beast. Then I got home and chowed down on the ice cream left in the fridge and I can’t even remember what else. Why? I have no idea. It was there? Bored? I truly don’t know.
I haven’t done any of the c25k in over two weeks and the Race is now in just over two weeks. I have faith in myself that I can do it. I know that I can do it even if I have to walk really fast but I want to jog it. This is what usually happens to me and why I can never count on will power alone, especially when motivation leaves me. I haven’t given up and I know I will get back on track.

 

Plugging away August 25, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 1:07 pm

Yeah that’s me. And that’s about all I’ve got for the past couple of days. Did I mention it’s going to be a hectic week? I’m eating well. My stomach is doing well. I’m not getting my exercise in unless you count all the cleaning I’m doing. But I am here. :)

 

Well that was embarrassing August 17, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 10:25 pm

I stopped at my usual place to fill up the van with gas. I went in to pay & the lady at the counter goes “have you lost weight…” & I said yes while she was saying the lady’s name in line behind me. I was wearing a form fitting black t-shirt & thought maybe someone might notice my weight loss. I guess because my weight loss has been a gradual stair step it’s not noticeable.

On a positive note, I came across some of my clothes that I “outgrew” & packed away. With the way my current loss is going I’ll be fitting into them in no time.

 

Stress upon stress upon stress August 12, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 12:33 pm

Even though stress is becoming the main focus detractor, hell I don’t know the word right now but it’s hot and heavy right now. I don’t even know where to begin but by saying that I’ve been eating under my calories and logging…for the most part. The mini vaca went well and I could’ve easily gone way off track and had it been any longer, I probably would have.

By Sunday, I stopped logging all together and started eating crappy. Got home. Refocused and got back on track. Then it was time to get the kids ready for school, meet the teachers, have storms knock out power to work, get the kids to school, have storms knock out power and water to work so I could stay home from work one day only to come in to work today to find out about my insurance situation.

In all this I haven’t turned to food! I haven’t exactly eaten the best possible choices and I’m not exercising but it is a start. Now that the first couple days of school are out of the way and the first weekend is here, I can sit down and write out a new schedule and get me in a groove.