Weighty Roller Coaster September 1, 2011
Here it is. My adult weight loss attempts. And to think in high school I swore I would never ever diet and become a yo-yo dieter. But look at it. It’s there in black and white..and blue. I graduated high school in May 1991 at around 195 pounds and I swore that I would never ever diet again. I did the good old Slimfast diet before my senior year in high school and got down to 175.
It wasn’t the diet itself that ruined me on dieting per se. It was the fact that I was working one Saturday and my Mom called up and asked what I wanted for lunch and I said just bring me whatever. She was ordering Dad’s lunch from a local burger dive and I just assumed she was ordering me something from there as well. WRONG. She brought me one well mixed frozen Slimfast concoction and I just couldn’t stomach drinking it. I had my heart set on a greasy cheeseburger and fries and that shake didn’t begin to resemble them. My Mom during this time also lost a large chunk of weight and was down to a size 10 (before vanity sizing mind you) and liked the shakes. Even at 17, I knew that yo-yo dieting was bad and I just decided that wasn’t for me and to accept me for who I was.
For 10 years, I didn’t. I gained the freshman 50 instead of the 15. I weighed around 236 at the end of my Freshman year. But I biked and my dorm was the farthest away from campus so I lost the 15 and pretty much maintained around 220-225 all through college. I’ve never had a problem with self esteem. I know that I’m beautiful inside and out. There’s just more of me to love.
Then in 1996, I quit working at Walmart. I was still going to school full-time and got a job working at the TV station full-time. Translate that into sitting on my ass for 10 hours a day instead of standing on my feet. My clothes still fit me the same. I went in for my yearly check-up. I stepped on the scale—252. I joked at the woman and told her my purse must’ve been on there with me and made her weigh me again. There was no way I could weigh that much! But yep. In just three months I put on that much weight.
I didn’t actually decide to do something about my weight until 2001. The weights on my chart are all from my fitday. I hated having to give it up but they only offer mobile to iphone users and I’m going to go with what’s convenient for me.
- April 2, 2001—294 first recorded weight
- May 28, 2001—268.5 lowest weight on my first attempt also right after my divorce
- Nov. 2, 2001—273.5 Started getting comfortable and let a few pounds back on
- May 2, 2002—290 Found out I was pregnant with our first child
- July 14, 2003—317 Found out I was pregnant with our second child
- Feb. 3, 2004—304 Gave birth to our second child. Actually lost weight in prengancy
- Feb. 6, 2004—295 Lost 9 pounds after giving birth.
- Feb. 28, 2005—250 Lowest weight from second attempt at losing weight (got comfortable in new body)
- June 27, 2005—266 Third pregnancy
- Aug. 1, 2005— 265 Miscarriage
- January 2, 2006—287.5 Found out pregnant with our third child
- October 12, 2006—290 Attempt to lose weight after giving birth
- May 1, 2007—315 Almost back up to my highest weight
- June 18, 2007—293 Another attempt at weight loss
- Oct. 14, 2007—313 Put the weight back on
- Nov. 19, 2007—297.8 Lost a few more pounds
- Jan. 7, 2008—302.6 Gained some over the holidays
- Feb. 18, 2008—278.8 Ran my first 5k
- May 19, 2008—247.8 Lowest I’ve been in my adult life since trying to lose weight
- June 12, 2009—344 Highest I’ve ever been in my adult life
I’ve since started and stopped trying to lose weight several times since that last recorded weight in fitday. I couldn’t even count. I received my Wii fit for Christmas in 2009 but it took me until this year to finally get below the 330 to even be able to play it. The kids have had much use out of it before then. Let’s see I’m on day 200 something so that’s how long I’ve been using it.
Yes, I could look at this graph and say, “Damn, I’m good at quitting,” but I’m not. I can look at this graph and say “You can do this.” I do know what I need to do. I know that I have to change my life in every aspect food and exercise wise.
Yes, I can choose to still live the way I was living but that will be as a 300+ pound fat woman. But I CHOOSE to eat healthy AND exercise so I can find the healthy woman inside and ride a real roller coaster again!